Demons are here
Demons are there
they run in your head
they run till you are dead
tormenting your choices
laughing in your face
destroying things you have built
it's like you are running in place.

I don't feel special,
I'm not unique.
I want to cry
but I can't even speak.
My hands reach out,
but they cannot hold
a single thing
but the bitter cold.
Everything's frozen,
I feel lost.
Even my tears
have turned to frost.
When I cut my waist
it bleeds black.
I'm so deeply gone
there's no way back.
This is goodbye

You are gone
but not forgotten
you left me battered and broken
I barely knew you
yet you are constantly on my mind
not a day goes by
where the pain hits and my teeth grind
I don't miss you
because you have always been a who
I wish you would have stayed
But you hurt us all when you left
I was hurt but so were they
they were your friends
they walked their hell
they loved you more
they knew you well.
I missed that chance
after you fell.
dangling down with your final dance.

You were there for me
when I felt alone
you always have been and I hope you always will be
I have messed up
But I will atone
You were there in my darkest times
you were there when no one was
And I thank you with these rhymes
I love you, I know it is hard to see
that you are so very special to me.
In the future
it will become clear
that you are my world
You are the one I hold most dear
We have been through so much
I keep moving forward thanks to your touch
I can't always communicate
I wish I could elaborate
Through my anger
I will fight
I promise it will get better
because you were always there for me.
although we have been through hell
we were meant to be and time will tell
I hope you see it too
that I am always here for you.

One word of hate
will taint the slate
keep your mouth clean
bite your tongue
for you know not what they have seen.
One bitter action could tip their scale
It may be the final battle
this time they won't have the strength to bail

You claim you love me
You say you care
Yet you leave when things don't seem fair.
But it seems I am the fool
I have been used over and over like a tool
By ones I called family for so long
I try to make them smile
But its never enough
I am left in my own darkness for a while
Until I fake a grin
I fake it well
No one knows and no one cares
My sacrifice is taken for granted
I push forward still
I have always been alone
I always will.
Falling is not an option
Failing is not the choice
Standing up above them all
Holding my head up
Moving past that pesty voice
It will hurt.
It always has
For I am alone.
But it will pass.