Am I just waxing poetic
To try to mask the aesthetic?
Still painting the black skies that hover
over you in my presence as ****..
Ya your grey clouds are electric.
Oh it’s just part of your charm?
This toxic personality storm
acid raining on me
And when it’s raining it pours
Oh please excuse the floors
It’s just her personality flood
See caution tape at the doors
To avoid at all costs
Hazardous conditions like hers
that cause her thunder to roar
crashing down on me, lightning
All because I struck a nerve
All because I’ll never learn
All while I try to endure
Over and over again..
You'd swear I’m chasing the storm
keeping my head above water
In the same flood you created
That you stand knee deep in denial
Your crashing waves pull me under
..No more chance of survival
Just another dead body
Left to wash up ashore
This what you wanted or no?
What was all of this for?
The only thing that’s for certain
At least I know is for sure…

You may have broken my spirit..
*But my soul has weathered your storm

In the era of Mobile and Internet connectivity ,
Meeting in person is a different set of feel.

It took three drinks just to get me here.
You said it wasn’t enough, that it wasn’t clear.
Four calls to your voicemail.
I didn’t understand why, but I apologized.
Two trips down memory lane
And I don’t think it will ever be like that again.
One moment of clarity
But I can tell you’re forcing that smile.

I can’t bring myself to tell you what’s wrong with me.
Maybe I’m too afraid you’ll be angry.
No one’s been able to look under the surface.
It’s a mess like a circus, I thought it was my burden.
I couldn’t look at you and hope that you would understand.
That’s why I keep it close to the chest.

It took six drinks just to get us here.
You said it wasn’t my fault, but it is my dear.
Five hugs and a kiss for luck.
I want to tell you more but my words are stuck.
One date to make it up to you
And I’m so sorry.

yes or no
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it's your fault my friends are worried about me,
no, it's my fault, i asked, but you answered,
the wrong answer,
not even a proper answer,
i feel so toxic, i feel ***** in a way,
i miss you, i miss us,
i want to cry again, im holding it in,
it hurts.


yes or no
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