The sun is up
And hope returns
Anew
Preparing
For another
Tomorrow...
I fell asleep praying
Praying
For exile
From bedlam
Forever
But life
Is cruel
Prayers but guttural
Chantings
Of quiet
Desperation
Nightmares
Shatter
My nightly vigils
Sleep
A blood curdling respite
From sun-baked
Depression
Why do I endure this
Charade
This caricature
Of ritualistic
Living
Why must anything matter
Anymore
This lonely
Battle
This battle of
Loneliness
I am
But "an army of one"
Decimated
Atrocities establish
Beachheads
Crowding out
Feeble counterattacks
Demanding of meager
Resources
From a soul so utterly
Bankrupt
And yet I wake
And yet I eat
And yet I sleep
And yet I hope
For another
Tomorrow?
I am needless to say struggling to keep head above water. Personal tragedy has hit home again - not complaining! But just sometimes there's only so much one can shoulder. I'm simply putting one foot in front of the other - numb to the world around. Not as strong as I think I am.