He was tired of holding back as he watched the girl he was into walk by.
Doing everyone's work when he didn't even want to do his own work. Dealing with his family everyone set in their ways he was over compromising himself for others while they treated others bad and took advantage. He stopped comparing getting involved most of all caring.

every day is a synopsis
of a never-ending restlessness
that never gets anything done.

Love for breakfast,
filling a cereal bowl of-
      confessions

Milk of her tears,
sugar piles of his affairs.
Biting into the Apple of:
  someone else's love

"Do you love me now,
and her later,"

She begged the question,
after she found texts of-
    a lover's liaison.

I'd like to tell you that I, too, miss your smile,
The way we talk, how you make me feel good.

But all we are was just a moment.

You can't take it with you,
But many die trying.