i don't deserve nice things
don't tell me
i am enough
i know
you're lying

people change,
and feelings fade
as time writes down
our love's charades;
a part of me
is still dismayed
over the lust
we've laid to waste;
as feelings rush
in huge cascades
i write how i
wish you had stayed.

blurry lights,
starry nights;
dreams have never been
such a sight.

but when

the real world bites
and dreams take flight,
then i am drowned
in fear and fright.

distant kites,
dreadful heights;
when will i meet
my demise?

not long ago
when you & i
were watching all the stars

the patterns in
the pitch-black sky--
we named one that was ours.

but sadly now
it's not the same
the stars, they seem so far

i've realized
the nights we spent
were countless wasted hours

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eventually
as time goes on
the star too, will grow old

before it turns
to nothingness
it will have to explode