"propably" poems - Hello Poetry

what and if when combined makes a very strong loop an endless loop loop that is very hard to escape from once you let this two english words into your bones you'll gonna have trouble sleeping and propably even thinking you can follow your heart but you can also follow your mind but don't ever ever forget that some expectations can lead to disappointment -AA

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Apr 19, 2014

Apr 19, 2014 at 12:09 AM UTC

aby-alvarez

what if

what and if when combined makes a very strong loop an endless loop loop that is very hard to escape from once you let this two english words into your bones you'll gonna have trouble sleeping and propably even thinking you can follow your heart but you can also follow your mind but don't ever ever forget that some expectations can lead to disappointment -AA

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So I never thought I would be writing this...I have recently had some amazing conversations with some inspirational people; who have all helped me to see where I have gone wrong recently:and trust me I have gone wrong a lot..... Depression......what a word...I dont want that word near me;but its what I have been. Its an illness in the most complex ***** of the body that affects every aspect of you....sleep, food, ability to communicate effectively, or not communicate at all feeling fear of some thing and not quite sure what it is you may be fearing...There are feelings of anger, It's so strange, confusing, lonely, enlightening, interesting, challenging, reminiscent, sad, ashaming, happy although most of all thoughtful and thankful. Its an illness that one in three of us suffer from. I actually believe that every one does, although people have different coping mechanisms. This is what I am learning about myself and others at the moment. Anyway...back to that word DEPRESSION....I have just written that in capitals for some reason, its like the big black word - lol....For me it should be called realisation...my depression has been about change and managing this effectively and some times not so effectively....I have experienced change in who I am...peoples perception of me, and in every realtionship in my life there has been some adjusting....it been an interesting journey. My angels...my friends and family....they are like diamonds in the sky...They have been there through this hard journey and I know it has not been easy for any of us....thank you for still loving me and continuing to understand me when I know at times you have wondered where the strong, open, bubbly fun JC has gone. And I know I have propably cause you a lot of frustration on the way, I know I have as I have caused myself some...lol. I understand that and appriciate each and every one of you...thank you for your advice, smiles, for making me laugh when all I wanted to do was cry...I never knew humans could cry so many tears. You have picked me up when I was struggling and each in your individual ways and have carried me forwards...some times I have not recognise the impact of your words or actions for months...but suddenly some thing clicks... I have been to some dark places recently and you have supported me and loved me...so for that my diamonds I will be eternally grateful..... Some diamonds have been light and powerful and some have been heavy and wonderful.

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May 19, 2016

May 19, 2016 at 2:41 PM UTC

Bewhoyouare

Learning

So I never thought I would be writing this...I have recently had some amazing conversations with some inspirational people; who have all helped me to see where I have gone wrong recently:and trust me I have gone wrong a lot..... Depression......what a word...I dont want that word near me;but its what I have been. Its an illness in the most complex ***** of the body that affects every aspect of you....sleep, food, ability to communicate effectively, or not communicate at all feeling fear of some thing and not quite sure what it is you may be fearing...There are feelings of anger, It's so strange, confusing, lonely, enlightening, interesting, challenging, reminiscent, sad, ashaming, happy although most of all thoughtful and thankful. Its an illness that one in three of us suffer from. I actually believe that every one does, although people have different coping mechanisms. This is what I am learning about myself and others at the moment. Anyway...back to that word DEPRESSION....I have just written that in capitals for some reason, its like the big black word - lol....For me it should be called realisation...my depression has been about change and managing this effectively and some times not so effectively....I have experienced change in who I am...peoples perception of me, and in every realtionship in my life there has been some adjusting....it been an interesting journey. My angels...my friends and family....they are like diamonds in the sky...They have been there through this hard journey and I know it has not been easy for any of us....thank you for still loving me and continuing to understand me when I know at times you have wondered where the strong, open, bubbly fun JC has gone. And I know I have propably cause you a lot of frustration on the way, I know I have as I have caused myself some...lol. I understand that and appriciate each and every one of you...thank you for your advice, smiles, for making me laugh when all I wanted to do was cry...I never knew humans could cry so many tears. You have picked me up when I was struggling and each in your individual ways and have carried me forwards...some times I have not recognise the impact of your words or actions for months...but suddenly some thing clicks... I have been to some dark places recently and you have supported me and loved me...so for that my diamonds I will be eternally grateful..... Some diamonds have been light and powerful and some have been heavy and wonderful.

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A lack of self reflection caused a tumult of upset A lack of self determination cause a wave of missed opportunities And it was the lack of understanding that meant we weren't meant to be Its hard really to self confess an ending which has not yet happened but when you know deep down it's propably meant to end Not out of hate or a concern that became an all consuming factor over time, but A lack self diagnosis that meant I struggled to spot the problem An abundance of youth which meant we were meant to learn not love.

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Aug 21, 2024

Aug 21, 2024 at 6:17 AM UTC

Lucas_208

A lack of

A lack of self reflection caused a tumult of upset A lack of self determination cause a wave of missed opportunities And it was the lack of understanding that meant we weren't meant to be Its hard really to self confess an ending which has not yet happened but when you know deep down it's propably meant to end Not out of hate or a concern that became an all consuming factor over time, but A lack self diagnosis that meant I struggled to spot the problem An abundance of youth which meant we were meant to learn not love.

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I wanna run away Not for me But for you. You need someone better than me Not a crazy ***** like me, Who does nothing good for you I make you worry I cause you pain I am no good You told me to write a love letter And here it is, If you're gonna cut me out Do it now Do it before it starts hurting Don't be afraid That I Will hurt myself I propably Will. Forget about me Burn every last memory of me Let me run away I won't look back I won't say goodbye I Will do it for you Don't waste your tears I am not worth Any drop of water Except the water that Will drown me Let me sink into the depth Of a long forgotten memory

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Feb 13, 2018

Feb 13, 2018 at 2:24 PM UTC

Waywardfreak

A Love Letter

I wanna run away Not for me But for you. You need someone better than me Not a crazy ***** like me, Who does nothing good for you I make you worry I cause you pain I am no good You told me to write a love letter And here it is, If you're gonna cut me out Do it now Do it before it starts hurting Don't be afraid That I Will hurt myself I propably Will. Forget about me Burn every last memory of me Let me run away I won't look back I won't say goodbye I Will do it for you Don't waste your tears I am not worth Any drop of water Except the water that Will drown me Let me sink into the depth Of a long forgotten memory

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