I don't feel too safe with these walls down.
I think love is coming for me now.
Filled with thoughts but none are coming out.
Do you look at me like I'm your bait?
Will you tell the truth or make me wait?
Common sense is blurred in fear of pain.
I can read the message on your face.
Anyone out here could take my place.
Light is dimming in this long tunnel.
Running blind and covered in rubble.
Still pleasure in this pain as I fumble.
Where am I to go?
Will I have to go alone?
On a repeating flow.
Forgot everything I know.

I remember saying how I just wanted to become the best possible version of myself and I remember being that person about a year ago and then I ruined it, but I had started to pick myself up and put myself back together and then God gave me you and it was like I was that person again, I was starting to become, once again, the best possible version of myself. I had missed the smiles that surfaced on my face during those times and how it felt to be so full and so happy and content and even with the darkness surrounding me, it didn't matter due to how wonderful everything was even with everything else going on. God, do I miss you and that and the way you made me feel like I was going to be something amazing. But I guess it's just time for me to learn how to be that version of myself without someone else by my side. Maybe it's time to be completely alone for awhile.

I miss the old us. You know, the us that wasn't falling apart.

A little boy
Maybe a bit too old
Kissing a girl with a heart of gold
He tells her "nobody can know"
then he sees how far he can go

He tells her yes
When she says no

A little boy
Maybe a bit too old

Turning a girl's heart
Into stone.