If I hadn't said yes
To a friend
I wouldn’t be here today
Not in the mood, looking a mess
But, a birthday to attend
No, was not an option to play

So, into the city the girls and me
Ready to dance
Forget the broken heart misery
A few hours and I can begin to see
The old smile, a chance
To laugh and chat happily

Wasn’t looking for a romance
But your eyes
Spoke of the possibility
So, I smiled, opening the chance
With no hidden lies
Risking my heart, as it beat its plea

Talking above the throbbing music beat
Oblivious to the heat of the crowd
As they moved to tribal sway
Hours in the dark, a corner seat
I hear your voice, above the constant loud
Chatter, as your smile takes me away

So many years have since passed
But I can still hear the song
That accompanied that first touch of lips
I knew that it would not be the last
As we pushed our way through the throng
And outside, our arms became an eclipse

Was on the cards we joined our address
Then soon after, we joined in marriage blend
Looking back, I believe fate had a hand to play
Because, if you hadn’t said yes
That night, to a friend
You wouldn’t be here today

Summer glow softens to autumn gold
And leaves become brittle to the changes
Of winters white blanket of cold

Head and heart compete with choices almost made
As love struggles to argue with valid reason
Neither prepared to give in to risks, evenly weighed

Winter chill covers the summer warm
Choice is made, and logic sends an artic shiver
Into a burning heart, love is silenced under the icy chloroform

Almost touched the never ending of us, nearly begun
But love is a rainbow arch that needs its mirror
My head saw, what my heart denied, there was no reflection

I am just filling in time
Sleeping through the dark times of the day
As dreams compete with the daily mind grime

Following the human way
Eating my fill of the ritual, survival routine
Facing life in the best possible way

Loving, hating, crying when I can. Guess I’m
Following the birth to death plan
Just by filling in time

Reflections crystalize into blackened ice
As my laughter falls like pebbled hail
Cracking the dark mirror

My face falls into the deep black
My voice follows
Fading
To silence

Light bounces upon sunken hope
The pull is an anchor to the surface
Coloured blue in crystal glass

I inhale the warming hue
My heart stutters
Breaking
Through black

Threads are sliced with cold eyes
Heart weary, stripped of family ties
Generation of lost
Blind to consequence and cost
Afraid to surrender the silver hand
Of protection, against the opposite band
Neither side finding a voice of reason
In their world of unrespectful treason

I saw the clouds cry
Water fell like heavy heartbreak

I want to tell you a lie
I want to forgive and forsake
All that was between us
Too late, it’s too late
You can’t see me, I am faceless
I can yell, scream, berate

But you are boxed in silence
Deaf to my voice,
I scream into your silent absence

Wrecked, I wasn’t given the choice
To be without you.