"insain" poems
Laughs with me and smiles but turns around and plans and plots
but I am not weary
I'm prepared for what she's got
I feel no fear just pity and regret
that I let her in my life,never to forget
but weary am I not
for what plans she has got
I may be soft and forgiving but my mind is focused and sure
I may be a rose but my thorns will *****
I may be a doormat,everyone just does with my feelings and heart what they wish but I have always won she just cannot get me down
Jalousy does not consume me,nor does hate
and this is what makes me strong
the wicked witch cannot enchant me for her evil magic to me is gone
Her powers are invain
she goes half insain
when I beat her at her own game
but it's a shame that to hurt me is her aim
for I am the horror of her world
me?this delicate but yet unbreakable girl!
Forced to have to get along with someone so devious
it's so pythetic and way more hillarious!!!
She will offer me the apple and I will pretend to consume but little does she know,I am her total doom!!!
Oct 8, 2013
Oct 8, 2013 at 2:38 PM UTC
Go completely insain
Change my name
Cry a billion tears
Tell you that I'm here.
What do I have to do
To make you choose me
Over the boose.
I guess it always hard to choose
from the things that destroy you the things
That tear you apart
The the things that make you
You again
What is our goal in life
Why do we hate the ones that fall
Cause I stumble trip face plant
Life didn't come with a map
And emotions are full of cap
Follow your heart and you will win
Ha. I guess they didn't know what it's like to be me then
Because my heart protects the ones I love more than myself
I end up alone in a pile of hell
I try but I'll never be good enough.
*** I give up on love
Cause I don't know what to do
When I make a choice I always loose
Always look back.
Why did I have to act like that
My dad my mom they left
I can't blame them forever
I make my own choices
And have to face the weather
How dare all of you judge me
You have no idea what my intentions might be
You don't understand the confusion
The need to people please
You have absolutely no idea what kind of strength
It takes to be me
A hell alot of **** ups and misery.
Jan 5, 2014
Jan 5, 2014 at 10:32 PM UTC
*On a whim,
the idea’s began to swim.
Every word, every line,
I began to write my rhyme.
I became passionate and insain,
as I spit out my ink.
Like a fire breathing Dragon,
my poetic passions
burned from within,
waiting to burst forth
from the poet within.
Every moment I waste,
I now foresee,
a fragile quill an ink pen,
scratching the parchment
with its eagle like claws.
Soon the Dragon within me
will bleed out
from beneath my skin.
I then will write my poetry,
releasing the poetic Dragon
deep within me.*
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© By Amanda Shelton
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Oct 19, 2016
Oct 19, 2016 at 12:06 PM UTC
Little girl afraid of the beach
Gets in to the ocean
Without a peep.
Oceans warmth and creatures
Around her feet.
Then a tide comes nd wraps underneath
Pulling her in by her feet.
She gasps for air until her faced is submerged.
The air in her lungs slowly fades.
She feels even smaller .
The fight in her slowly disapates.
The ocean calms and spits her on shore.
But the weirdest thing is she fears the ocean no more.
She experienced it at its ugliest.
And survived.
Now the ocean seems so wonderful
And she is intrigued
She dives in again
Just to be taken in.
This time was worse she almost died.
You can say it was a fight for her life.
The ocean is still her favorite place.
Because conquering you're fear is an amazing feat.
Calms her panics her makes her insain.
The challenge the ocean gives the love she receives makes the bad times enjoyable
And the ocean makes her heart skip a beat.
Sometimes the things we fear the most turn out to be the greatest hardest but most precious things.
Dec 21, 2013
Dec 21, 2013 at 1:58 PM UTC
You think I don't know
That you are also in pain
But my dear friend
I am not that insain . . .
It rings like a lie
But I never wanted you to feel
Like pet, a dog
Who needed to heel . . .
I want to hear what you say
But I know what it will do
I'm already crumbling
Alone without you . . .
But that does not mean
That I have spun lies??
I am simply trying to fight
My certain demise . . .
You have hurt me!!!
Straight to the core
But not by going
And trying to find more . . .
You hurt me because you hid
Cept it behind a curtain
Told me pretty words
So now I am uncertain . . .
Because the esance of our love
Was centered around honesty
Something I feel like you broke
That's what burdens me . . .
Feb 19, 2016
Feb 19, 2016 at 7:00 AM UTC
Your soft lips on mine
It's warm here
In your gentle embrace
Your sweet scent
Intoxicating to me
Your fast heartbeat
So close I can feel it
My fast heartbeat
So strong you can tell
By looking down my blouse
Earthquakes have epicenters too
A smile spreads on my lips
As your warm hands
Get to know me better
Leave your fingerprints on me
And I'll leave mine on you
And I'll be sure
To get to know your body
To touch each sensitive spot
Just long enough
To drive you completely insain
But honey you be sure
To go all the way
Or I might get pouty
And find someone else
To stay and keep me warm
May 1, 2015
May 1, 2015 at 4:36 PM UTC
Every day or night my mind grows more curious of the dangerous ways I go. Every day I cheat death even tho his whispers draw me closers to mistakes that can't be reversed. Let's play a game of insanity?
Every rule we break we mend a new insane way of our tricks. A lie brings misfortune as showing you have no boundaries.
My secret I scream is the dead silence on the sleepy hollow cemetery.
My pain inside my bipolarmind is running wild with energy I could have saved to save my self from the deadly things that grab you.
My nightmares become a stories that play with me like a horror film that was just shot.
How fast can scream.
Do u want to play with your own darkness or spread the sickening like a wild fire.
I have no heart beat only when life breathes into my lungs.
Dose evil bring good fortune or dose it spill blood like savagely brut let killing a person.
How far do we open up our minds to open ideas for evil or good.
Do u want to play with my mind to full blown destruction that we can't put out.
My pain inside my bipolarmind is like a lighter starting a spark adding Fulton the fire setting my path of pure blinding aggression.
My pain inside my bipolarmind is a trap I can't escape only way out is a fight till Insanity kills me.
Clostrabobic small room I can't breath I have no place to free any thought leaving me with my demons who have otherwise plans in mind.
Are u insain or can you break the lone and escape your twisted mind.
Let's play a game of mine can you escape and set your self free or will you be traded for inturnity weak and powerless of hope and lost of life.
Are u insain or can you handle your own pain
Apr 19, 2017
Apr 19, 2017 at 12:09 AM UTC
Here I am again standing in the gray
Lost in the sway
Lost in the fray
At times standing in my own way
When everything around you doesn't matter
People's voices become just chatter
It couldn't get much sadder
I've been lost in the scatter
Yet somethings remain the same
My soul is still aflame
With all that's insain
Nothing left to reclaim
Even though the winds of time have changed
I'm still here to the past chained
The smile that plays about on my face is constrained
As catastroph and sorrow on my head rained
Mar 3, 2016
Mar 3, 2016 at 7:15 PM UTC
Heart hurts so bad, its hard to even think, I know I gotta be strong, but how, when I feel so weak No idea why u tell me that you love me, want me to stay when I see the way you look at me, fighting everyday I'm holding on to what I thought we had but the longer I stay, it only makes me feel unwanted and bad. You make me out to seem like something I'm not You said You were grateful for me, so why are u letting my heart rot? Whats fkd up about it all is the whole time, you were the one pretending, because u never truly cared, not even now that its ending. Dont know how much longer I can take this, I cant keep feelin like i dnt exist, loving someone who doesn't give a **** Cant keep killin my soul because you wont try to understand I thought you would better me, thought u were a different man. But now I see that things arent gna change, aren't gna get better. Not convinced by your fake smiles, dont believe your letters. I just wish I hadn't let you change me so much, so disgusted and dissapointed, with who I've become. And in your eyes, Im to blame. u do no wrong, feel no shame. Hearts going completely insain with pain, mind's withering away. Because theres no sensible reason why I'm still here, its not because I need u, its not because of fear. Guess I'm hanging on to the hope that maybe its just this place. Fighting the logical me, deep down I know things are gna be the same. Not sure if I should be proud that I stuck it out, or should be feeling stupid for ignoring all my doubts. Whatever it is, I need to find some sincere kinda peace. And I realized being w u, I'm just not happy with me
May 31, 2014
May 31, 2014 at 6:03 AM UTC
Some people take pleasure in death and pain
There is a reason, their not insain
Love is hard, it shouldn't be that way
not enough people willing to play
They expose their heart to the passers by
They're looked at and laugh at, wish they could die
take it back out and try it again
It doesn't quite feel the same within
A little bit rougher a little dented in
They accept the pain, they found a new friend
So death and pain become part of their life
Now who has the shame and who drew the knife
If you are the one that created such things
Change your life
be much kinder
to all of God's beings
Jun 4, 2014
Jun 4, 2014 at 7:41 PM UTC
My mind is broke my heart screams with tears in can't cry out. My regrets follow me pouring nothing but a dreary rain cloud pouring Frigid rain soaking me down to the bone till I go insain. I wish I could of told you inside I'm slowly wasting away just like a graveyard filled with rotting rusty machines.
I wish I could of told my mom is really needed her when I had the darkest days where I felt like I was suffocating.
Every ******* ******* thing I nevery told or should of said enstead of holding and hiding my life mistakes.
My every wound seems to fall deeper and my heart feels so heavey with all my battles I problem killed to breath.
My regrets just keeps me from stopping I rather run.
My 25 regret it wish I was able to keep strong but I feel like I rather not necessarily there for my famly.
Butmy biggest regret is my fear of losing my mom or dad in the night if they pass away threw there sleep I'll let be broken sending me to pack a back and leave my fear is I'm bipolar and I'm scared or losing them. My every word doesn't seem to matter only my creative thoughts do.
I am filled with wounds scares all from my every single regret that is like the darkness or the smoke from cigarettes.
I am broken to the point I'm unfixable.
So I just drag myself and long taking blow by blow making me weaker ad time goes on .
I know you have to tell your life stories bit shut the **** up if you see or I tell you my life story you'll problem drown your self in your own tears if you look at me you'll not bear able to but stair so don't tell Meveryone our bull **** story look at my broken mind body tell me if you can fix the years of the he'll that consumed me killing me hashing my voice where I couldn't scream or breath I was traded into ****** silent only that funny side I was torched till my lungs burned with hate
So don't tell my your Bulls **** life stories just look at me and try not to drown your self in your tears just listen and know I'm note strong enough to to be fixed
My biggest regret is I'm scared to lose my mom and dad I don't know if my last Batley ids strong enough to hold I might just shut down and fall apart
I am broken and unfortunately unfixable
Jun 2, 2017
Jun 2, 2017 at 3:17 AM UTC
I spin myself around in these mazes,
I get lost in the details,
I get lost in the crazy.
I know, I know,
I'll hold you baby.
Tell me again,
How you think you're insain.
I hold my breath,
I let it burn inside my chest.
Your skin is touching mine.
Your body is hot and it's,
Calling.
Little baby,
Don't you cry.
Lean on me while I slowly die.
Your fingers lace with mine,
I feel alive.
I'm angry and afraid at the same time.
I wish I didn't,
I wish I died.
I wish I'd never wake up tonight.
Jun 3, 2015
Jun 3, 2015 at 12:07 AM UTC
Where did I go wrong? I thought I knew you, but you left me with nothing but a sad love song.
I lost my one and only. Never in my life have I felt so lost and Lonely. Alone my thoughts control me.
Love is pain but acceptance and patience is gain. You only loved me in vain causing me to go insain.
We could never be again, but you'll always be my friend cause I'm a ride or die gal til the end.
Nov 1, 2015
Nov 1, 2015 at 7:10 AM UTC
I'm not crazy
I'm insain
I am human
I'm deranged
You say I'm crazy
Then you are to
Look in the mirror
I'm just like you
We're not crazy
Not you not me
We're just human
Can't you see
So come and join me
In the sun
Because we're not crazy
We're like everyone
Dec 12, 2015
Dec 12, 2015 at 10:28 AM UTC