So you just showed up in my life one day. So you were rough around the edges. I liked that. So you were kinda pushy. I liked that. So you demanded that I not say good bye. When I wanted to. So you made my heart flutter. I wasn't so sure I liked that. So you were bossy too and yes I liked that. So you became my friend. Yes my best friend. So where did you go? I didn't like that. So what the heck happened to you? I really didn't like that. So you got me to fall for you. I knew I didn't like that. So you disappeared. I really hated that. So now I don't trust you. I dread that. So now what? We give up I suppose?
In my darkness fear and panic flooding in. I wait for a hand in the dark As the night grinds me up. No glimmer of rescue. The darkness is like a heavy blanket weighing me down. Battling it like an angry animal so many endless nights. No tender kindness, no loving embrace. One failed rescuer lost to my heart forever. Offered some comfort attempt. Floating his boat in that harbor of dread. But I am lost at sea, my legs dangle as bait for sharks that tear at my flesh as my life force ebbs from my soul. Cling cling to the rocks the thoughts screech inside my skull....cling or it will swallow you!!
The battle is owned by all. Fallen take my hand as I can stand. No one is left behind. Bones of the long forgotten litter the land. Dragging shards of my battered feelings. I trudge through drifts of dead emotions. On the eye scape the horizon of my future. No cloaked boney finger pointing the way. Laughter does not reside in my ears. Echoes of might have beens waft in the air. My damaged soul survives.
You do not have to be perfect to be wonderful. You do not have to be a super hero to be brave. You do not have to be wealthy to be generous. You do not have to be old to be wise. You do not have to be abused to be compassionate. You do have to be human to be humane.
There is a lonely tether to never So longingly lingering in your mind Never will I kiss your handsome face So basic and dire Never will I feel your touch So tragically final Never will I fall into the serenity of your eyes Such desolate longing Never will I surrender to your whisper in my ear So overwhelmingly sad Never will I feel the happiness that was supposed be ours So empty