Lost love letters
Crammed into boxes
Forgotten first kisses
Left in the backseat
Eyes like oceans
Crushing
The beating drum
I so rely on
Souls disconnected
By distance
Wasteland of old photos
Fading with stolen memories

As she found him
She lost herself
Everything given
Was also taken

All these years
Devoted to nothing
Wasted on promises
Drenched in lies

When he leaves
As he often does
What does she have
Without him

She is connected
By words
And ideas
And *******

Attached
With thoughts
And strings
Leading nowhere

Forfeiting happiness
To feel alive
For one single night
As he feels success

Devoting her life
To someone sick
And twisted
Who doesn’t give a ****

She can only help herself
And find herself
Rid herself
Of this unfair lifestyle

Four years ago you were mine
Time stood still
As I looked into your eyes

All I wanted
Pressed against my lips
So perfect
Absolute bliss

Fast forward to now
Basically strangers
Everything is different
From “I love you” to “I hate you”

Don’t tell me you need me
And ask me to stay
Or give me that smirk
None of this is okay

You’re just another boy
You don’t mean ****
Yet I think I need you
The longing is sick

Using me isn’t cute
My feelings aren’t a game
I don’t know why
You had to change

Listen to me
My whispers are desperate
You took my breathe
Until none was accepted

I hate
That you left me
Drowning
In your lies

I hate
That you don't care
I was always
By your side

I hate
That my bestfriend
Turned into
A monster

I hate
That we don't talk
Any longer

I hate
Myself
For letting you go

I hate
You
For making me hate
All the things
I used to love

All these months
You've been in my head
Screaming to get out
When that's what I dread

Your long hair
Used to drive me crazy
But you cut it short
Now the memory's hazy

Things used to be different
We didn't care
Now everything's changed
And that I can't bare

You're lost in my mind
I don't know who you are  
The boy that used to kiss me
Now those lips are so far

Those nights we had
Are lost at sea
Waiting to be forgotten
Completely

The night of stolen kisses
That my lips didn't deserve
Carresses you wanted for her
Touches that would later hurt

The night you held me
In a way I cannot forget
You looked at me like I was everything
But I wasn't what you wanted

The night of mistakes
That will forever haunt me
Sleeping next to you
Was everything and nothing

The night of many things
That turned into losing you..

The sound of your name is so worn out
Like a road I know too well
Getting lost every once in a while
When the thought of you appears
Like a deer
In the middle of the street
I almost hit you head on
But stop just in time
To get you off my mind