Have you ever gotten to the point where you push the ones you love so far away they don't even bother trying?
I have, it feels like everything is dying.
I mean it was might fault in the first place, I pushed them hard,
But I was just afraid of letting down my guard.
This is what I get for being scared of getting hurt,
This has all made me so very alert.
I'm such a fool,
And you were cruel.
I let him take advantage of me,
Now I'm drowning in a sea.
But it's not his fault I was so dumb,
It's not his fault I've become so numb.
I wonder how the ones I used to love would react,
I bet they would look at me and cry since I'm so cracked.
I wish I could say goodbye to all,
But you would get mad and put up the wall.
So instead I'll sit here and smile,
Hoping I don't have to stay for much longer.