Lost, within the vast expanse of time and space,
in the never ending story that is life.
Lost, with no sense of direction, and no star to guide,
haunted by fear, and blinded by pride.
Lost, in the darkness forever searching
for a time that will never come.
Lost, in false friendships, don't know who to trust,
open your secrets, then left in the dust.
Lost, with many decisions still left unmade,
things long forgotten that lead you astray.
Lost, in your thoughts unable to bare,
adrift in confusion found unaware.
Lost, amid the sea of lies and clouds of deceit,
endlessly drifting into the unknown.
Lost, in the carefree world of the past,
not sure of your future, unclear of your path.
Lost, yet your flame still burns,
just wait, the tables will turn.

you always asked me
why i sleep so much
but the truth is i don't
get more than a few
hours of sleep
i lay awake all night
waiting for someone
to notice i'm alone and
i'm scared and i can't
seem to find a reason
to live
i wanted you to notice
i was dropping hints
i was leaving clues
i was waiting

i feel like  i'm
drowning but
my entire body
is on fire and my
lungs are collapsing
and my flesh is falling
from my bones
i'm all alone here
and i'm waiting for
everything to stop and
for the silence to take over
please don't let me
slip away

do you know that feeling?
where you can't really
place what's wrong and you
can't really explain what's
happening around you but
you know you don't feel
alright and it's like you're
slipping away under the ice
and no one's trying to break
through?
do you? do you know?

why does it feel as though i need to share everything with you?
that if i miss any good moment in your life you must love me less
that who ever you're with will steal you away from me

i'm the lowest of people to love but find a burning in my chest that i couldn't be the one to give you happiness
i know i cant think that way
and its crazy and selfish
and i know i'm happy for your happiness however it comes

but still i cant stop my thoughts or my ******* jealousy
it will destroy me one day if i cant stop it
and i'm sorry for putting you through it

It begins as a small burning in my chest
Then the burning becomes a physical ball
I wear this crest
the ball, that is now ignited by flames
as it falls

When it reaches my stomach my eyes begin to burn,
I can't control it
it reaches my face

Put on that fake smile, do it!
but it's too difficult, the pain I feel as my flesh is burning from the inside is coming out of me

My eyes blaze on fire, flooding me with pain and jealousy
I speak to myself in an angels whisper
encouraging myself to stay calm and see what is happening more clearly

But a demon voice tears at me, claw like, and I cant stop my mind from thinking its destructive thoughts
You're not as good as that.
Not as pretty.
You're not anything.
Listen to yourself now, who could want someone who gets jealous so easily.
Look, you can't even hide it, who cares if you don't say anything, its written on your face.

I'M SORRY, I'm Sorry, i'm sorry......i'm..... so sorry

You took my life
You took my soul
You took the person that once was whole

All of you
Spoke too loudly
And
Now I'm deaf

Your bodies left me
After stringing me along
You cut off my circulation
And
Now I'm numb

All but one...

But all of you
Your eyes had teeth
They burrowed through my mind

And now I'm broken
And I fear
I fear so much

Sometimes I won't hear the words
He's spoken

I fear because I couldn't stop
The harm of me
I will lose the man who helped me to see