Emotions, a started chainsaw
For this life
There is no exit door
This shadowed darkness
I still feel deeply raw
They all think that I’m flawed
Aren’t we all
Down to our perfect core
Going to war
Fighting with loved ones
To settle a score
It makes me really sore
For what,
Maybe it’s because we are bored..

With our lives
This life’s not divine
My pen leaks the tears of the world
I see it cry
The tears flowing from this pen
Again
Is me releasing my frustration
So I learn to stop hating
….everything

Valentine's day again,
Your **** grin
It makes my head spin
Loving you this much, must truly be a sin
I dim,
The lights my hand on your thigh
Move closer, let me get lost in your eyes
You whisper… you’ll love me till the day that you die
We kiss, sweet
It tastes like honey pie
I loved you in past lives, this shouldn’t be a surprise
Who thought we’d be together again, certainly not I
Not being together I’d breakdown and cry
Stop it silly, she whispers, you know you all mine
You’ll always and forever be my only valentine
Our lips embrace, this feels sublime
I go down on one knee, I think it’s time
I produce the ring, god look how it shines
My dear will you marry me, I don’t have any rhymes
I will love you for all eternity, even though I don’t have many dimes
She shrieks! Your love is what counts!
Yes! I’ll marry you, how could there have been any doubt
I’ll count,
My blessings from this day out
You made me the happiest, I feel I can shout
We embrace hearts connected as one
Convey this message to the universe,
Today I have won.

Have you ever been kicked down then stand up with pride
I have
I had life hating me
Yet still I survived
I still live daily
Without having to hide
The tribulations that I went through
On these healing pages I write
It’s my outlet, to bring all my emotions to life
It’s endlessly part of my strife
Dealing with it all is hard enough
Thank god for my wife
Without her, I doubt I would have ever survived in this life
Pulling me from darkness
When they were about to clamp down with the vice
She gives me infinite strength
To just keep up with fight
To not become part of a twisted world
Who finds chaos ......in delight

Looking through my window pane
Tear stained, I loved you
What a crying shame
You Left me, like I’m the one to blame
I Always had this notion that we both felt the same
What you said, caused so much pain
why then drown in disdain
Fog cleared from this window pane
My Spirits lifted, like by a crane
Is this all I have to say
Is there more anger to obtain
I'm Not angry any more
I’ve grown in strength, without decay
Your picture smashed, what a beautiful dame
These conjured words I say today
Is simply to convey
We over,
These feelings.....
A smashed covey on display
My heart’s over you.... ok
Moving on is never easy,
I’m over you memories faded
You just a jaded
Part of my life forgotten

Cold as the winter Snow
Demons of my dreams
Why?
Won’t you leave me alone
Allow me to grow
You weighing me down
With your burning brimstone
I can’t condone
Taking the little good I have
To the trash it gets thrown
I wish to break free
And let the good in me flow
I wish to disown
This feeling’s so cold
Please, I beg you to just let me go
I’m through with this horror show
I think that it’s time
To resurrect …..my halo

As stormy feelings tears me deep
The last words you whispered tears I keep
God called you to his side
I don’t understand…This raging feeling I can’t hide
The promises of love shared
Now just scarred memories that I bare
Emotions flowing twisted and cold
I cry, no crave, your love your touch your soul
This empty feeling undying severed my heart
What happened to the notion we’ll never be apart
How do I live this life, how do I move on?
I still need you, I still love you
Or are we just pawns
Broken hearts represents our stars
Your sweet lips on mine seems now so far
As a perfect union now broken apart
My love for you will never die…
I promise for you I eternally cry.

Rage consumes my soul like storms rising tide.
Angry waves constantly beating any hope of being…
God lost my blueprint to life it seems.
A thousand times I shout….
My lungs bleeds for me to stop…
A million times my fist hit the walls…
But still the rage continue to surge
I cling to the last thought that made me feel ….worthy….
Like an infant clinging to it’s mother in times of uncertainty…
As it endlessly battles the demonic darkness within me…
Clinging to life as I once did.
A ****** battle…..an internal struggle…
Do I just let go and let this raging monster within consume me?
I choose to fight!
Slowly a voice rises from the ashes of my charred soul….
Louder it grows…pounding away….
Drums of a battle on the brink of victory…
A piercing light rises within
As a phoenix rising from the ashes ....
reborn,
drenched with the possibility of a new tomorrow…
A smile slowly creeps across my lips…
Like a new life rising from the dirt.
It’s then that I realize....
I’m alive!!