Maybe it was you after all
I had had my breaks and falls
I thought you'd just pass
But you stayed til last
Now I'll be true
Now, it is you.

Side by side,
Skin touched,
Excitement aroused.

Caressed your cheek,
Held my hand,
Gave it a kiss.

Fingers entangled,
Laid next to you,
T'was miraculous.

Messages,
Notifications,
Anyone of them,
I just want to hear,
From you,
Not too much.

Questions,
Answers,
All I want to do,
With you,
Not too hard.

But, I'm here,
Waiting for you,
And, you're there,
Waiting for her.

This feeling of anticipation is bringing me up and down on a roller coaster. I thought I was done, I guess I'm wrong.

Nothing much,
nothing more.

I can shine light on you,
I can laugh,
I can share my thoughts with you,
I can keep secrets,
I can hide all of you in me.

I have weaknesses,
I have problems,
I have feelings,
I have my doubts,
I have all of you in me.

Till the day you left,
Without a single word,
I can now cry a river,
I have questions now.

Why was it her over me?
Why did you leave?
Why did you break me?
Why did you shatter me?

I need answers.

Because I just can't seem to find you in me now.

Some part of me wants you back,
Another part of me wants you to stay away.
Some part of me gets jealous,
Another part of me just doesn't want to care.
Some part of me breaks,
Another part of me erects a wall.
Some part of me cries,
Another part of me is resisting.
Some part of me is real,
Another part of me is fake.
Some part of me wants to admit,
Another part of me is stoping me.

Some part of me still loves you,
Another part of me harbours hatred.

Speak up, they say.
Even if you're against everyone.
Voice out, they say.
It's your opinion.
Don't be shy, they say.
Nobody will judge you.

I spoke up.
Menacing looks were shot.
I voiced out.
They did not listen.
I wasn't shy.
They judged me.

Controversy, be your loyalty.