When its all too much
My fingers strain with purpose
Just holding on
My next step and another
My shoe-laces break
Just moving on

When its so much to take
My mind is a race track
Cars crashing into walls
My head ache
Banging into walls
Just trying to push through

And how can I remain
When its all too much?
How can I stay sane
In this madness?

I release my expectations
Only what heaven wills
Will be brought to me
And I am happy just to be

Because when I want

I release my expectations
Only what the river flows
Only what the sunlight shows
I am happy I can see

Because when I want

               I know what's wrong
               And just don't care
               If I've been hurt
               I feel I hate
And hatred isn't me
I was born to love
To love
To love

So all I want

I release me expectations
And give my love
I want nothing in return
Except that I am me

I release my expectations
What is to be will be
Still you get what you give
And I give only love

There is nothing else I want

When the blood turns to pain
When the words disappear
When the day can't be long
And the night must be dark

When the moon turns to wane
And the world turns its back
When the stars start to die
And the stairs lead to hell

When the root turns to stone
When the bone turns to dust
When the fire that burns
Leaves everything ash

When the sky turns to grey
When the shine turns to rain
When the sun turns to darkness
And all life is death

When the root turns to stone
When the root turns to stone

I will still be alive
With love in my heart for you

Seed in stony soil blooms my soul;
Pulchritudinous passionate paeony

When Pandora opened the box
Zueses wedding gift
Was really Zueses revenge against Prometheus
For stealing fire from the gods and introducing it to man
When Pandora opened the box
A thousand evils including death filled the world
And one gift

That gift
Was hope

A poet is an artist
Not a mimic
Copy.....
Paste
A word here or there
A feeling before
Said again
With less meaning
And no feeling
A poet is an artist
And artists create
A soul......
Soul
Soul is original
Displayed on a page
Like never before

No one else can say what you say
The way you say it

The dark of night
Is even harder to take
When I think back
To the light of the day

The cold of winter
Is colder still
Because I can't forget
The warmth of the summer

When she loved me
And I loved her
And there was nothing
That could stand between

The length of a chasm
Becomes uncrossable
When my mind says
The other side can't be reached

When I've been there before
And lost my way
With no idea
On how to return

When she loved me
And I loved her
And there was nothing
That could stand between

Love won't leave you alone
Love won't lead you astray
Love won't fight a war
Just keep your faith

And have a bold heart

I miss the way the sun would rise and spell your truth
As I held my hand to my face and felt your touch
When the clouds showed your face
And the wind spoke your voice
When you were with me
I miss looking into the distance and hoping for skin
As I opened my eyes and learned your name
When the day was never ending
And the noon knew your heart
When you were with me
I miss the somber tones and the songs you've shown
As each note became a meaning
When you knew how to sing
And you sang beautifully
When you were with me
I miss

The world is busy being in the night
Now
The pain
The disorder
I want to talk about light
My voice may waver
My words as fragile
As something that one shouldn't speak about
I think about hope
I speak about love
I should have never committed such thought to words

I saw an eruption
It was cataclysmic
Bringing violent destruction
I saw an eruption
Come from my own mouth
And the words are ash on the victim

So what can I do to make this right?
What can I do?
When the lava still is flowing

I saw a nuclear bomb
Falling from the sky
Falling from my own self
And it feels the fallout is never ending

So what can I do to make this right?
What can I do?
Within this radiation

And where do I go from here?

From forest destruction
To cheating and arson
And willful injury of persons

I have to know
I have to show you
The past is the past
And I ****** up
But we still have a future
We still have a heartbeat
We still have a chance
To get it right

So where do we go from here?

It's in every choice we make

I saw an eruption
It was cataclysmic
Bringing violent destruction
I saw an eruption
Come from my own mouth
And the words are ash on the victim

So what can I do to make this right?
What can I do?
When the lava still is flowing

I saw a nuclear bomb
Falling from the sky
Falling from my own self
And it feels the fallout is never ending

So what can I do to make this right?
What can I do?
Within this radiation

And where do I go from here?

From forest destruction
To cheating and arson
And willful injury of persons

I have to know
I have to show you
The past is the past
And I ****** up
But we still have a future
We still have a heartbeat
We still have a chance
To get it right

So where do we go from here?

It's in every choice we make

I don't know where I am
I have a name that isn't mine
And reaching hands

Hold me now through darkness
Hold me now
I'll carry on

I sit up
Looking to give up
If I'm a little unsteady
It's only because I'm ready

I don't know where I am
But I know that where I'm going
You'll be there too

I have a face that fades with time
And your eyes
Guide me to the light

I lay down
As I try now
If I'm a little uneasy
Its only because I'm unsure how it happens next

I don't like where I'm going
But I take step after step
No more road signs
Just ruts in the pavement

And the lights of the city are far behind me
Too far now to turn back
And this road goes through darkened forest
I see eyes follow from the shadows

I don't like where I'm going
But I have no option
I've made my choice
I accept my fate

When people are searching for god
The very often look to the skies
They very seldom look inside their minds

It's the coast of a sea from where she is
From where in her eyes I'm a sinking ship
Being held hostage by an ending ocean
The albatross flies lowly
In her eyelids
As witness of my stormy demise

It's the edge of the world where she is
Where she wonders at broken walls
As bitter boarders and lines on her palm
The blood that forms a nation
In her lonely mind
As empty cities and broken hearts

It's night and day from where she is
From where in her dreams the day ends slowly
The sun hangs lowly casting shadows
And the only moon in view
Whispers haunting reminders about when the day was new

What's beautiful?
I have a dream
Meaningful
Everything
I find a reason
I known of love
And I know that I'll find
What's beautiful

And wherever you are
You're looking for me
As I'm searching
As I'm reaching
I'll find a hand
To hold mine
And walk with me
Through the hard times

Wherever you are

Walk with me to the light

I don't want to fall asleep
I want to stay awake
Working hard to make this dream come true
This dream of you
And its all cold
And its all wrong
That I'm not where you are
ripping me open
No use in pretending
No denying an ultimate truth
My songs became more sorrowful
That I'm not where you are
Come be awake
Take my hand in this living world
Come dance in the rain with me
Take my heart that was always yours
Because I feel all alone
That I'm not where you are

Ain't it strange how
The things we need so much
Become the things that hurt us most

Just a young man
A lost soul looking
Right and wrongs
Self destruction
Regeneration

Just a young man
Who hopes
Something I say
Can change the world
Reach somebody

Maybe young
But my minds set on
Where I want to be

Just a young man
Without answers
But with hope I'll find
Something that means
Everything to me

Just a young man
Sometimes a saint
Sometimes a fool
But I know I'll do
Anything for love

Maybe young
But my minds set on
What I want to be

The saddest thing is
I don't expect you
                   To ever really understand

There is Molly from Raleigh
A girl who's always jolly
But I see that she is crazy
She told me that I'm normal
And threw meaningless color onto canvas

Jenny from charlotte
Truth is she's a harlot
She'll say what you want to hear
Feign love when it's quite clear
She only wants your body

Ashley from Asheville
A hippy singing songs
And playing tambourines
And hitting the ****
But maybe not too smart

Lets not forget
There is Elizabeth
She's somewhere in china
She didn't want to leave
But I told her that she should

And then there is you
You know who you are
No problem too great
No distance to far
Because I believe enough to make it be

Endless muddled thoughts
Muddied fantasies
Puddles at my feet
Putty I can't mold
We have such visions of art
And dreams of love
Hopes of light
Darkened hearts

Our souls are only fingers reaching
Into our minds
Our feelings come from a place
Of spirits
They are speaking to us
Even now above confusion
They are speaking to us
And I hope that we can listen

Broken skin bleeding
Wind changing direction
When the leaves fall
Sending truth they fall on me
We have such singular wants
And bitter longings
Loss in pleasure
And joy in pain

If we wonder what it means
Well then that is the first step
Which leads to the top of mountains

I'll do anything I need to

Words have been said
In anger
Mistakes made
Bitter crutch of disappointment
Actions taken
That can't be undone
Conclusions reached
And we've both been hurt

So why?
When I look into your eyes
Do I still see love
And furthermore
Why do I still have
Love in my heart?

In the morning
Symbolic of my life
When its been a long night
And even friends became stranger
I hear the alarm
That is bird song
Drift along the current
And ringing in my ears

Why don't I sing instead?

In the morning
Still before the sun rises
Before the poison aims for my heart
And even strangers are my friends
I hear the shrill
You call bird song
Pounding in my brain
Keeping me awake

why don't I sing instead?
Why don't I sing to them?

And anyways
I've got a beautiful voice

*but I'm tired

why do you worry, nothing lasts forever... take a sip if you're thirsty  
Or die of thirst awaiting for the everlasting river.  
Why do you play, if not to win... You can score many points And still lose the game  
Why do you stay, when you long to go... You could take that first step
Which leads you to the top of a mountain
Why do you worry, when you feel it is right... Enjoy the happiness you have found
Or stay in sorrow awaiting the happiness you never can  
Why do you frown, when want to smile...

I don't know what is wrong with me
It's not the way I think
All my thoughts grounded in truth
The hard ground
I saw the clouds on the horizon
But it never rains
I spend my life waiting to die of thirst

In my eyes
You are the most beautiful
In my mind
The most amazing
And I'm wasting all my time
Because I want to
Because I don't know how to love you
Or why I do
The way I do

How can you belong to me?

The bet
ter part
Of me
Is more
Concerned
With love
Than make
king the
Change I
Know I
Need to

Everyone has their priorities
Everyone with their wants and needs
Everyone has potential
I hope that we all reach

But for
Me to
Reach mine
I need
Peace of
Mind

And love gives me relief

I think
I write
For one reason......
Not me;
You!!!

I see it
I see it and I don't want to
I see it
I see it and I know it's true
I see it
But it hurts to believe it
War
I don't want war
And you don't want war
No one I know wants war
No one you know
So why?
Why is there still this disease upon Humanity?
Children sent to foreign lands
Strangers who are brothers
Cut down in the name of something we don't understand
And why?
For what reason?
What is the motivation?
What is the goal?
I see it
It's dark and sinister
I see it
And I know the reasons
But I couldn't show you
I could say it plainly and bring with me proof
But so many eyes are closed
So many minds
Why?
All I can do is ask why
And hope you ask it too

One day this war will be over
And when it is
Swords and shields
****** fields
Artillery
One day this war will be over
And when it is, will I be king?

Her eyes a stained glass window
Shattered on the flor
And the windows to her soul
Told me all I need to know

Eros carved in bas-relief
Adonis on an olive jar
A graffiti portrait
Her face a painting fading slowly

And the windows to her soul
I saw all I need to know

There's a star I know
You'll never see
A blue star I carry with me
Heavy for my hands to hold
Too heavy to drop
I want to cut the clouds of wings
And this permitted archery
Fermenting summer augury
Late september thoughts
Flying through confetti skies
The wings are made of knives
Ripping and shredding at horizons
Until the mosaic has lost all meaning
There's a star I know
And a purple night
Becoming empty without it

Canyons now between us
May I step forward
The appearance of advancing
But still full of apprehension

And all occasion for repentance disappears
No concern with success or failure
Just to advanced is fortunate
In every way advantageous

Advancing with horns
Only punishing the rebels of my own city
A position perilous
But there will be good fortune

Its progress
Of holding together
Its the advance
Of unity
Its the forward movement
Of alliance
Its prospering
Its love

I know how to win her heart

Am I in control
Of my thoughts and feelings?
Or are they controlling me?
Am I afraid to say
When my emotions stand in the way
Of what I want to be?

How do I change
So that I can be the same?
Be a polestar in the night
And always give you your direction

And the army enters
The empty city
With a wagon full of corpses
It was a war I could have won
I had the numbers
But the leadership was faulty

How can I change
So that I can be strong?
Be a polestar in the night
And show you the way home

Control my thoughts and feelings
Or the army suffers defeat

My limbs
Waiting for the bloom
Stark and barren
In the heightened desolation that only seems to grow
I remember color
I remember flowers
I remember having a heart that was warm
I become the winter

My words
Used to be sugar sweet
Becoming rotten fruit
The death of what was beautiful when it was alive
I remember growing
I remember reaching
I remember feeling and having feelings
But I'm a soul becoming cold

I become the winter

Now,
Demeter cries
What has become
When nothing can be done

Now,
It is winter
And Persephone
Spends her time in Hades

Wise people
Are rarely thanked for their wisdom

What if the only thing I believe
Is that I don't believe in anything?
Even words only have the meanings
We give to them
I wish it was more symbolically clear
But wishful thinking never got nobody nowhere

And I'm here now

Walk through labyrinths
Cry into rivers
Alone in ancient temples
Smile at the sun

The audience now is deaf
Deaf they will remain
The only thing to do
You have to find yourself  

Take another step
Laughing at the moon
Awake and coming back
Breathing the air

As a part of a greater whole
Everything is important
Even the things you can't control
Bring you back to yourself

I'll be
A man without a home
No place to go
No place I belong

I'll be
A man without a dream
Not really seeing
Nothing I believe

I'll be
A man without a home
I sleep outside
I'll see no stars

I'll be
A man without a home
Nothing in my hands
No reason to hope

I taught you the skin of the wolf                                                 I                                        
My skin                                                             ­                                 saw                           ­ 
These fangs as a pretty smile                                                    you   ­                                         
My smile                                                            ­                        in                                    
                                                                ­                                           the                                      
These fangs.....                                                       ­                              rain                              
dripping blood from the last ****                                 You
But hungry still                                                            ­         promised                                  
Always hungry                                                          ­                     me                            
Always on the prowl                                                            ­                 your
These sharpened razor teeth                                                            ­         blood                
This lust and flesh for meat                                                             ­                              I  
                                                                ­                                                          promised
I taught you the heart of a wolf                                                         you
It's only beating                                                          ­                     a
To hunt                                                             ­                    flood

**I want you to die
Into me

I don't understand
I can't understand
I won't undestand
                             No matter how I try
                      To understand

Lucky for me
I'm as lucky as can be
Because I don't understand
Yet I undertstamd

A woman is not meant to be understood
Only to be loved

Its a wood stove burning through the night
Crank it down
Deprive it of the oxygen it needs
So it can keep smouldering
Conserve its fuel
Damp the heat
Bank the coals
So that they can last until morning

And maybe
At least I hope
Remain energy to create with

This thing goes way deeper
This thinking it is merely coincidence
It never is
Everything happens for a reason

Its all been planned
Were jumping out of the frying pan
Into the fire
Our great escape thwarted by circumstance

So buy a new TV
Buy a new car
Buy a new cell phone, apple or android
Sell your soul
And forget about the problems in the world

And any time and every time
In systems and schemes
Meant as diversion
To keep the everyman blind

Its all been planned
Since the very beginning

This thing
goes way d
                    e
                      e
                        p
              ­            e
                            r
This thinking
it is merely coincidence
It never *is
Everything happens for a reason

Its all been planned
Were jumping out of the frying pan
Into the fire
Our great escape thwarted by mechanations

So             Buy         a new TV
         Buy a new car
Buy a new cell phone, apple or android
Sell your soul
And forget about the problems in the world

And any time and every time
In systems and schemes
Meant as diversion
To keep the everyman blind

Its all been planned
Since the very beginning

Would you die
For something that you believe in?

Would you live for it?

If I can't write about love
I'll write about loss
If I can't write about loss
Then really what's left
The world
Yeah! That's right
I'll write about the world
And that's probably when I'm best

Because you don't know the girl I loved
And I don't know why she left
Or I do, but I don't want to
So if I can't write about love

I'll write about loving the world