Grow up, they said
but even as I did
I lost some child like wonder

Now. All I could ever want
Is to grow back down.

I'm a black girl .
Not a bad girl .
Someone people call me
Like a black soul .
I'm a black girl .
Not a bad girl .

I'll never hurt you ,
Wanna only flirt to you .
I'm not sad ,
When you call me black pearl .
I'm a black girl .
Not a bad girl .

Thank you for this all of you ,
Call me as a dark shadow .
Thank God to this present ,
I'm happy to be black pearl .
I'm a black girl .
Not a bad girl .

Welcome to the god creation.
This is the greatest decision .
Respect the god ,
Don't tease the soul .
I'm a black girl .
Not a bad girl .

I only conjure sweet words
When the world is
Hushed and indistinct
I ponder if I am a creature of the night

But I am simply restless
And these words are mere distractions
From all of the pain I'm feeling
Another wall I've painted eloquently

To convince myself
This isolated, sunless world
Is more enchanting
Than anything reality
Could ever grant me.

If I had know that I was going to write a poem about you I wouldn't have
If I known I would fall in love with you
I would have never met you
And if I had known how much I would hurt
I would have already been dead

But that's not the way that it works, is it?
We are to find love
Find pain
And everything that goes with
But I never wanted this I never wanted to feel
I hated it so much
You hated me so much
But I can't do much about it now,
Can I?

If I had know
I would never had felt this way
I would have never had my heart leap
And jump out of my chest
If I had known
So much would be different
And you would be long gone