i am...

A-bstractly addicted to absolute abuse
B-y basketcase boys with nothing better to be
C-autious when I caught chaos
D-riving me delutional day by day
E-ven when everyone echoed into my ear
F-uck this familiar fatal feeling
G-oing after guilty guys
H-ardly having healthy habits
I-njuring my inner innocence
J-ustifying jaded *******
K-indly killing all
L-ackluster lovers so they dont
M-ention me making mistakes
N-ever not nervous
O-ver obsolete oblivion
P-inky promising people to stay
Q-uietly questioning my
R-eason to resolve all emoitions ripping right from my
S-tomach snaking their way to satisfaction
T-hrough tounges I never even wanted to taste
U-nable to grasp unhappiness
V-isiously turning up the volume
W-aiting for any kind of wasted warmth
X-eric eyes
Y-et again teary
Z-oning through endless time

until i'm right back where i started...

Anger, it takes control, inbets in my soul.
Madness, it turns the page, make me feel like I'm insane.
Exhaustion, it drags me down, make me fell like I'm hitting the ground.
All for what and what for why.
Pain, keeps digging in deep, making my emoitions seep.
Longing, to make pain go away, to make you want to stay.
Stressing, about everything that seems wrong, knowing it won't be here long.
Loveing, you holding me close, I hope you know you're the feeling I need the most.