i was lying on the floor in front of my grandma's fireplace, eyes closed. i felt so safe and peaceful. the warmth from the burning fire finding a home inside my reddened cheeks. i had a longing in my heart to do the same, to find a home in you. my heart was aching and still is. but it's okay because it's just proof that i love you so much. and it's okay because my mind was memorizing every note you played and every word that came from your mouth to form a song. and i was laying there wondering how the hell you love me. what did i do right in this world to deserve you? i mean, all i am is a mess. there is a raging storm inside of me but i think you're the eye of this hurricane. and with you, i feel so safe and peaceful. the fire whispered to me and told me i was going to lose its warmth but not to worry, because i would be gaining yours very soon. it told me to let go and welcome you in. and i will do just that.
