Start with something simple
a time when you were
as far from mastery of that skill
you had to learn to
control the movements
of your hands,
somehow get them to move where you wanted them to,
you had your body make no mistake about it
& we haven't yet considered the matter of language.

I just want to cry & let all my feelings out, but I think if I start crying I won't be able to stop.
Times are rough, & I know they'll get better eventually, but when would that be ?
Sometimes I just want to leave this place, but I don't want to leave no one behind.
I'm lost & confused most of the time.
This weight I carry, I can't take no more, It's too heavy & it keeps going up & down.
I need to escape, but where would I go ? Would I come back ?
I don't know how to feel towards anyone or anything.
I want to go back to my childhood but yet I never had one.
No one can hurt me no more, I just move on.
Sometimes I don't even have feelings & that scares me.
I'm scared of getting attached to people because I know they'll leave no matter our history.
I want to be myself, but I'm scared to.
I work on myself but I always end up where I started.
Some people tell me I'm strong, but they don't see the behind the scenes.
I feel bad for myself too much & I hate it, but there's nothing else to do but cry about it.
I have scars from the pain & they're visible.
I always end up spilling my heart out to the wrong people.
But I want to tell "EVERYTHING" to that one person, & see if they'll stay after.
I want to cry my eyes, heart, mind & soul out so I won't have to cry or hurt no more.

waterfalls fall from from the river into the rocks
just like i fell into you
beautiful girls fall from the last guy/girl into the new one
and
sadly some fall in love at the fall
and
drown as we've gotten heartbroken...

i'm afraid you won't be able to hold it,
my problems
my tears
my insecurities
my words
my heart
my mind
i'm afraid i will break you...

it felt like my heart and soul were right next to each other
falling out of my chest slowly
painfully...
it hurt more than it ever did out of just realizations
i couldn't walk
i felt like throwing myself on the wood floor of the entrance of my new home
it felt like there was a black hole inside me
literally...
"come on open your present"
i don't answer because of the ******' pain
i throw myself on my bed and keep crying and crying...
"hey, open your gift!"
i don't bother to answer just to see if she'll come and comfort me
i left my door open on purpose
"hey, do you want to open your gift?" she sees me crying and sighs
she lays down next to me, hugs me and sighs once again
me?
i'm still crying and i don't really know the reason why yet
"what did he say to you that made you cry this hard?"
i cry harder and i can barely breathe
i stop just to answer
i think twice before saying what 'i want' to say, but i don't care at this point
i should be able to express myself 'exactly' how i feel it, so then i say...
"he's just a ******' *******"