sarah

sarah Nov 2018

breathe

you make me feel like i'm running away
from a problem we can solve
you make me feel like nothing's changed
like nothing should feel wrong

you make it seem like we could fly, together
but nothing, no, nothing lasts forever

you say
"we could try to work things out"
tell me
"there should be no doubt in your mind
that we have each other, and that's all we need"
but i can't be dependent on you to breathe.

i wanna scream that i've been through this
more times than i should
i wanna tell you that nothing you say
can make me feel good

i wish i could love blindly, but i have so much doubt
i wish you'd take me seriously that we can't talk this out

you say
"we could try to work things out"
tell me
"there should be no doubt in your mind
that we have each other, and that's all we need"
but i can't be dependent on you to breathe.

i wrote this in 8 minutes

#breathe #lyrics

sarah Nov 2018

beautiful heartache

hey stranger,
used to read your mind just like a book
and i am only as in love with you
as you can spare a look
hey disaster,
won't you go ahead and bring me down
because i have no use for feeling empty
guess i'll be seeing you around

what a beautiful, beautiful heartache
from such a radical, terrible mistake

but it's mine to keep and mine to love
because no one else can fill me up
i am so weak and vulnerable
but you only love me when i am strong
so i'll try to be strong.

hey lonely,
go ahead and rip my heart in two
you can take your toll on me
as long as i don't keep any of you
hey lovely,
i knew that you were a storm
but i continued to walk into you
like i hadn't been warned

what a beautiful, beautiful heartache
from such a radical, terrible mistake

but it's mine to keep and mine to love
because no one else can fill me up
i am so weak and vulnerable
but you only love me when i am strong
so i'll try to be strong.

a song i wrote on october 30th

#beautiful #heartache #lyrics

Oct 2018

sky

dripping colors

Pull me close and touch my cheek
I long for you to wipe the tears away.

I'm dripping colors
all the things that make me
are pouring out
because this black and white world
is scared of my painted mind

#colors #dripping #scared #tears #black #white

sarah Oct 2018

high

give me strength, give me hope
tell me you'll never
let me go
feel my heart bleeding
when you go

make me feel so incomplete
teach me
dependability
show me i need you
in everything

why do i see you
in everything

and do we think of each other, only
when it's cold and dark
i need to know if you'll love me
when it gets warmer
in the summer, in the light
or
maybe it's just when you're high.

don't know exactly where this came from, except for the fact that my boyfriend who gets high a lot was talking to me the other day about how he doesn't see what anyone gets from feeling anything. it made me wonder if he meant love as well. these lyrics kind of wrote themselves last night.

#high #lyrics

sarah Sep 2018

for kennedy

we lived our own little lifetime
hiding away in the bathroom
from fake friends and scary adults
running lines and telling each other stories
from the past
your past was a bit desolate
but i promise you, your future is brighter
you have the potential to rewrite the stars
your beauty is unimaginable and your intellect is even greater
every moment spent with you was like living a thousand lives

i don’t know where you went or where you are now
i wish i did
but what am i supposed to do?

you’re my best friend, kennedy.
i miss you.

this poem's for kennedy. she told me about this little corner of the internet in the first place. i miss her every day.

#best #friend