Summer was fun but now is gone....
I thought I was being nice and showed him I cared but I guess im wrong!
I won't ever forget him....
And will very much miss all the fun he brought me short lived as it was...
But memories I will forever have eventho all I want from his was his love!!
He was very special and will always be....
A cherished person eventho he always hated me!

The clock is ticking
The commander is calling
At that time,
I really wish the clock will stop
So that I'll be forever holding your hand

We both smiling,
eventho' our heart was aching
In a sudden,
All of the manly man disappear
Again, for the sake of nations we both struggling

You always said it won't last forever
You always said you'll see me later
For me,
Those words repeated every day in my mind
Become the strongest word for the weakest heart

I always remember your smell
I always remember what you tell
Against loneliness,
Trying to lived day by day with memories that you left

Oh again I know,
There's always no good in goodbye
'Cause I'm always back to
The day you said goodbye

another day,
Again, without you in my head.
I don't want to lie,
It does feel empty in the inside.

Heart bleeds,
Non stop,
Whenever the thought of you passed by,
Inside my head.

The pain is still there, dear.
It is unbearable.

We bumped into each other today,
Oh god,
Only god knows how much i miss watching you from a far,
But now,
You're in front of me,
Walking down the stairs,
Passed by me,
I forced myself,
Not to look and stare at you,
Like i used to.

One strange voice from the inside whispers...
you can never get over him,
Another one screams,
move on my darling!

but i don't know...
I really don't know..
I really don't know how...
I miss everything,
I miss those deceiving eye contacts...
I miss watching you...
I miss everything about you...
Eventho it was just a ...crush

It's day 3,
And im confused
And i....
*missed you

i dont remember what i didnt say to you
what i shud have sed
what you told me i forgot to
do
and eventho after the fact
i believe you
looking back
i wish i had the choice to
be right or wrong so that
i wuddnt  have waited so
******* long to apologize
or remember
the look in your eyes
the last time i saw you
or the sound of your voice
on the receiver
your hand and mine
doing the same thing
at the same time
at some point we were both crying
i dont know about you
but i think this admission
is long overdue
you probly wud say thats an understatement
or something actually more clever
and you wud be absolutely right
again as ever
and i wud smile and laugh in spite
of how bad i feel
because i totally ****** you over
when i claimed to be your friend
oh it was so beautiful the way
i did such a hateful thing
to love you and disappear all in one day
despite my pride
my promises to you
your shredded insides
i cuddnt say one thing and do
the same
god forbid i be constant
or have integrity
i am mad at myself
maybe enuff for both of us
but if not
please take this chance
to tell me off