are my inferences logical
or am i stitching innocent gestures together

you're getting in my head
and i don't know whether you put yourself there on purpose


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my self control is failing

those tiny moments of happiness have been prioritized over the hours of analysis and regret

when people focus on the world there is pain

You tell us that worldly things do not matter
that they are meaningless
yet we find excuses to make them priorities

why?
for short term gain?
pleasure?
satisfaction?

in reality this lust for more, for better, for best
only causes pain
why is it hard to listen to you God when you are only looking out for us
why, even in knowing this, can i justify that what i want will help me glorify You

because if it were true
i wouldn't need convincing


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how i envy those closest to me
the bitterness grows and despite feeling disgusted

in myself
in my character
i cant help it

how it gnaws at the calcium keeping my bones together


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