I used to drawing these big yellow circles.
They would always make me happy.
Every time I did, I expected miracles
And I know that that seems sappy.
But there was just something about it
That forced my mouth to smile
I wouldn’t even have to think about it
At least that lasted for a little while.
Things have changed now that I’m older
I don’t have time to look at colors
Now, instead of thinking they look bolder
They’ve faded like light through closed shutters
Is it just that time has worn me down
Or is it just the truth in life
That an innocent smile turns to a frown
And a happy yellow circle into strife

Things aren't getting better
I still am not getting better
Hear my heart shattering
Still couldn't stop caring .
Living life as lifeless soul
Still u care about achieving goal.
I know u love some else
But I couldn't even love myself .
I wished you could see that I m crying
bleeding and the pain is over bearing
  may be you will never know
But I still want u to know.