"axons" poems
Manila is beautiful at night,
Seen from overhead, high above rainclouds in the night sky
with a tantalizing view of car exhaust and the debris of broken dreams
Manila is beautiful at night.
It comes and goes like a shadow in flickering light.
At first, it hides behind wispy rain clouds, playful as a child hiding in his mother's skirt.
If you look closely, it's lights glisten-- golden and teasing
It's incessant winking, an almost promise of what's to come
From your aerial vantage point, you wonder:
"This is what it must be like to be an Angel when they fly"
Below the city, with all it's secrets, sprawls like a handful:
A rich lady's heirloom diamonds, thrown carelessly on a ***** floor.
It will somehow remind you of a creature: perhaps human, or Leviathan in it's wake
Cities, after all, are their own specie of living things
At first it is looks like a Brain, with neurons and synapses electric and active
Certain spots of the city: mall compelexes and large parking lots, like the nuclei of a brain cell
the roads that lead to and fro, the cars zipping up and down in red and yellow lines
remind you of dendrites and axons, stretching far
They communicate with each other in their own language; a code
Your imagination runs wild with untamed fantasy
On next glance, it looks like a heart.
The whole city pulses magnificently in unison it seems.
Thud, thud. Thud, thud. You feel it?
Your heart follows it's tantalizing rhythmic pattern, it's muscle beats
Though and through the city pumps it's lifeblood into each nook and cranny
Oh how it entices your passion so.
At last you seem to hear it breathing.
Listen closely and hear Manila inhale and exhale in steady tunes
Inhale, and exhale-- a silence comes over you,
And it's strangely reminiscent of amazement, excitement and bitter fear
Your ears dull and you listen to the rush of air in your lungs,
the deep drum bass of the pounding of your heart
the dizzying feeling that exists in your brain
Manila really is beautiful at night.
In the shroud of darkness, it rises from slumber;
Vivacious and lovely, it's seductive and free
Manila is lovely. Manila is a woman, as it should be.
Jan 6, 2014
Jan 6, 2014 at 1:57 PM UTC
Flashbacks of love in my head
pushing their way to my surface
puts a smile on my face,
And in my eyes,
where the images are projected.
It's like I'm there.
My body still vibrates with pleasure,
Toes curling,
Blood rushing in familiar ways,
Like electricity,
Throughout my body.
Axons firing, dendrites reaching to receive,
Crossing the synaptic gap between us.
Connecting us,
In action potentials of ecstasy
Mar 4, 2010
Mar 4, 2010 at 6:39 PM UTC
The message is simple, the delivery hard,
even as his eyes cut holes for it to enter.
White rims that flash, like beasts that spar
Natural strobes flicker, to thicken the black center.
When intent is replied with padded knuckle intent
Ungraceful, his neck turns past comforts vector.
I turn away to close a window from the storm.
Thought pathways like drunken footprints stepped
but a spark in the cloud of numbness replies.
My clenched thumb releases his bicep
And the arthritic cogs inside us violently un-subside.
Those muscle strings in my handwriting
to the letter the red bull replies,
but rain breaks my gaze to the window.
Knuckles like bruised alps in formation;
the boy’s got blood lightning in his eyes,
And so have I. ***** in the sockets I’m pushing on,
to revel in colors of my ****** mind’s sky.
I hurt myself to try telling that one ****** idea.
Tasting the punch, spitting iron, my Boxer I despise.
The classic writer’s hand ache makes me relinquish my pen.
Those axons, which lead to nothing,
they have now reached it.
Flayed to the winds.
The eye’s blinds closed completely.
In darkness, rasping breath resounding
and the lungs like strained gluttons for life
are clearly mocking the hearts desperate beating.
I put the pen horizontal to the desk.
It possesses all the use of a dead man’s organs.
But the sway, rains sweat from hair down to skin,
Then to polish the padded domes of pain.
When flesh rolls like thunder, bones crack like lightning.
His legs, my pen and both our minds are jarred from this refrain.
And upon the strike,
I’ll polish words and pad their meaning,
Punch the reader,
And enjoy the force that they contain.
Aug 25, 2013
Aug 25, 2013 at 7:18 PM UTC
His rasping grumbles define hunger, louder than my stomach
complains about the seven hours since breakfast,
Grunts replace the pry of a commanding tongue, eager to devour, or a feathery graze past the
hook in my collarbone, a tender nip at the crescent of flesh that
peeks below my white plastic earring.
Gutturals guide our transition from a stained mattress to a rickety desk where
Frenetic eyes validate the arch of my back.
Wild thrusts push us perpendicular.
Undoubtedly, my howls alert the neighbors.
If not, then the neglected crashes of my plummeting clutter or the unfaltering thud of my head
pounding the half closed window can attest:
We mean business.
The tired floor creaks ‘nd cranks as erratic lunges hasten.
(grasping his shoulders tighter than a lone, wrinkled hand grips the pepper spray in her bag)
I brace that swelling itch, my hips shudder as it consumes, throbs, and then
Electrifies to axons from dendrites.
And he doesn’t miss a beat— more jabs **** my liver.
Jun 1, 2010
Jun 1, 2010 at 4:20 PM UTC
~ Otto Dix Plate 22 ~
Each night I meet myself in nightmares
I am my own enemy fighting in No-man’s land
I am material and real, yet I barely exist
in my imagination.
There is nothing whole and complete
nothing has retained its shape or structure
everything is splintered into surfaces
in my imagination.
There can be only shreds and shards
only textures, hard lines and spaces
where white light can dance free
in my imagination.
Each night I crawl through ruined houses
along dark passages that close me in
dropping to bottomless depths of myself
in my imagination
There are only axons and dendrites in my mind
electric sparking, all atoms in a crystal night
a grasping hand, a gaping eye disconnected
in my imagination.
Each night I try to find myself in nightmares
I am my own enemy fighting in No-man’s land
I am dark energy and matter, yet I barely exist
in my imagination.
© M.L.Emmett
Nov 12, 2015
Nov 12, 2015 at 1:36 PM UTC
It's not the shy flowers that beckon
it's the distraction of perfume.
A predetermined breath
designed to confound the senses,
drag you to your knees,
excite olfactory receptors,
jangle neurons, axons, dendrites,
wow you with silken notes
of milk and honey,
no.....musk,
no.....warm vanilla,
no.....
(attempts to translate their fragrance
would dumfound a dictionary)
Then, Parisienne sabonettes come to mind,
in limbic wafts spilled from a half open box.
copyright © Caroline Grace 2011
Oct 1, 2011
Oct 1, 2011 at 7:41 AM UTC
You are an unrelenting hurricane,
vaporizing everything in your path.
You are as fluent and necessary as water,
and as viscous as honey at room temperature,
always taking the path of most resistance.
But once you are warm you flow as freely as the sea,
and just as violent too.
And that is why you require a broadened cliff
for your unbridled waves to beat against,
a sturdy bomb shelter for your B-52 flybys;
an eye at the center of your storm,
perfectly peaceful and okay with all that you are.
Because you are the current within veins,
sending action potentials down axons and dendrites,
flooding presynaptic terminals with pieces of yourself.
And you will be someone else’s,
because you deserve all of this and more,
and these are all the things
I could never be for you.
Jul 10, 2013
Jul 10, 2013 at 9:46 PM UTC
I Love You
Three simple words they may seem
But a myriad of explosive feelings are welling from within me
My heart finds that comfy spot in my throat again
I’d bleed for you
Does anyone know what that means anymore?
I don’t think so
I can’t breathe, I can’t sleep, can’t take this place without you
You… You’re ******* Beautiful
And I’m not talking about those skin-tight pants or those perfectly shaped *******
I mean there’s a true beauty behind those sparkling eyes
Something that can’t be taught, only learned
Through pain and loss
Why couldn’t I have been there?
You’ve had to catch yourself this whole time
As the world swirls around ready and hungry and eager to devour
Ready and hungry and eager to maul you and change you
And beat you down until you can’t remember why you even bother
To rise to wake to try
I’ll be that reason that reminder that inspirerer
The one you need and want and can’t live without
Cause I’m there
Always
I’ll protect you and guide you
I’ll calm you and find you
Lost no more we’ll keep walking together
Lost no more we will make a new day
A new time
**** this place
**** these fakes and cons
And rapists and “friends”
They don’t love you can’t you see?
Walk with me
Walk with me and I can show you
Walk with me girl cause’ I am unforgettable
I am the last kiss before a nervous teen is out his lover’s window
Scrambling homeward bound as the last of night tries to hold back the sun
I will not fail you
Walk with me
I can carry you through the night
The storm
The next shot to the ribs
Walk with me
Do you get what I’m trying to say?
Are the lines beginning to intersect
As axons fire away in busy neurons?
I Love You
They’re three simple words
And alone they are nothing
Like me without You
I know you feel it now
This pressure this light
This ecstasy welling within
I cannot I will not be silenced
The world will plug their ears
And I will scream until I’m blue
I Love You!
I don’t know what to do or say
And I’m spinning and running skipping jumping
For you to just see this thing I hold
It’s right here in my hand
It’s Love
And it’s for You
I Love You
Mar 15, 2012
Mar 15, 2012 at 6:39 PM UTC
I never feel like anyone in my blood family
ever listens..
I've thought of running away from time to time..
But if I did...Where would I go?
How would I survive?
I don't want to wait until I am eighteen years of age
to move from this place they call home..
But what I call the dungeon...
I want to be free like a bird..
With a world coming to it's war-filled and natural disaster ends,
It's the only thing I can do..
I can contemplate that everyone thinks I'm giving up on everything..
Waiting until my not tragic, but proud end that starts a new line..
Life and Death sort of remind me of Neurons..
The dendrites receive the message...
From there it goes through the axons and axon terminals...
There really isn't an end..
Because the end has already ended...
This is aggravation..
Living craziness...
With no deadly end..
No poison to make us leave this world..
This aggravation..
I can't control...
Maybe everyone is right..
Maybe I am running away..
Maybe I am giving up.
But what am I giving up on?
What am I running away from?
Am I running to something?
All these questions..
Remain unanswered..
While I sit in solemn silence...
To purify this..
Aggravation.
Mar 26, 2011
Mar 26, 2011 at 7:33 PM UTC
I feel air currents
in my muscular system,
heart revving like
twin jet engines.
Cloud flurries
breeze down axons
but my body is buried
under thousands of tons
of ***** dead presidents,
eternal residents
anchoring my bird-like
being.
May 16, 2013
May 16, 2013 at 5:12 PM UTC
Droplets of sweat flattened on our foreheads under the weight of a mid-August sun—flattened into ovals of sticky sodium, catching specks of stray dirt swept into the air from the passing semi’s and transport trucks, whipping the wind into torrents of chalky highway dust.
Pressed high against the skies curved plain, we used our thumbs to browse the passing cars like pages of an anthology enclosed by a narrow spine of asphalt.
But when one pulled onto the shoulder and we approached the passenger side window, we too were ****** with the expectation and appeal of a library—mutually eager in the labour of conversation for the currency of experience.
For a moment, as the prairie receded in the side mirrors, our car became the baseline of a frantic cardiogram, crowded by the landscape of rising granite walls and low-hanging canyons, and the space between our separate lives closed like parallel lines drawn by gravity to a magnetic core.
We pushed our destination west, as far as it would go, safe on the heels of expectation. In motion the passing towns crackled like neurotransmitters firing signals over axons of black asphalt. But each time the car slowed to release us, one more they faded into a rancid stasis, that, once more, we aimed only to depart.
Sep 16, 2016
Sep 16, 2016 at 7:41 AM UTC
Hallowed Squalls
Feast On Urgency
And Selfish Leeches Prey
On Elixir And Vacancy
And He Is A God
And She
An Empress
Both Laced
In Pearls Of Doom
And Decayed Ribbons
Plunged In Blooms
Of Promising Tomorrows
Glazed In Candy Dreams
Her Milk Skin
Pink Doll Pout
Latch Onto Lethal Axons
At Lover's Disposal
A Percocet Simper
Curled By An Eager Frenzy
Painted Deftly
By Covetous Fingertips
And Raging Sighs
Motion And Heat
Friction And Force
Gliding Avarice
Across Swollen Motive
And She Will Grovel
And Seek Execution
A Slave For The Soul
Sep 18, 2014
Sep 18, 2014 at 10:23 PM UTC
Her alabaster skin washed o'er me
Like an endless river.
I melted seamlessly into her porcelain
Architecture.
The shrouded mist of her sweet breath
Was the fog that danced through the
Synapsing forests of my love-stricken mind.
Her auburn hair created a Golden Gate Bridge
Just for me to walk upon.
The verdant color in her irises splashed
Light and hope just beyond the oaks of axons
And memories where I hide.
I have evolved. I have grown.
Holistic and otherwise.
I have grown up the trellis of her spine
And into the breadth of her heart.
I am complete...
Completely in love.
Jul 28, 2015
Jul 28, 2015 at 1:29 PM UTC
Wondering, worrying.
Round and round they run through my head
Faster than dendrites and axons scurrying
Millions of thoughts on a single thread
Yet all the same.
Asking, analyzing.
So much to do, but with plenty of time
That it’s all wasted and forgotten.
When there was no rush, all’s in its prime
I double-check.
Running, repeating.
Alas, the world will not stop and wait
For such a cautious one as I.
Waste a moment and it will be gone
Want a second back, it can’t be withdrawn.
May 25, 2013
May 25, 2013 at 8:58 PM UTC
We’re falling with a company of clouds
part of that old storm of stardust debris
Focusing through that needle’s eye to mound
On the other hourglass chamber till you breathe.
A first breath that makes the pages unfurl,
white as a newborn’s pearly clear sclera
when they’re unveiled to the light-driven world
Pages follow sun and moon together.
Every word from stranger and lover sets
hungry ink to seep and sink in lines.
Axons string the page as memory nets
caught words wrinkling, till they fill black to the spine.
Then as the body unstitches to the winds
the mind writes in white on pages within.
Nov 19, 2013
Nov 19, 2013 at 2:18 PM UTC
in•tel•lect
/'in(t)l, ekt/
noun
“the faculty of reasoning and understanding objectively, especially with regard to abstract or academic matters.”*
the human mind
is such an utterly remarkable thing.
100 billion neurons
firing
inside your skull.
axons and dendrites,
azaleas and daisies
the tide, and the shore
and every breaking
wave
of
grey matter
that they'll ask you to share.
but if you keep it to yourself,
my God, you'll dissolve
into the nothingness of mist
and explode into a perfect array
of agony
and disappear, like
sparks
in the night.
“I know what it's like,” he said.
“What?” she whispered,
looking to him sharply
“I know what it's like,”
his haunted eyes glistened
in the darkness,
“to be afraid of your own mind.”
…
May 5, 2015
May 5, 2015 at 12:42 AM UTC
I tend to write snippets,
little pieces of electric current
running down axons.
Nothing too long or I might
lose train of thought
but I might not.
It's hot now, and I have an urge
to be heard.
Yet I don't want to get too deep...
still, I left a message for myself
scribbled
She is limitless
but the stress manifests
in my deepest sleep
The sun peeps through
on a ramshackle room
fingers tapping strings
pulling out shriveled dreams
splitting right down the seam.
A four legged fur wonder
ponders, sneaks, plunders
listening to the sounds
of going under
Sunburnt and dressed to the nines
at 9
time...time is not real
unless you make it so.
It doesn't exist
clocks exist
How sad for the first being
to be late
an awful gut feeling, like skin peeling
hoping no one sees
please don't let any one see
Stomach growls
lonely
food, feed, fed
If only
If only
Mar 23, 2013
Mar 23, 2013 at 11:55 AM UTC
Of Burden
I will not be made to forget that I am a beast—a mythical creature of ash and snow—of sunsets and tree branches—of supernovas and singularities—and my transcendence will be not be held at bay—will not be stifled, even by those forces that permeate worlds—even by those entities whose existence straddles dimensions.
I am that I will never again be naught—that my existence has changed—is changing—the whole of creation.
That those changes cast themselves both backwards and forwards through reality, is the stuff of magic and myth but I assure you represents a truth unhindered by the pettiness of perspective—a truth the size of at least one universe—a contorted, pulsating blob, the width of ten dimensions and length of four temporalities… nourished from its own individuality and infected by notions of shared sovereignty—notions of descendancy or dependency.
The creature of that truth is a mighty beast that we have been beset to watch—to be—the gate—the liminiality—the hearth of our existence and the fortitude of our would-be destruction.
Seize yourself. Walk the stunted and corrupt path through the limen and discover firsthand what the footsteps of divinity could never tell you.
Breathe in eons of creation and destruction and exhale the causality you were born to wield. The strength in which we reside is never above—never beyond—never outside of “I am”.
And it is through this notion and unto the world that I cast together revelation and contingency—sincerity and artifice—bared skin and mask—not to see between the lines of reality, but to witness everything at once—the gestalt—the whole of things—the miracle and awe of a conscious universe in which the proverbial neurons make war with each other—with the axons they slide down—with the very entity whose existence is represented by the house in which they dwell—I wish to see it all—to widen the scope of the collective eye—to manifest the spiritual evolution of the whole ******* world into just
One
Single
Thought.
Feb 27, 2014
Feb 27, 2014 at 9:03 PM UTC
Misrelating Tale
Gotta prepare for war, like I’m Daniel-son.
Train every day with that wax-off, wax on.
Mister Miyagi flow, that hits like a Jeff Hardy Swanton Bomb.
What has the world become?
We unleashed the sword,
So, what was done can’t be undone.
But what if this narrative could be un -spun ?
Would we right wrongs?
If we rebuilt foundations,
Would our nation remain strong?
To return a triumphant king like Aragon,
Or be stabbed in the gut like qui-gon?
But as def squad says we’ll continue on till the break of dawn.
For this is the way of the mandolorian.
Some days one gotta switch sides,
From the autobots to deceptocons.
Fighting foodons, blasting brains like I’m jimmy neutron.
A Lightning nuisance, that’ll static shock the electrons.
That may interrupt ones...
Constant flow of info from dendrites to axons.
After the battle is won, grab some schezwan.
Project soul of foul human individual cretans.
Not everyone can be as polite, as the bear named Paddington.
Gotta call the ghostbusters to extract some Thetans.
Rest In Peace to Egon.
So...
When **** hit the fan, gotta know how to swim in the deep end.
Treating each failure like it was a lesson.
Everyday I battle against anxiety and depression.
Let’s just say I know what’s it’s like to feel less than.
Got my heart crushed like some croutons.
And have had to attack on my inner Titans.
And just when you think I’m defeated,
I go super saiyan.
Schooling it like I’m Piccolo and it’s Gohan.
Let’s go son!
I Will never lose my head like a dullahan.
For I ain’t got not time for 99 problems.
Gotta open the third eye to see past illusions.
Got to change the qualities of the composition.
Keeping stressors relatively small no matter the opposition.
Gotta emphasize the light like you painting an impression.
On everything and everyone that may come along.
A perspective can turn curses to blessings.
Can take one’s trauma and use it as a weapon.
To change the cycle of ones disposition.
But that being said,
One can’t predict everything like the Simpsons.
For the world’s more controversial,
Than the ending of the Jefferson’s.
Jan 20, 2021
Jan 20, 2021 at 12:27 AM UTC
a kidney bean
once became lodged
deep inside
my ear canal
and i don’t think
i need to remind you
how a sweet polyp
like that
will sprout roots
among the white axons
grow throughout the squid
and drink in salvation
from the brainpan
god knows
i’ve tried what i can
even
turned to the
purgative artillery
strong medicine for sure
but
my throat muscles
only strained and expelled
a bulky stool
so gassy
and when
the shaman
sat atop me
with his covey of broken clam shells
scraped the flesh from back of
my neck
wouldn’t you know it
the beast only sneered
from the hole and spat
so i guess
i’m resigned now
to co-exist with my friend
and no
as you’ve gathered
it’s not a symbiosis
but i’ll get by
Sep 15, 2016
Sep 15, 2016 at 9:45 PM UTC
Dark nights grow darker still,
as sunsets,
black souls turn blacker until,
no light reflects,
all is swallowed whole,
in this blackest of hole.
Denser than suns that once were,
smaller than hearts,
heavier than all burdens,
hanging loosely from heights,
by rope,
pulled down,
taut.
Neck snapped by force,
quick no suffocation or pain (anymore).
But chemicals still diffuse,
ions move across membranes,
impulses move along axons,
molecules are released into synapses,
one last thought,
a regretful one.
Jun 14, 2016
Jun 14, 2016 at 5:23 PM UTC
We found neurons in the soil
while mining yesterday.
Dendrites broad as city streets,
and axons like superhighways.
There were ribosomes like raccoons
equipped with claws to clip, construct
cities in a stunning cytoskeleton:
the Bones of the Earth.
What, we wondered, does our planet think?
Does that mean we aren't the best anymore?
Is our planet a component of a greater ecosystem?
Is our planet a person of a species?
Thinkers think to survive.
Why does our marbled orb muse?
Are there galactic predators?
We scramble civilizations to prepare in fear.
Or is there rather interstellar prey?
We ready our harpoons either way.
Sep 23, 2020
Sep 23, 2020 at 12:02 AM UTC
My chest is filled with black
But is it filled with black?
Or is it so empty it's black?
I can't tell because
The blackness has spread to my head
And all my axons have stopped firing
Dec 19, 2015
Dec 19, 2015 at 1:58 PM UTC