It's funny how dreams turn out sometimes
You wake up and suddenly
It's not a dream anymore.
You are awake, but the dream lingers…

Insecure people make me angry.
I get upset when someone talks themselves down  over and over again.
Find something beautiful about yourself and stick to it.
If you cannot find anything that you love about yourself, you are going to be sad forever.
If you cannot see the beautiful in yourself how can you find the beautiful in other people?
I wish everyone would realize they shine a different light, and all lights are beautiful.
They light up a different way, they light up different people.
It's a magic light that some people can see, and some others can't.
I wish it were enough for everyone.
You do not need to shine for the world.
You need to shine for the people who can see it.
For the people who can love it.
Who can love you.
I wish it was enough for me.

Your fingers linger on the bruises
You put there just last night
Covering
Last week's addition with thoughtful convenience
Streaks of red and blue around my throat
A word too fast
A breath too short
I made you angry
You did not realize
This one time would be the last
A second too long
A lifetime lost
My body in a bag
A macabre sculpture you created like an artisan
Molding my face into a canvas of fear and pain
Into the blank face of death
You created art and like most artists
I(t) will haunt your sleepless night
With every memory of me

I wouldn't change the way I am
But I am a passionate person
I react strongly to everything
I love fast and hard
If only I could
Stop…
As easily as switching a light
On
        And
                   Off
But it only works one way
And I am destroying myself
Each time a little more
I pour my entire being in one go
I give and give and give until nothing is left
But
So often I am rewarded with silence
Then the pain
The pain
Is the worst kind
A burning blade slicing and burning
Fire in your veins
The pain makes my mind go numb
And attempt at shutting it all off
But always comes back
With a vengeance
I am a passionate person
And as they all do
Passions come with a price
I wonder how long I will be willing
**To pay.

You destroyed me with one simple look
Eyes collide and the universe empties itself out
Floating in ether with stare unblinking
Who will back out first I wonder

The game we play is a dangerous one
You make the rules and I move along
Addicted to you I follow blindly
Into this dangerous path you trace for me

I wonder how you knew
That humouring me would be the way in
And I cannot get you out
I cannot push you away
From the little nest in my heart where you stay
Planning your way in
Deeper and deeper in

The lights are blinking furiously
Sending alarms across my body
But I am tuned to you I don't want to hear
The alarm ringing I'm addicted, I fear
Do not trick me into loving you
You know I'll be hurt if you do
Take that chance and jump aboard
On the crazy train we ride abroad
In a country where I am no longer afraid
To say the words that hurt me before

Give me faith
Don't let me down
I don't know if I can handle
Being left again this time around