"closeing" poems
Hold my hand darling,
though it may be weak.
Keep me in your thoughts,
though I may be meek.
Fight the feeling that you have,
don't leave without goodbye.
I cannot fight alone, you see.
For I am not alive.
Though I hold my head high,
the blade is higher.
I am not ashamed at all,
just full of desire.
and in these moments,
I can see all of life,
It is daring and beautiful,
This cannot be mine.
Look, there I am,
hiding in the tree,
Look at that smile,
Look, it's me.
Those times when I could breathe,
Those times when I could feel,
They seem so long ago,
Now they don't seem real.
Wait, it's still here.
I can feel it deep inside,
The feeling I was looking for,
when I was looking to die.
Darling, do you remember,
the way you said my name?
No, don't say it now.
It brings only pain.
For in this moment,
the rope has been hung,
and i'm gently swaying,
my song has been sung.
The day is closeing,
The heavens are opening,
Darkness is coming.
I am done hoping.
In this moment I am so alive,
The thrill pumps through my veins.
I haven't felt so alive,
since the end of 8th grade.
Goodbye, darling.
You'll see me in your last sleep.
Where together we can feel,
and always just be.
The birds are singing,
The day is warm.
I'm gently swaying,
My life is worn.
I promise I'm not suicidal, random inspiration
Sep 5, 2011
Sep 5, 2011 at 4:44 PM UTC
A worldly wind comes
Whirls through
My hair
Clothes
And mind
Closeing my eyes
It sweeps me away
Off my hands and knees
Across vast plains
To mountaintops
And high above the big blue
To lands
Different from my own
Every new land I meet
Has a beauty
I hadn't known before...
Nov 11, 2010
Nov 11, 2010 at 7:57 PM UTC
There is no use to pretend
That Im ok & fine
Everything has shattered around
And my heart canť feel a bite
I feel like I have died inside
And my soul trying to getaway my body
Tears are falling down on cheeks
Eyes are getting wet
Hands are shaken on my body
It seems as life has reached to end
Im closeing to death by each step
And i canť feel nothing but
The queer enjoyable sense of being free.
Dec 9, 2016
Dec 9, 2016 at 5:41 AM UTC
I feel so trapped in this house
Confined
The walls closeing in
Funny how this use to be my
Safe haven
Now it's just the same hell
Shoved into your dream family
I am just
The unwanted nightmare
Isn't it obvious to you?
Subsiding
Into the dark background
As I fade, growing weaker still
They become
Stronger willed.
Dec 14, 2013
Dec 14, 2013 at 12:42 AM UTC
On this dark and cold night there is but the sound of my love,i feel her ever breath and her curve under the crimson moon,and the vast mercury ocean lies be for us and nothing more, but alas i can not move nor can i here what she is yelling at but i see her face in panic and blood on her hands, my blood i realize and the hole in my cheast over my heart, now i lose my sight and see only the darkness closeing around me love, i now now whats happing and i cry not for the fact im dying but the fact im leaving
Apr 3, 2014
Apr 3, 2014 at 11:33 AM UTC