At times I feel powerful and hopeful
yet other times life has me feeling confused and dreadful
i could do everything in my power to stay resiliant
yet a weary feeling stays levitating around me
i can not stay consistent no matter how hard i try
sometimes i would rather be incoherent then to feel this way
to drown out all these heavy feelings and thoughts that continue to linger
at least then i could just let it be and not fight the drought
but drown in my sorrows and float in my problems that only exist in my brain
i don't believe my fulfillment lays in the clouds
i deserve to be here
i deserve to be happy
i deserve to be loved
sometimes... a break is all i want
enough time to catch my breath
sometimes, just sometimes

Rarely do I ever get a moment to myself
Everything that I plan sits dusty on the shelf
Staring at me silently each and every day
Poignantly reminding me how much I need to play
One day maybe up ahead in a year or two
Nothing will take precedence over what I'd like to do
So instead I fill my time wearing different masks
Intently doing all the things that the family asks
Bodyguard, Janitor, Chef, Taxi, and Teacher
Indeed are just a very few of my lovely features
Leisure however seems to always elude me
Inconsequential to how ardently I plea
Tomorrow is a whole new day to try it all again
Yearning for those moments I can find my zen

What's stopping you from doing what you're aiming for?➳
Who keeps closing the door?
Have you ever tried with all your will,
Then found yourself completely still?
Is it lack of money?
Or is my life so sad, it's funny?
Are you running out of time?
Or have you simply lost your mind?
- Who's stopping you from getting your **** done?
-But then you hear the music, and realize it's time to have a little fun.*☮
© Brittney Hibbert 2016

Breathe in,
Breathe out.

The cold air outside forms a cloud;
It reminds me
of my mortality.

Breathe in,
Breathe out.*

We are
all mortal beings.
We are
not invincible.