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Beyond my room
Through the closed door
Lies many wonders out to explore
Beauty and hardship
Smiles and tears
Sunshine and rain
I wish I could care

Time stands still here
The lights never change
Everyday feels the same

Death will come soon
Maybe I will give it a year
Maybe I will go outside more
Maybe one day I will care

#room #smile #cry #emotions

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Life is Hard

It is hard
The days
They number on
Life feels long
Until the years number on
And then you wonder
'Where has the time gone?'
Soon ten will be gone
And then another
Or maybe not
It might be all over before you know it

Until then I will write and wonder
Cry and suffer
And in time
I will learn how to be happy

#life

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I Wish It Were So Simple

I wish it were so simple
Rain could fall forever
Daydreams could become reality
Love would seem so clever
Fear would become a distant thought
My mind would stop its chatter
Flowers would bloom
Life would flourish

Sadly time will never falter

#life #dream #love

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Eyes to Oblivion

Eyes to oblivion
The pain will always fade
Mind will go away for a while
And come again when it rains
Dreams will never feel the same
They will bore as much as life
Inspiration will expire
You will not desire
Life will never feel the same

Some things can change your whole outlook on life. Little or small. One thing or multiple things. They can all make you feel numb. Writing helps break this barrier.

#eyes #oblivion #pain #dream

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Pink Boy

I wonder what they think
A quiet boy
A pink jumper
I just like the colour
But I still wonder
what do they think
Am I not masculine enough?
Are my emotions showing too much?
Maybe I am just overthinking it
It hurts to know that I will never quite understand it
You have your reasons
I have my own
I just want to be me
But it seems to risky to push it
Don't get me wrong
I love wearing black too
But sometimes I just feel blue
And want to wear the brightest colours in my room

#pink #boy

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Temporary Tears

It will be okay
These tears are only temporary
This feeling is just a phase
It will not rain forever
You will grow and flourish
Become someones lover
And become something amazing
Or maybe you wont
But you might as well try right?
Life is unfair
But pretending that it will never get better will only make it worse

**** i contradict myself. im ******* sick of living, ****. like what even i cant even keep my focus on anything anymore. I cant finish movies, shows, games, everything seems dull. Life seems like hell. My thoughts only get worse and work against me. They tell me all these things I dont want to hear and I cant accept anything and i get so ******* paranoid about **** which isnt real so i get confused about what things i should worry about and what i shouldnt. Life is a ******* nightmare, why cant we just dream forever.

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I Wish I Could Play Too

I love the melancholy
Every time a chord is struck
Such beauty and passion
No tear could feel alone
A euphoric atmosphere is created
Almost like a dream
No more anxiety or hatred
No more low self-esteem
But I can only listen
I wish I could play too
My hands shake too much
It is a shame
Because I always feel blue

#melancholy #piano