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Abigail Kruke Mar 2015
rain,
peaceful, calm  
pouring, pounding, dripping
cloudburst, drizzle, vapor, condenses
murking, glooming, falling  
shimmering, thin
mist.
Nurse Joy Aug 2014
Shadows
Inky, somber
Shrouding, murking, glooming
My soul conjoins with the umbra
Darkness
- K T P - Dec 2012
What has happened to me?
My home invaded with malevolent glee!
All my furniture has been moved!
To places that I do not approve!
Strangers rummaging through my once quaint estate!
Murking it with audacious goods without my debate!

I worked to hard for all my stuff!
How dare you move it away so ruff!
If only I could push you away,
I do not want you to stay!
This home is all I have left.
I will fight on, even if you all are deft!

Here once was my glorious dinning room,
Now a den for mongrel fraternity fume!
The debaucher in these once quaint walls,
Enrages me as my would-be tear falls.
There must be a way to get my home back!
So many young men I yearn to smack!

Why these boys to take over my home?
They treat it like a lurid **** in ancient Rome!
If only I could.. Oh wait I can!
Move this garbage brought by man!
Lets see how you like you secret hidden stash of ***,
Ending up in the neighbor’s lot!

Or how about these insipid pile of clothes
Draped with my thorns and rose!
What are these strange record tables?
Why would you need two to play two old vynal labels?
This stuff is so confusing to me.
Endless dull colors and metals as far as I can see.

Well if I am stuck living with you feral beasts,
A little discipline is in order, in the very least!
First, we must clean this god-forsaken mess.
Let me show you where these clothes should rest.
Then I will find a way to tame you wild young devils,
To respect your lady guests during your revels.

Maybe that is why I am still here?
Trapped with these oaths, who cause me to leer.
Is this torment for being such an old grinch?
Every penny stored and accounted for in the pinch.
Your judgment is harsh, dear lord, for placing me here.
Now lets see how these boys handle my ghostly enraged fear.
Mateuš Conrad Apr 2020
the upper-house of the *****: the slaughterhouse...
  that / the / it...
    "        
"ta" wyższa-izba rzeszy: rzeźń... point to argue:
                                           rzeźnia...
why then... am i conjuring up
a don't from a do not...
    with the shortening: rzeźń?

i hardly don't know what to make
of the post 2004 mass migration
from the newly acquired: "proto-roman empire"
expansion project from those
Belgian chocolatiers...
          if this is a joke of the vierte *****...
which it is... the drei ***** and the 1000 years...

depends on the locality of said tongue...
once a token ******... never a token... ******...
not when the beer and sausages were shipped:
i never felt more, nor less:
home...             beside the ground on
which i stand?
                    all this talk of home...
home... dom... the sky?
               wait until another whimsical trickle
of russian or german to settled the matter?
will then: herr... zeitundimmerstrikt  &
                       товарищ сейчасзагадка...

mellow this... branch of the house of ßaß...
                  
- hardly an impromptu -
      there was no chance that a polish-liathuanian
commonwealth would
"come back" together...

  not through the civil war: that can hardly
be deemed a civil war...
which - whatever the beginnings...
the ukranian cossack uprising...

and sweden and russia and the ottoman
empire nibbling...

what arose or was drawn with better
stencils than the middle-east...
            only left "us" with...
a sub-group of people that...
spoke their own gvara (vulgate)...

whatever was left of "us"...
sooner or later died... L'viv was deserted...
the Volhynia...
                   "schizoid"...

that "we" didn't become the prior to
Yugoslavia...
the difference were already apparent...
the Galicians and the Kashubians...
i'd venture as far as to call the Masovians
the Prussians of this little nugget of land...
let's in part call one the Welsh...
and the other Scots...
              but... no more will a Miłosz...
or a Mickiewicz cite odes to Lithuania...
when what was Lithuania a lore ago...
   which it isn't now...      a baltic enclave...

how terrible of me to come with
the beer and the sausages and the sourdough...
i blame that on the 2004 spike...
they're all returning home...
     a "home" the remains soon to be written off...
the grandparents...
soon to be written off...
             i'll be coming "home" like
a ******* tourist... perhaps one day...
Toruń will oblige me with me in it...
or Lublin...

                 to have made a home out out
Edinburgh...
         hell... if Cardiff could have retained
an old quarter... of architecture... i'd have settled
for it and took up lessons in Welsh...

and, this is not a joke:
why won't you find, a willing rabbi...
to convert you...
the muslims on the other hand...
are so willing: i was a german on edgeware rd.
once...
why won't you find a willing rabbi...
to convert you?
if it was only a "concern of detail"
for the kippah and a circumcision...
but... over-arching... you weren't "chosen"...
proselyte...
   what's the definition in islam...
not apostate: not a non-believer...

a proselyte: pawns on a game of chess...
that they were nurtured without
their own knowing...
   the mamluks and the janissary...
                
such grand words being thrown about...
  Galicia... Ruthenia...
        
the old world with the old words:
oculus per oculus - an eye for an eye...
           guilt a burden of both the righteous
and the ignominious:
that... a wisdom bound to serve:
a toothpick... since a chopstick does not
suffice!

  guilt: a burden shared by both the guilty:
and the guiltless...
           that i should be the one to know:
the difference of good AND evil...
one and the same... a "working progress"...
well: with AND...
i probably, i suspect:
  that i shouldn't be able to state:
EITHER good OR evil...
           i have to drag this empty coffin
to the burial ground...
to know the difference between: good AND evil
is NOT:
   you will be able to say:
it's EITHER good OR bad...
                             good and evil muddled...
it this... grand... spectacular:
"plot twist"!

           home is where i decide to pluck
consonants and vowels from:
apart from the spike circa 2004... no more...
i just need the minor distinction of letters...
if you'd want to see what sort
of a catholic church whip! and leash!
came after: pope! saint! jean-paul II...
  to have this man glorified...
for simply kissing airport tarmack like
a muslim imitation of prayer...

      the greatest footballers from the former:
satellite commonwealth: "whittle poland"...
of the 1970s... polish jazz...
    the cold war blanket...
              typo riddled scripts itching to get out
of east Berlin and G.D.R. - Berlin, Prague?
****... Cracow - hardly the selling point...
nor is Bratislava or... Masovian Minsk...

Sorbian? yeah yeah... that Serbian of the north...
gentlemen! we have infiltrated zee *****!
   ode to the: Lusatians and the Wends!
project glasgow! speak us much of a joseph
merrick english as is required:
but no diacritical markers!
   leave the "concept" of orthography to Dickens...
making a survey of: d'ah d'um 'uck of
cockney and 'ears... p'p'***...

                clearly i do not require enclaves...
or... those... birmingham esque minarets...
          i'd very much like to keep my ******...
since "i've" lost the lithuanian to project: подчищать это!

the ukranians: bandy УПА...
     the croat nazis: NDH...
                      the ukranians can settle their... ahem...
"differences" with the tsar and tsarina...
but i'm happy to have indulged in the smuggling
to tobacco... case in point:
lately from Romania... and Moldova:
which could perhaps be: one and the same...
the selling price in england: circa 10 quid...
on the black market? stepping up to 5 quid a packet...
once upon a time: three-and-a-fifty (pence)...

limitations of "******* anonymous"...
   peerage... eyes looking up...
         the lost stars... the moon and sun...
                thus gained?
            impromptu suggestion:
                glued to a hypnosis of a...
            mantis... slobber-mouth... smeared
with tummy-juices...
    and nothing of a LOL...
                        when... at least back then:
clean-shaven... it wouldn't have mattered...
to reverse the: gorge-job...
came the slippery p.s. from gomorrah:
we eats ******* 'ere...
*****: ergo: no go zone-out...
    postulating the birth of a tapeworm
from a sprout of squeezed acne... plush: said
the very-berry and... and over-matured plum
and pear trickle graffiti...

which brings no known point of introspection
when she's doing her:
milan kundera moment:
do you pierce - the eyes are a needle
and a thread: and there's also a camel...
which very much depends on kissing
the lips and... gorging on a "flower"...

spaced-out monkey-zombie brains...
endowed... h'america... a land of lazily associated
english sounding town-names...
around noon: father fatigue...
           crisp cut: mississippi lobotomy blues...
is a ****-muncher a citizen of gomorrah?
that's not a question, not, really...

             imagine william burroughs attempting
to write a comic book script...
while shooting shelves of paint urns
onto a canvas: what sort of comic book
reads when pursuing an adventure into
Kandinsky?
                   it's not pretentious it's not
indigenous: but a proper bacon wrap is done
so... with a dollop of h.p. sauce...
period...

milking the natives shying away under
the moon and crescent:
look no further! from under the hammer and
sickle... sun and scythe...
from under the iron curtain into
this limbo la-la-land of: the silicon macabre:
niqab'aeh...
   that: ma'caaaaa (b) (surd) - almost...
forget the trill... the rattle-snake...
                              the peerage of: your lordship!

           pleateau of the readily available
butcher's choice... murking the waters...
  there will never be enough of mud...
  to cover these tracks of ***** and celeste!

   tyler bates - cucksocker;
******* on corks with no screws...
after the fire - der kommissar...
            
a soundtrack for all those "girlfiends" you'd
want to top up with...
when playing videogames...

no... beyond the scope of tenchu:
i lost the plot of peering onto a canvas
that seemed to borrow too much
from the mario bros. respite...
the detail: the graphics:
the sims and the simps and all those
words that never:
was it merely i... or did...
graffiti simply: do the dodo project
act and antic?!

           party time at the brothel:
does it matter they're all bulgarian pretending
to be romanian?
does it?
        
this goes pop... i'll be rummaging in my grave
trying to curb my shadow from
turning into a neon-flare:
but i won't...
                    this is registered under
the "pseudonym" of under-paid: sent...
i lick the envelope...
i lick the stamp...
imagine my disbelief that i suddenly
do not become a philatelist!

                the cheap cigarettes is a'plenty...
i will never wish or hope or dream...
of disturbing that 'appy 'appy land
of psychopaths and the beatles *****
taking a sly turn via
ohio having a punctured rubber...
because in the land of cain...
celebrated as they are: those *******...
no...
      not "here" not "anywhere": not " now"...
h'america i'll be most glad to look
away from...
       but thank you thank you: much kudos...
and the IRA have served up
their signature to the collective
research project...
stemming from the chants of Tehran...
via the...
             we had coffee over in Beirut...
at the time when...
all the trash-workers were working
on the symphony concerning
                    down syndrome's take on
h'arab schpring!

Tyrone in Tangiers: in the 1960s...
because love of man for man...
back when...
   harems and polygamy was all a rage
among the arabs...
it was either jerking off..
joining the army...
finding the next of kin and kin:
"plumbing issue"...
to eat out ****... became equivalent to
butterflies...
and the gardener imploring:
i! hippocrates!

                 strobe disco lights... epilepsy challenge!
cue lazarus: goodbye rodeo!
               that boyfriend you could...
but this isn't Prague...
    and there's no... you could:
or an i hope to: either...
Berlin green... elsewhere all but blue...
but in germ-and-the-many...
it's: gween...
              
                    neon-gween...
       ­                             exfoliations of the ****...
when... sitting the crucified pose
of being strapped to the throne of thrones...
all that is required of us...
is to...
        rummage... sift... and...
                     place into rubric cages...
these following items...
sacrilege (a)...
             sacrilege (b)...
                            lacklustre concerns for
catholic intellect... beside the pompous fwench:
item (c)...
the crucifix is an instrument of torture:
i hear avow... the need to gesticulate...
prayer... before the altar of the womb of mary:
the ******... the iron maiden!
i will consecrate my knees...
and my quote of shakespeare: as to how
hands do the bidding of lips...
when monks pray and... sub-se-quen-tly...
n'est ce pas?

                                  enough! the curtain
is about to fall sacred: to either the sound of silence...
to the hush of aghast... or.... applause!

   a tale of david: the story of...
because... somehow... the same letter...
had to find exfoliation in: beside geometry...
how nabla married deltu...
            ∇                       Δ

both of the same "eye"...
         ∇: this is moses...
                     Δ: this is, "the" pharaoh...

              please... no amount of shoeline...
or... these... the pork not eaten:
because not kosher: made into shoes
and belts... will do away...
with judaism and her ha-gar: sarah:
islam... the son of the cocubine... ishamel...
islam...

desert people politics...
      such are the affairs of people who know
only sand, wind - water and shade...
who have no concern or concept for:
the fern and the pig... the forest...
and the siberia tundra...

"we" were "invited" and at the same time...
appealing to the rationing of "beliefs"
lost by the greeks...
doubly lost by the plagiarism of the romans...
zeus became jupiter: the sacking of troy...
blah blah:
keeping onto a past: when asking a people:
who, "had, no, past"!

          in praise of older women...
one comes to mind... Khadija **** Khuwaylid...
muhammad was illiterate, yes?
who wrote the first verses of the quran?
mein gott! a woman!
when all turned against him...
and before... he could... somehow... much later...
find his metaphysical bride: Ayisha...
blah blah centuries later:
toying with a kandinsky!
toying with a kandinsky!
    to hell with a linear narrative:
the "proverb run quote":
i'll sooner watch a cactus grow from my
outstretched hand... than i'll see the germans
re-unified...
so was the saying...
and so is the "counter" and "proof"...

        "home"... what a nice... sleeping-beauty
concept of / for concerns...
oculus per oculus...
                      because christianity wasn't
spreading fast enough...
and that new adventures up north
would only be revealed much later:
jawohl! mein kommandant!

                    did islam... emerge: to speed up
the process?
of turning... the crucifix... into anything
more than what was already required?!
a Q's worth of a *****?

          forgive me... if i don't pay homage
to this... hieroglyph... perhaps i might:
tool a "dyslexic" impromptu or tow: two!

by the time islam emerged...
               it took another 600 years to convert
lithuania: which poland defended...
       no matter: "we're" to blame for...
what?!
                 Q - the ***** and the egg...
which also means:
eqqs: ekks: not eggs...    
i try to eat at least one poultry
abortion a morning most willing come!

can shadows filter: dust-sodden-clay?
Mateuš Conrad Feb 2018
sure...
             if you called this the urban area
of Chelsea...
           i could stick my nose
outside my window
and sniff out a perfume of
        angst...
but this is Essex air...
         you stick your nose
out in these pinching crab-like
cold nights,
when the moon apparently walks
sideways?
           it's not fear you
interest yourself with...
     ask the Jordanians...
    and i'll tell you of the cold...
verhungern...
     i can **** my nose into
the cold air and expect you
to reply: fear...
         no, not really...
           there's something something
brooding far beyond a concept
of fear that might be comfortable,
equivalent to an armchair...
         there's a: feeding ground
brewing...
                 i can sense it in sniffing
the air at nearing 8p.m. on
a february night...
              there is no greater
antidote to the abstract of fear,
as the reality of: hunger...
             can i contest bile?
                        well...
                poo'h whittle fwy...
                   do i get the digestive
impetus, in, our outside m'ah
body?
            mind you, just itching
to "know"...
                   i leisured the
cinematic point of a sinking titanic,
finding the judas in
the engineering corp that
originated in constructing
this whale is another...
           laugh all you want...
costa concordia?
                   did that judas of a captain
hang?
            there's only one reason
people hate working...
they abhor taking on
responsibility...
               great for murking
oneself in the comedy
   gravitating toward the
   "professionalism" of lawyers...
as if they could ever be gifted
grammar teachers...
i'd sooner learn
how to do my shoelaces up from
******* al-qaeda
   than what's currently
on offer...
       which is:
                     silvio berlusconi
(81) mingling with
               francesca pascale (32)...
you do the math...
            hey...
good luck petting a gerbil
   calling it the masculine only female
genital nick names...
            can you smell it
though?
         no no... it's not angst...
      i'd like to call it a hungern...
                      you smell it?
  see, in northern europe my ethnicity
was called vermin, probably by
pakistani origin...
               but if you stick your nose
out the window in essex in february;
do you smell it?
                               this is the point
where i like to think
of the mothers of these smirking *******
in their ******* pajamas
they wear in public...
                  just an idea...
                       because when did
a ******* ****, ever condense to make
a mark on boston?!
                you smell that?!
     i'm still sniffing the air...
                   still can't tell **** from
a squirrel **** riddling this air;
smack on the gob alright...
              but please do so,
   i'm tired of hitting myself on the face.
Mateuš Conrad Feb 2018
i consider the new year very much like that of the Chinese... in that: why become so craving uplifting from the gloom so early in the months of winter? only now winter is biting, gnashing its teeth and riddling man: only now can man truly sense a revival, or what came to pass and what it to come... thankfuly the myth of the Dragon of Vavel involves a wise little kid, a sheep stuffed with sulphur: and an alcoholic dragon: who drank half the Vistula before having its stomach ruptured; for now comes the zenith of winter - December was such a mild month... who would have man is supposed to have the fuzziest of feelings beset by St. Valentine's? what? now?! when winter is: hardly mattering to make a case for love?!*

frankly - i thought it would have started sooner,
but after a month or so on this
island of trees and nightmares i could not
find my own feet, let alone the tongue
that: instead of being an icarus:
         was somehow shell-shocked in
the trenches at Ypres -
                                  almost a month upon
returning to this land of trees and nightmares
and nothing:
                       budding within me: utter
          despair -
                          a month wandering a labyrinth
fearful of the minotaur: without a minotaur
in sight - and still wandering until i met
my own shadow: fearful of it -
               it started to dawn me:
        were i not alone in the labyrinth to begin
with? so what minotaur was i actually looking
for? so i chanced upon hades and his
   centry cerberus and asked:
   to which he replied: have you forgotten
your own centry: the chimera?
                       it was plain to see that i was
actually readjusting to this land once more:
as i once did, so long ago:
        count to this a circa of twenty-three years...
some i am glad to remember
  others i am convinced have more to
glitches in the development of the frontal
cortex than can actually be ascribed:
          authentic misery...
but it had to happen at some point:
          in the lowest ebbs of hell known
to arab folk as zamharīr i found a mollusk
in a frozen tree: which showed me a pearl...
    and the mollusk said: i am your tongue
take it from me and be revived...
    of any days, but considering i was awake
from yesterday just three hours prior
to this hour upon which i write woken -
i can't remember whether last night
   had any meaning:
  but meaning there was -
               a feeble animal like creature -
scuttling in the night, fasting by day:
          possessing a ferocious appetite for
thai cuisine by night...
          who was that creature:
         who only said but one word upon
encountering earthly folk as a greeting:
ha-yah?
             seems the young swan has shed
its young feathers and allowed new feathers
to grow: sterner and worthy of
a new year: and a new flight.
for what did exactly pass through this day?
the man arose with the dawn
   and said: bid me well, bind me to your
motion and pull me as i can speak of
a goodnight...
         the man decided what best to concern
himself with regards to running a household...
   first he put on the washing...
       then he cleaned the house
   including his stench-filled murk of the previous
year...
          after all: what is a year if not
     a room uncleaned for about a month?
         same as the last year,
       and the year before that, and the year before...
having neglected his hygiene he then
   decided to baptise himself...
           because: after all?
                 what is hygiene if not sometimes
neglected?
               it sometimes means nothing
of a ritiualistic drama of army rigour to
constantly wash, as to say
   of the taoist and the mirror: or was
that al-Ghazzali: but i digress for one speaks
of the mind while the other of heart -
so to whom am i to ascribe the quote
that i can't cite verbatim:
           stop polishing the mirror of your
         mind all the time -
                     you'll frighten all the much
     necessary guests from murking
   it once in a while -
     for they must come, but they must
also leave: or rather: remember -
        you too are obliged to leave -
   sooner or later...
                 i guess i can only ascribe
that to myself...
                        given how the day unfolded...
so after having baptised myself:
    i wasn't any more cleaner nor dirtier
as before:
                     the body was "washed":
but rather the mind revived...
        soon the nearing 15th, 16th, 17th
hour of being awake didn't matter...
               i started my work in gehenna:
but instead of sacrificing children to the fire:
it was 5 chicken thighs:
     first fried for a crisp skin,
    later drenched in apple cider -
   to which onion garlic and mushrooms were
added -
       and then into a casserole dish
   and into the oven of Moloch (with thyme
   and a bay leaf)...
      an hour or so later: making the final touches
to the cider sauce:
      double cream and Norwich mustard
(4:1) - mash & veg on the side...
      and then antics with the four legs of
a chair: two un-even - four chairs in total -
yet two chairs with two un-even legs...
    followed by un-******* the legs
and ******* them back on...
      followed by:
                      well don't worry:
    where's the health and safety of these people
so "principled" when i am told to
***** the bolts back on tight with you
sitting on the ****** chair with my head
beneath it?!
                           but i said to him:
   listen, this is the schematic i'm seeing:
  
    |          /

    |          |

       one pair of legs allign, the other pair don't...
maybe you mixed up
       putting together the two chairs?
what i wasn't told was that they
were put up in a private manner:
           no i didn't ask for how much
you bought them for...
                i'm a taurus, he's an aries...
he wouldn't budge...
    he tried to "convince" me that the legs
somehow didn't match up when placed
side by side:
      so i said to him:
    but come look at my perspective
i'm telling you: this chair looks
   like this:

    |          /

    |          |

   just put the leg of the other chair in
the place where       /   is
      and let's see if they allign?
   you think he budged?
    of course not:
                  i have a witness for who
i had to write a reply to the chair company:
yes i tried what you suggested
  (but it was really a ****** suggestion)
considering that you were implying
one person should sit on the chair
  while the other had his head under
the chair and was tightening bolts back
onto the legs...
       so i had to write a reply:
  listen - (a) i don't like waiting for
replies concerning the exchange of goods...
   (b) your solution was *******
  (c) i can send you photographic
evidence: that you're selling wonky products
and (d) please reply to this
   without trying to figure out a way
to save the postal service by reverting
back to carrier pigeons...
   yours sincerely: a still unsatisfied
                              customer...

i get the stubborn part:
     **** it - i paid for it i want a decent product:
IKEA doesn't fester such problems...
Lego... that's a danish company, right?
   so if Lego can be put together
    IKEA can be put together...
                 Danes, Swedes... what's
the difference? they're not exactly referred
to as western europe.

- oh, the man from last year stopped drinking?
like hell he did...
                    he's wearing a new pair of shoes...
  and he's using a fancy new glass that
looks like a sputnik...
          i could never suffocate people with
the airy fairy...
                 honest to god...
       i'm still wondering what the german
sadists did to sven hannawald while
watching RACIST SPORTS of the winter
Olympics...
                     ah: funny how we have
to compete with the Japanese et al.
           i swear i didn't come from Africa
but out of an Eskimo's *******... igloo igloo...
EXCEPT THE SPORTS ON KILIMANJARO
can't really qualify, for the Mongol said:
building a ******* snowman
   belongs in art-class...
         while throwing a snow-ball
belongs in the jungle-target-practice
               using a heavier object,
                                                i.e. a rock;
and the young ones were taken to
   the KILIMANJARO arena to practice
with lighter objects, but in harsher conditions...
having returned to using heavier
objects, but in more advantegous conditions
when running ****-naked...
         i've heard the anglican version of:
all from africa we came...
            i'm not buying it:
           i'm wondering what the *******
squint is all about, rather than **** myself
over melanin:
     sun cream and the sun for me -
  or what i call vitamin D...
                  devil vitamin!
                    
post-scriptum:
       once upon a time i met a Mongolian
in a coach station in Amsterdam -
  and the look he gave me was a look of:
you are my son... what on earth has happened
to you? and he wasn't much older than me,
but the same pair of eyes tell the same
story: or the eyes that once were and have
become so other...
            
                 can you imagine that all these
words could only be spewed from listening
to Scandinavian folk music?
                                     now you can.
Casted shadows of twlight dusk gloom
All over the room tenebrosity in generosity
Of curiosity of the darkness hovering
and murking the city lights souls
mights
Tested from the time invested sick manifested
7 times a flat line woke up the seas mind
Returned as a king of the ring air sibling sing
A beautiful display take you away say
No words im hear to save black gloves doves
Used to cry but not anymore lift you off the floor
Warm your heart to spark a slow blue propane
Your the gas to my blood heaters races like a cheetah
Dressed in all black I could just see her
laying there cold and shaken then awaken
Once my lips touched her soul mate no fake fate
miss the wake and the earth day cake just to wait
To hear your voice again romancing you
spiritually im the candle to your darkness hearkened
I'm never gonna leave I'm truly your angel sent to you...
Onoma Mar 2020
turbid rusts murking

the lens of a tiger eye stone,

slowly set down.

plucking the harps of

wandering minstrels with

triple vision.

singing the prowess of dusk's

burial.

— The End —