"feld" poems
i've spent my entire lifetime running
running away
running in circles
running myself into the ground
it isn't fun, anymore
my feet have gotten heavy
i remember that night you drove **** near 100 miles
so we could go to the park and play lava-monster
i didn't know the rules
you were patient
there
in the decaying fall air
with your news-boy cap pulled down over my eyes and my arms stretched out into the darkness
searching for you
i felt right
for the first time in my life i felt fine
i haven't feld good, since
i wish i knew then what i know now
that i may likely never see you again
that you were leaving
that you're a runner too
i guess it is true
you get what you give
my feet have become granite
stones not meant to be resurrected from the earth
my globe's nothing but a paper-weight, now
the atlas is never cracked
because i can't find you on a map
and your arms are the one place that i long to be
silly, really
the way the head and the heart are incapable of speaking to each other honestly
now and then
the wind rests
for just a moment
and through the dry wyoming air
i catch your scent trail
like a glimpse of heat-lightning in the far horizon
but just like you
it's gone in an off-set heartbeat
the tumble weeds sing your name as they slink across the plains
stirring my insomnia into a craze
that can only be calmed by night-sky air
i search for your face in the shadows of the moon
as my calls to you rise with my steam-heated breath
and disappear into the stars
i wonder if you lay awake all night
swearing that the constellations are all begining to align
with the sole purpose of pointing you towards me
Jan 8, 2013
Jan 8, 2013 at 9:51 PM UTC
Ich suche das Licht im offenen Feld
Doch sehe nur den Schatten
Von Bäumen hinter meinen Rücken
Meine Füsse getauft in Erdscholle
Die Fragen in mir optisch dargestellt
Nicht, dass ich den Weg verloren habe
Oder ich meinen Geist schwer
Auf mein Leben drücke
Nein, es ist die Sucht
Nach Weisheit was treibt;
Klarheit in Worten
Die Wahrheit hinter Reden
Oder das Leben nach dem Tod
Kurz gesagt, was findet man
Wenn man sieht durch das Fenster
Einer verborgenen Pforte
Nov 26, 2014
Nov 26, 2014 at 4:47 PM UTC
Dear One
These past cold dark nights filled me with gloom
There's no one by my side left in the room
I feld deserted with no one to hold on
Pitifully crying lying here all alone
I gave my best to reach that goal
After standing all over again I always fall
It's hard for me to bear this shame
I feel like I'm always the loser in life's game
Suddenly a ray of hope awoken me from deep slumber
Reminding me of what I've forgotten to remember
Failure and mistakes doesn't determine who you are
What we do after it decides if we're going to reach that far
So rest your soul and take a break dear one
You may have lost a battle but the war is yet to be won
The Hardships you faced today will be your Strength tomorrow
It's okay to fall down sometimes but hold your dreams, never let go
Dec 15, 2018
Dec 15, 2018 at 9:08 AM UTC
I have always been a loner
and to me that was fine
I liked being by myself
and I spend so much time
wandering around thinking
about how the world could be
I have always been a dreamer
This world was not for me
theres way too much rules
But I wanted to be free
I dont need power or money on mass
I just wanted to be safe
and not a person out of glass
I have always been honest
and never backed out
stood up for mistakes
And never had a doubt
about doing the right thing
I have never been a coward
and rarely dropped a tear
I always met challenges
and rarely feld fear
But then the day came
When I first saw her smile
To see it again I would run through hell
and it would be worth every mile
She made my brain freeze
and my heart stopped a while
It was a moment like no other
this moment of her smile
Its been a year and my feelings wont budge
but Im too afraid to ask her out
A yes from her would change my life
But i guess that is what love is about
I dont want to be alone anymore
And theres no need to dream when she is around
Her no is the only thing that I fear
but I guess I have to stand my ground
I am a coward
Im too weak for this
I guess I should stop it
And never hope for a kiss
I tried to forget her
and go back to the start
but her glance broke my will
and her smile stole my heart
Sep 29, 2017
Sep 29, 2017 at 4:39 PM UTC
sword of fate, sin and shame reject my love accept my pain
a feld of bodies a flower a less grove where widows morn and suffer alone,
a shallow vally where people crawl, creatures snap and beasts call lest like the dead they rise again a sorry excuse for real men
this i give of my free will gifts of three for foolish thrills pain, death, sorrow from me
as i will so mote it be
come
rise from thy slumber take me this simmering summer grant me strangth speed and gall
i shall stand on mountain tops
and look down on all, least grant me that take all from me
as i will so mote it be
Dec 31, 2016
Dec 31, 2016 at 2:28 AM UTC
Have you ever wondered how it feels to be a girl? You think it's nothing special to be a girl?
Then tell me boy:
Have you ever been afraid to speak because you feld their eyes on you?
Have you ever been afraid to fight for yourself because you knew they are stronger?
Have you ever dreamed of having another body because you heared them whisper?
Have you ever hide your talents because you heared them laugh?
Have you ever been afraid to ask questions because you saw their rolling eyes?
Have you ever pulled your jacket closer around your body because you saw them stare?
Have you ever felt how it hurts to be fooled because someone pretended to love you?
Have you ever stopped eating because you heared their jokes about you?
Have you ever felt wothless because everyone laughed about you?
Have you ever been lonely because no one liked you?
Because I have.
But your not a girl. You can't understand what I am talking about because everyone loves you.
Because you are perfect.
Tell me boy, have you ever...
Nov 17, 2019
Nov 17, 2019 at 8:00 AM UTC