I'm used to people leaving
And Im so dependent with the home that I ruined
When the reality is ...

At the end of the day, I'm alone
Just
Me

They are leaving me but the truth is
I'm pushing them to do that
Because
In reality, I am alone

I am alone yet living in this great home

I appreciate the home which I can stay and will wait for me

But I messed it too much

I left stains that you can't get rid of
I left cracks that you can't fix
I left broken furnitures that you can't mend
I left it



I left it



I'm a coward for not taking responsibility but
It's not my home anymore
Someone is much worthy to be there
Not me
And it should have never been me
And it will never be me again


And now,
I'm alone
Just walking to different towns
A lone traveler
Who left her precious home

Just going with the flow
Just letting this waves bring me
Where it wants to bring me
Since I can't swim and
I can't control where it goes

But when I get to an island
Where I discover things
Someday, I can bring myself
To the vastness of the ocean
Not just going with the flow
But using my oars to be somewhere where I wanted to be


I know what to do
But for now,
I'll let the world take a hold of me

Hopefully I'll be back
Since I'm now terribly lost


Soon
But not now


Hopefully, I won't get lost
IF ever I get back

Is the moment
That I spent
With you

Don't blame yourself
No one is at fault but me
I did it, not you

We have our own lives
You are happier on your end

Still, I want you to know that
you will always be a part of mine

You have a special place
That you can return to


If you would love to

I did **** my hope of the comeback
But I included the hope of getting better

Yes, I'm shutting everyone out
But you were always someone special
You'll always have this place
In my mind
In my heart
In my soul
In my life

Please don't miss me when I'm gone
Hate me for leaving
Hate me for deciding
Without consulting you

It might be painful right now
But one day, it won't
Not anymore