I visited my girlfriend in the hospital
after her appendicitis operation.
she looked good
and her smile made me smile

"I made a friend," she told me.

There had been another girl in the room with her
and this girl,
she was in the hospital because she sprayed a whole
can of bug repellent into a cup and drank it

"Why?" I asked.

"Oh, well," said my girlfriend. "You wouldn't understand.
Let's just say she wanted to **** the butterflies
in her stomach."

"Okay."

you're so beautiful
so, all kinds of lovely

how could
someone not
write about
you?

it saddens me
how i have
always wanted
the best for you
while you
wanted the
worse
upon me.

i am afraid
that you would
finally see into me
and realize
that i was
never
worth your
time,
energy,
and
love.

i am looking
at you
as you look
at her
and though
it's all temporary
it still
hurts me
to the bone

- i'm trying to forget