One day this pain will go away
One day everything will be okay
When I think of you my stomach hurts
My heart feels even worse

Everyone keeps telling me to let go
But I can't, for reasons only you know
I want to scream, I want to cry
Inside I feel like I might die

Thinking of your eyes, your smile
Will make me happy for a little while
The pain will always come back
I feel like my heart might crack

Please don't leave me alone forever
One day, I promise we will be togeher

Before it happened I was excited.
It was daring.
I could impress you like you impressed me.
Show you I was caring.

Before it happened I knew it wasn't going to work.
It was a nightmare.
We sat on the red plastic seats like at school.
People around us glanced and began to stare.

As it happened I only took six steps.
And then we were seen.
We went through the grey door, the evidence.
On the computer screen.

As it happened I told you I loved you.
You had noticed.
You hugged me with a tear in your eye
At that moment we felt the closest.

After it happened we walked out togeher, your arm around me.
Mine around your waist.
You claimed it was only you to blame as we were there.
Being encased.

After it happened you joked about always wanting to be here.
Just not on this side.
I hugged you tight and didn't want to let go.
And I cried inside.

Now its over I feel so ashamed.
I could've said no.
You would have thought no less of me.
Had i done so.

Now its over I lie here in my bed worrying that you'll look for.
The razors I hid.
Please don't. Talk to me and let me help you get through.
What we did.

As she falls into a dream
Completely unaware
Of reality.
Her heart bounds,
Skips,
And leaps into the night sky.
Takes a dive
Into the fathmless deep
Blue ocean of happiness
That drowns her.
Reminds her of a moment,
That peculated the air
From her lungs.
Made her breathless.
Stole the peices of her heart,
And mended them,
Togeher.
With the illumination of
A thousand fireflies.
As if though, stars aligned perfectly,
To form the stitches.
The the refreshigly,
Cool,
Crisp night wind as thread.
Suddenly, she realised
That her lungs
Have turned water
Into air
And oxygenated her clouded thoughts
Into butterflies.
Her eyes open,
And the bliss,
Melts away when the spot beside her
Is empty of his warmth.
Yet,
Said butterflies have left to leave
The enclosure of her abdomen,
Slowly,
Filling her heart
With those winged beats
Of love.