I sit upon an tall bar stool and watch them play.
The air is humid and full of mosquitoes.
One falls into my cocktail and writhes about in what I like to think is terror. Really its just instinct, electrical signals firing through the body of something small and insignificant.
Though its all too easy to think that.
My eyes and attention stray from those I had been previously observing. Drawn to the glass as though it were a beacon.
"Hello little guy." I whisper into my glass. "Want me to help you?"
I laugh quietly to myself for a moment, then down the contents. "A new page tonight?" I ask myself mockingly.
Smoke is billowing into the dimming sky. It is far away, but almost perceptible to my nostrils.
I wonder: is anyone burning? Perhaps a once happy family. Too far away for me to help anyhow. Even though the desire is there.
Hopefully it works out how I hope it will.
I regress with closed eyes back to the day a relation brought home a retriever puppy. Remembering how I had kicked it like one would a football to make it stop crying.
Such bad behaviour. Deserving a beating that. Its a shame my relative was such a soft-hearted one. More punishment would have been deserved.
My eyes open and dart back to the place I was watching before. I notice they're gone.
Playing a childish game near the poolside. One falls into the pool and splashes about furiously. No one is around to help it.
I stand up and walk over.
A look of terror, perhaps hope, appears on its face as it looks up at me. I know better of course.
Really its just instinct, electrical signals firing through the body of something small and insignificant.
After all,
The mosquito,
Fire,
Dog...
It all just depends on personal perspective.
Not not a reflection of my own character, but sadly I can relate to this way of thinking. Not an enjoyable read I'm sure most will agree. I hope it entertains your psyche though.
