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112 · Oct 2019
Look In The mirror
Each morning
When I get up
After I wash my face.
I look at myself in the mirror.
I asked myself
Who am I
Am I fake and rude
Then I actually look within
My inner self.
Nope, I’m a woman
Who’s live life with no rules
I’m a woman who makes
Her own rules.
only I could make my own
Decision how I want to live
My life.
I’m a woman with warmth heart
And a loving soul.
I’m a successful woman
Who knows what I want
In life.
I’m a 100% real woman
Either take it or you don’t.
That’s life
112 · Nov 2018
Present day
Ten years for now. That’s how long it’s been since I last saw the Welcome To Ellis sign as I drove away as a newlywed in the back of a limo filled with regrets.
Since I can’t say how many times I’ve thought about making my return. Hundreds? A thousand? Somewhere in between, most likely. I’ve pictured myself in a fancy sports car with my hair down into a scarf like I was Grace Jenavia, or maybe in a chauffeur-driven SUV.

Once in those ten years did I think I’d be coming back to town on a Greyhound bus.
A woman next to me snores so loudly, she wakes herself up. Her head jerks from side to side as she wipes drool from the corner of her mustache.

Nothing,” reply as I pull my baseball cap over my eyes and read- just my sunglasses to hopefully cover my black eyes where the makeup is wearing off.

Hoping my iffy luck will hold until I’m off this bus, and she won’t have a clue who she say next to on this long ride from L.A.

What’d I miss?” Leans over me to look out the window as we approach the bus station. He’s six feet under, and I’m the famous one because I’m the black widow who killed him.

Know the truth, but no one else cares about anything so mundane as that. Fall from wife of a rock god to the most hated woman in America has been a rocky one, and to be honest, I’m lucky I made it out of L.A. alive.
Greyhounds brakes squeal as it slows to a stop. Changing the direction of my thoughts. Stop thinking about what I’m running from and put it behind me.

I just never thought I’d be running toward Smith, the place I spent so many years desperate to leave. I want is a simple, quiet life. Something normal. Aways from the paparazzi and accusations. Even away from doing guilty that I fear.

I glance out the window, expecting the old wooden train depot, but we’re on the wrong side of town for that.

Smith. That’s one major reason I don’t know if I’ll ever find peace here.
Soon as we hit the city limits a few minutes ago, my heart is like stone.

Force my breathing to slow and try to look at the name without feeling anything.
Instead, I glare at it, like that’s going to help me find some inner strength.
I would match everything else in this town em blazoned with the Smith name.

Hospital that’s probably only a mile from here. Court-house that takes up one side of the town square. Smith bank and trust two blocks over, near the Rodriguez Art Gallery.

The only thing that doesn’t have their name is the town itself. Pretty sure my ancestors are still smiling in their graves about snaring that honor right before they jumped the Rodriguez’s gold claim and started a feud that’s lasted over 180 years.

I did my part too, and I’m not proud of it.
Wait my turn, specifically for the woman beside me to move, I can haul my *** off the bus. The bus rumbles to life again, and I watch as it rolls away. Left surrounded by the sum total remains of my former life, in the form of ridiculously overpriced Savellia Vuitton luggage, while I wait for my chronically-late-from-birth cousin to come get me.

Cricket begins me to come back to California, I probably would have stayed on the bus all the way to New York. Well I heard they’re friendly up there........ unless they’re Idelfonso Rodriguez fans.

Ohhh, baby! Look at that **** thing just waiting on a ride. You wanna come on up with me, girl?”
Catcalls had come from a man, I would tensed and prepared to bolt, but no. A voice I’d recognize even if it had been eighty years since I’d been home in stead of ten.

First time in months, a genuine smile stretches my lips. I know I don’t get into a strangers van unless someone offers me candy first. “
As well, get up here, little girl.
I’ve got sugar for you. Cricket puts the van in park and hops out, running around the front of the faint Econoline. *** Jesus Christ, you look just like a real beauty celebrity-who forgot to tell her chauffeur where to pick her up.”
So, I rush to meet him. We collide ina hug. “ I thought you were my chauffeur. But is to early too. I wasn’t prepared to wait an hour for cricket Time.”

Cuz my cousin smells exactly the same as the last time I saw her- like *** smoke, coconut, vanilla and sunshine.
“ Lord , I miss you, girl. It’s been way too ******* long.”
Pull back. Your tawny eyes dance, and her dark brown hair is braided around the crown of her head like she’s a perfect flower child.
But she’s alright.

Her heart squeezes at her smiling face. I’ve miss her so dear to much. I shouldn’t have stayed away so long. “ I know. I’m so sorry__
110 · Oct 2019
I’m In Peace With in
I found peace within myself
I could finally smile
Be happy
For my own self.
Each day I
Look at myself.
I could say
I’m free from all
The stress was put upon me.
I could walk with my head up
Even stand up.
I’m very happy because
I have friends
Who supported me
With all my sorrows.
Now I could joke around
Laugh at everything.
I’m alive again.
Because no matter what had
Happened
God shown me the path
I need to go.
There is a tree
A wonderful tree.
The tree of kindness.
It is the fastest growing tree
In this world, God bless

There is a tree
The wonderful kindness tree
Taking deep roots forever to last
In a million people's heart
Spouting and growing enormously fast

There is a tree
That wonderful kindness tree
It grows so fast, that soon enough
The whole wide world on sea and earth
will be filled with comfort and love

There is a tree
That wonderful tree of kindness
Roots spreading in another million hearts
spouting and growing reaching high and wide
And then in another million hearts it starts

And then another two million
And five million more to come
A billion hearts soon will follow
I already smell its wonderful blossom
Roots in everyone's heart will show

Oh, it is growing so fast,
this tree let's sit and enjoy
in its amazing shadow
And just let the roots
in your heart grow!
Christmas is about
Bringing your love one together
Christmas is about accepting
The loves from all kinds
People
Christmas is about giving and spreading
The loves of children
Christmas is when Jesus Christ
Was born
Remember Christmas is for the
Children
There’s are millions
Women’s and men’s
In our world
We are living today.
They always say
They're not satisfied nor happy
What they look like.
They rather go and pay
Millions of dollars
Just to change there
Faces and bodies.
For what exactly
Is it for yourself
Or that way the world
Could
Wow
You’re so beautiful.
What I have seen
Men’s and women’s
Who does
That
Not only they changed
Their faces and body’s
Also there
Inner self.
Why don’t you be happy
What god’s gave you
Be yourself
You will have the same amount
Respect
And love’s
Not only from yourself
But others as well
Too
110 · Mar 2019
Chapter 8
Chapter 8

“As I walked through the casino, my mind went back to the mark on Lotus’s neck.
Was she one of my sisters?
It seemed almost inconceivable that I’d run into any one of them on the night I’d learned of their existence. But, then again, it was possible that we’d been brought together by supernatural forces. For all I knew, Lilith’s spirit had her hand in this. She might still be looking out for me, even in death”.
“I headed toward the hotel’s front doorway; several people stared at me in horror, which reminded me of the blood and cuts on my face. Obviously, I needed to clean myself up. Cursing Brandon under my breath, I turned around and made a bee-line toward the restrooms. When I stepped into the women’s room and saw my reflection in the mirror, I groaned in frustration. It had been dark in the elevator and I hadn’t realized how bad I actually looked. Now, in this light, I looked like someone had attacked me with a cheese grater.”
“A noise in one of the bathroom stalls caught my attention. I turned off the water just as someone made a loud snorting noise.
Can you make it any more obvious?
The woman flushed the toilet and a few seconds later, she walked out of the stall, her nose red from whatever blow she’d been snorting.”
“Hi,” I said, recognizing the ******* dressed blonde. She was one of the local hookers and we’d bumped into each other a lot during the past few months. Her name was Twyla and she believed that we shared the same profession. I never corrected her on it either.
Our eyes met and Twyla gasped. “Jesus, are you okay?”
I smiled grimly. “I’m fine.”
“A Ronald do that to you?”
“Something like that.”
“I remember.”
She stared at me in the mirror. “That’s gotta hurt.”
“My face?”
She nodded.
“Only when I smile,” I replied. “Fortunately, there isn’t much to smile about tonight.”
Twyla stepped closer to me. “Honey, if you’re interested, I’ve got something that will make you feel better,” she whispered, as if someone else was in the bathroom with us.
“I’d appreciate it.” Little did she know we were talking about two separate things.”
“Twyla stepped closer to me. “Honey, if you’re interested, I’ve got something that will make you feel better,” she whispered, as if someone else was in the bathroom with us.

“I’d appreciate it.” Little did she know we were talking about two separate things.
Twyla pulled out a small vial of powder from her purse. “There’s enough in there for one good line.”
“*******?”
She nodded and held it out. “I think you need this more than I do. Especially if you want to get through the rest of the night.”
I glanced toward the doorway. “To be honest, I’ve never done this before,” I whispered. “Maybe we should go into the stall and you can show me how to use it? I don’t want anyone walking in on us.”
“Yeah. No problem. Let’s go,” said Twyla, heading toward the large stall at the end. I followed quickly and locked”
“the door.
“So, you’ve never tried it before, huh?”
I shook my head.
“Then maybe I’ll just give you a little,” she said, holding the vial up again.
“Great. A little is all I need,” I replied, snaking my arm out to grab her wrist.
“What the hell you doing, *****?” she snapped, as the vial fell to the ground, powder spilling everywhere.
I looked into her eyes. “Calm down.”
Her pupils dilated and her face relaxed.
“Like I said, I only need a little.” I raised her wrist to my lips, and sank my teeth into her skin, loathing the fact that I had to resort to this. Drinking blood, in a bathroom stall, from a coked-up ****** was definitely not my finest hour.
Twyla gasped”.
“She suddenly looked frightened. “Leave Tony?”
“Yes. You don’t need that *******. He’s nothing but a leech and you are not his property to sell.”
A spark of anger filled Twyla’s eyes. “Tony’s a leech.”
“Yes. Are you living with him?”
“No.”
Good. “Do you have children?”
“No.”
Even better. “Do you have family, out of Vegas?”
“I have a sister in Hawaii.
“Is she a *******?”
“No.”
“Tell me about her.”
“She works in a diner and is married to a truck driver. They’ve got a kid. Danny. He’s my nephew.”
“Are you close?”
“We used to be.”
“Okay. Consider packing your stuff and going to her. Anything you have to do to get away from Robert and this life you’re living. You have any money saved?” I asked, touching my face. It now felt smooth.”
Amor / Amistad: Mercurio retrógrado en su zona de amistad puede traer de vuelta a los viejos amigos.  Hasta el 9 de marzo, tendrás la oportunidad de reevaluar las amistades, tanto antiguas como nuevas.  Podría ser gratificante volver a conectar con alguien con quien solía sentirse profundamente conectado.  También puede inspirarse para unirse a un club u organización de la que solía ser miembro
Yes I am
Living my life to the fullest
Someone told me long time ago
To live my life
To the fullest
Now I am
Living the life I
Want to be
109 · Apr 2021
To all Mom’s
Mom, you're a wonderful mother,
So gentle, yet so strong.
The many ways you show you care
Always make me feel I belong.

You're patient when I'm foolish;
You give guidance when I ask;
It seems you can do most anything;
You're the master of every task.

You're a dependable source of comfort;
You're my cushion when I fall.
You help in times of trouble;
You support me whenever I call.

I love you more than you know;
You have my total respect.
If I had my choice of mothers,
You'd be the one I'd select!
108 · Jan 2021
An Awesome Love
My love is like a cavern
Its so wide and deep
My love is like a flower
its beauty you want to keep.

My love is like an ocean
That will never end
My love is like a letter
With a beautiful message in the end.

My love is like a song
with lyrics so sweet
Like a piece of chocolate
and you are my favorite treat.
I have hard time expressing my feelings
In front of people
I could express my feelings
On my poetry
When I do
Let out my feelings
Nobody is listening
So I learned to keep
All my feelings
Inside.
Am I bad person
I tell the truth
I still get doubted
I try to speak
I don’t get finished
What I needed to say
I been called
All kind of names
I been accused
Things I don’t do.
No, matter what
I say. I’m still wrong
You say, you believe it
If I don’t have proof
I send you proof.
All I get
It’s not mine.
I don’t **** around
I’m very royal to my
King.
But I’m still wrong
108 · Apr 2021
Little two
I never saw your twinkling eyes
Or touched your precious feet.
I never shared a tiny yawn
Or rocked you fast asleep.

I never kissed your tiny hands
Or saw your little smile.
I never held you in my arms,
But I carried you for a while.

Although I never saw your face
Or heard your precious laughter,
You're still my child whom I love
And will always
Love
107 · Apr 2021
Life is what you make it
Life is what you make it, so it's
strictly up to you, if it doesn't
meet your expectations, then
change whatever you do! You
don't have to accept the way
things are, if it's not what you'd
like it to be. You can make the
difference, because of your
individuality. Too often we stay
in a rut, for fear of trying anything
new. If you have faith and believe,
that's all you need, to pull through.
Never be afraid to take chances,
as it doesn't come along everyday.
Take the bull, by the horns and seize
the opportunity, before it slips away!
107 · Apr 2021
Passionate
When I look at you,
It makes my heart overwhelmed with love
flowing from my spirit through my itty bitty tiny veins.

The glow that your face gives
when I look into your eyes
as I stare at you,
it's like your love
for me spells out in the air saying
baby, I will always be there.

Thinking 'bout that day when we met,
it was like we were meant for one another...
The way we connected,
the thoughts we shared,
the love we showed,
if only everybody could see and know that
my heart is a passionate reflection of you
that no one can ever undo.

My passionate heart...
It cries for you,
but only if you knew
that my passionate heart is
a reflection of how I feel about you.
To come out your cave
Come and talk.
What are you waiting on.
Are you going to wait, until
Everything is gone.
Not going to say
Your peace.
This is life.
Sometimes you lose
That’s one person, very dear
To your heart.
To able to understand
Where you when wrong.
107 · Aug 2020
I’ll Do Anything For You
I would do anything my dear love to make you happy,
I would go to the ends of the earth if you needed
to find and get you anything that you need.
I would give it my all even risking life
and limb to make you happy and see you smiling.

I would do anything to protect you if a dangerous moment
or situation arose and threatned you in any way.
I would give up my life if needs be to protect my only one,
I will be your hero and knight in shining armor,
I will always protect you from anything there may be
that could frighten, threaten, or harm you.
I would do anything in defense of my lady.

I would and I will do everything in this life to
give you all that you need and deserve,
I will always do for my sweet Angel what is right.
I will do everything for her to be happy,
healthy, safe, full of peace and strength.
I would do anything it takes to let you know that
you matter and you're never alone.
I will do anything to prove that I'm never leaving,
and dedicated staying right by your side for eternity.

I will do everything to honor you treating you as
the precious Queen of my heart that you are,
I will always give you my best treating you with dignity and respect,
give you everything you deserve to heal your heart
and prove to you that you're the best my Angel Queen.
I would and I will do everything that you want and need
because you're my lady and I love you so very deeply.
107 · Oct 2018
Hear me out
I have gone through many ups and downs with my husband since I talk to him. Enjoying the Army. Our relationship was good until I noticed he is a compulsive liar.
I found out he has been messaging another women with nasty messages and pictures.
This isn't the first time he has done this. Women we both knows in the pass. Came up to me. Some reason he don't remember,  what he'll suppose have done.
I am tired of being lied to, but I can't seem to stop helping him. Even though he say no. Maybe I'm different than him. No, matter what you say to me.
Because we have kids together. I still look at it as if its okay.
I maded few mistakes in my life.
Am I going to hide it.
Am I going to lie about it.
No, I'm not going to hide it
Nor lie about it.
I am a true person.
Ask me, I'll tell you.
My morsel tells me
Lieing about something
Not only you lieing to yourself
Your lieing to God
I rather be free with my sin
Than live with a guilty conscious
For the raise of my life.
106 · Mar 2021
Before I.........
Before I became strong, I knew what it was like
To be weak,
How difficult it is to love yourself,
To find the wholeness that you seek.

Before I knew the light,
I have had my fair share of darkness, too,
Where my world fell into a hopelessness
And I didn't know how to get through.

For I have known the tears it takes,
The courage to stand up again,
When you are broken down and bruised
And you know nothing but the pain.

You forget to appreciate love,
If you haven't seen the hate,
Till you forget the meaning of smile and laughter,
And your heart is left abate.

I have known the strength and courage
It requires to get it right,
To face the things that hold you down
And hold your head up and fight.

Before I was who I am now,
I was someone I didn't want to be.
I was lost, battered, and defeated,
Before I knew how to be me!
106 · Nov 2018
Ten years later-Present day
“ Time to **** or get off the ***,
girl. Can’t keep her dangling after you forever. I’m getting any younger, and you need to get started on that next generation. China wall line must continue, I’m getting sick of waiting.”

Grandfather offers his unsolicited advice as my phone vibrates with a text. Having our regular morning meeting on his deck overlooking the gorge and Mountain.

“ Isn’t relevant to the conversation at hand.” I slide my phone off the table and turn off the ringer. Continuely ignoring the message from the other men’s I’ve been seeing occasionally for the last four months, Flips open a file with a stack of documents needing Commodore’s signatures.

Business comes first, last, always. Smith family way. Any women who spends time around me knows it, these meetings with my grandfather are sacrosanct. May be the heirs apparently to a multibillion-dollar empire, Commodore still officially holds the reins, every decision
105 · Apr 2021
Social media
I don’t really care for
Social media
Anymore
1. There’s to many
Haters
2. Your boyfriend/girlfriend
Will get jealous
On some comments
I myself don’t understand
They get mad
But they do same
Stuff.
I learned something
Greater.
I shut down my Facebook account
In Reality
I get more comments
From other people
Don’t matter what I look
Like in the morning or night
There’s enough people
Will say it out
Your beautiful.
105 · Oct 2018
You and get dirty
Hey your **** right here honey’
I’m thinking working part of my body
It never ceases to a ***** mind
Love to prematurely ***** chomp
I meant lovely,

Can I sing you a song under are covers while you sleeping
Wake up
Standing over you looking’possessed like a badly horror films

See the light from outside blinds you and blacks out my front
I think you will never talk to me again

Been known to be like that
Scared people off
Everything I do
Just get so excited when you can’t talk to me
Kid ready to run his big mouth about her day?
105 · Oct 2018
When you though your health
I am strong woman
I live for my kids and man
They keeps me strong
But I can't take the stress

I'm still young
Only 47, but this stress
Will **** anybody
105 · Nov 2018
Rodriguez
When I opened my eyes a few hours
Later, empty bed was. Shot straight up and looked around.
She was gone.
******* imagine last night.
I hear boards creak out in the living room.
****, she’s sneaking out.
Not only I was not letting her leave without getting her name, but she had no way to get home.
I bolted out of bed, bothering with my jeans, reached the living room. “ Hey—-“
Whipped around from where she was standing, fully dressed, by the front door. There she was staring at pictures below a trophy mount and an antique rifle.
My father picture and my grandfather.
Instead of that sated smile, her face was the picture of horror.
“ Are you okay?”
Hey she won’t backed away, edging toward the door, and tripped over one of her boots as she reached for the handle.
You may................. You’re..............Rodriguez
Smith. Aren’t you?” Expression was echoed by the horrified tone of her voice.

Normally they found out my name, they were on me faster than I could fend off.

Chin up. So, ****.” Reached down and grabbed her boots before ripping the door open.
Already partway down the drive before I hit the front porch.
“ Wait!”
Well she gave me a backwards glance and stumbled, dropping one of her boots. I didn’t even stop to pick it up. She just bolted.
****.
105 · Apr 2019
Reveal about You as A Woman
Reveal that you have been through more pain than people can imagine. You past turned you into a strong woman who can bear the burden on your shoulders.
You're an admirable person who will achieve a lot thanks to your strong spirit.
Never forget how valuable you are!
104 · Dec 2020
New Year’s
Here I come
My attitude for New Years
Happy and blessed
Because I’m going to be me
Still.
I don’t change myself
Still loving person I am.
Because this is me
104 · Oct 2019
Be Yourself
Be yourself
Being yourself
More people will
Love you.
Show them honestly
That your 100% real
You get more in
Life.
Being myself
I learned to love myself
More.
I learned to put myself first.
Because in the end of that
Rope.
Only you could do it.
No, one else
Keep on pushing.
104 · Feb 2021
Are Tongue
The tongue
Can utter sweet words
Of love and affection
Of praise and gratitude
To fill the mind.

The same tongue
Can become a sharp knife
Of cutting with words crude
Without drawing blood
To **** the mind.
This guy I thought I knew
I trust him.
I guess I was wrong
Don't matter, how long
You know a person
2 years or 3 years.
Not enough to get to know him.

This guy I knew
He lied in front my face
He use his charms
To lead woman in sweets
Talks.

This guy I knew
Take advantage of
Woman to buy him
Anything.

This guy I knew
If he don't get what he
Want.
He will trade you
For someone else.
103 · Apr 2021
Honestly
Is hard to be honest
With someone you
Say you love
103 · Jun 2019
Selfish
Having desires that conflict with the selfishness of others.

A: "I'm getting my appendectomy tomorrow. I need to save this money for copay."
B: "How could you be so selfish? Spending money on "necessary operations" left and right, and meanwhile my wife and I can't pay the television bill. I can't believe you could be so - "
103 · Dec 2020
I Wish
There are moments
in life when you wish you
could bring someone
down from heaven, spend
the day with them just
one more time, give them
a hug, kiss them goodbye ,
or hear their voice again.
One more chance to say;
“ I Love You!” Share in
memory of a loved
one in Heaven
In my heart
I have a lot of
Hate
I need to heal
And find me again
Because if I give in
Let my heart make that
Decision for me
I’ll fall apart.
My heart needs a pure
Heart
Not everyone is pure
Not everyone could do
What I could do
Not everyone as giving person
Not everyone does everything
Out of there heart.
I’m not ready
To give me
I’m not fighting for someone
Will just play with my heart
If someone can’t understand
How truly I feel
They only see or read
What they wanna read.
I’m not sharing anymore my
Feeling.
Unless I tried
But I felt
They don’t understand
Me at all
101 · Jun 2019
Be kind
Agree be careful how you treat people but why not just be good to people for the sake of doing the right thing and being kind instead of doing it to keep a door open for yourself? If you love someone, do everything you can to make them happy. Never take them for granted and remember life isn't guaranteed. Live your dreams now.
101 · Apr 2019
Before, I didnt love myself
Because I had some difficult
In my life.
I'm always putting them first
Before myself.

That time came
I was able to relax
With my inner self

I learn to love myself before anybody
I learn to take care my health.
Most important
I let God in my heart.
101 · May 2019
Understanding woman
No, matter what
Your partner did
Cheat
Betrayed
You. You know
Deep in your heart
Its wasn't himself
At that moment.
Partner him/ her
They are driven to do
Bad things
When people accuse
Them. So, easy for
Them to act on it.
Some women are strong
Hearted. Will just look
The other way.
And wait for that special moment
To come to her.
I never tell anybody
What’s my plans are
Sometimes when I get enough
My plan
I don’t actually follow them
I just get up
And do it right there.
Why wait
If you could change your life
For the better.
That’s what exactly
I did
Walk extra mile nor more
Too satisfied, your love one
Will fly to the moon back
Too satisfied, my love
Will find something,
To satisfied,  my love
Will do anything
To satisfied,  my love
When other people make decisions with bad outcomes, we tend to focus on the people behind the decision. We can’t seem to shake the belief that good people make good decisions and bad people make bad decisions. It’s easy to think that we would have made a better decision.
When our decisions have bad outcomes, we know the outcomes is not all there is to see. Our thoughts and intentions come into play. We can’t see the thoughts and intentions of others—we only see their actions through a biased lens. We can, however, see our thoughts and intentions. Our bad outcomes happen because we were unlucky.
Sometimes you have to make changing
You can’t always fight for him
If he wasn’t yours to fight for
I learn to step back
And watch what been happening
In my life.

Than one day. I saw everything
I thought I was fighting for
Wasn’t even mine to being for.
Life to short to be chasing someone and fighting for.
When you know. His not going to fight the same for you. I even learned to love yourself more.
Because I give up on fighting for him.
I learn to take care myself more.
Because in the end of the day
No, one will do it
But your own self.
Be yourself
To love me, you gotta learn
To love your own self first
99 · Apr 2021
Night Is Young
Hold me tight in your arms
Let us explore the young night
Let us see through the ****** night
We could feel each other's warm
Take my soul to your longing heart.


We can break each other's ribs
With the undying love which we
Peep through its eyes at the back of affection
The sensational theme of the movement
In our body could take us to the other phase of life.


Hold me in your hands into the night
Let's walk to the isle of love
The night is still young and thirsty
Of experience that could savor its longing eyes;
We could penetrate through its ****** and break its pride.

Us against the world, you and me against them all
Our minds are still young and promising
Our hearts are still waiting to explore into the depth
Of the craving night,
Spell bound my soul and make me groan into the night.


Kiss me here, touch me and take me into
The darkest part of the night,
Hold me tight and make love to me;
For I found love in your eyes
When men see the dark con of a man in you.
Last nite I had a dream
This one where you were
All up inside and I was loving it
Than there was rain and thunder
With your sweaty and dirt hands
Why am I going to argue with him?
98 · Mar 2019
My vision
I also saw that Jarrett has a lot of romantic admiration in his aura field coming from another person besides you, I'm not exactly sure who it is but it seems to be somebody that's in proximity on a somewhat frequent basis. It could be a friend, coworker, classmate, neighbour, friend of a friend, etc but what is clear is that they haven't acted on their crush or revealed their feelings but these feelings they have for Jarrett are pretty strong. At first I thought it may have been you but your auric admiration is more of a deep blue or purple, their auric admiration is a mixture yellow and green. Reading the aura of Jarrett I can see that this person is in the category of "platonic acquaintance" so they don't have any romantic feelings for them in return at the moment.
Each one of us. Has a third eye. That we forget to use them.
Once’s you break that trust with me
You will never get it back
Your words won’t make any different
I’m not an easy person to believe anything
Anymore.
You cannot sugar coded it with me
Pray before you speak
So much had happened
In my life. So many heart breaking.
I’m afraid to get close with someone else.
I’m afraid to let someone in.
I don’t know if I could do it again.
98 · Feb 2020
Gemini relationship/lover
Amor / Amistad: cuanto más necesites a las personas más cercanas a ti, más te molestará cuando Marte intencional atraviese tu casa de recursos compartidos.  Hasta marzo, podría haber conflictos sobre el dinero que se comparte.  No todo es pesimismo.  Sus circunstancias podrían motivarlo a romper su dependencia y restablecer el equilibrio de dar y recibir.  En una nota positiva, este reino gobierna la intimidad.  Con el **** Mars aquí, tu vida ****** podría estar al rojo vivo, aunque es probable que venga con un drama emocional
98 · Apr 2021
Let Go the past
There are so many bs
In my life
But one thing I
Learned
Is to let go.
So I chose to let go of my past
And stay with my
New life
Is a new beginning
98 · Jul 2019
Coward (3)
noun

1. One who is not brave
2. One who fears many things
3. The most insulting word known to man

Synonyms:
1. scaredy-cat
2. loser
Antonyms:
1. non-coward
2. hero
3. valiant warrior
4. Adventurer
5. Voorhees 2nd Floor

Look at that man running from me, such a coward.

"I don't want to go in there, I'm scared" said the coward.
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