Never ask
when is your time
everything will be fine
if death is an escape
then dont be in rush

Struggles isnt just for a day
pain will linger too
even when you pass
it will stay
to those you loved
to those you prayed

struggle with them
mourn and cry
cause if death is an escape
then be afraid to die
Death is an escape
for alone
the living will tell your tale
and will feel your pain
cause it will hurt
more than you know
like a thousand cuts
for them alone

They will asked why
with tears
that you cant dry
for you left in pain
and not in peace

a hole in their hearts
that will never be filled
cause when you escaped
it was through that hole

So live a life
though
shattered and broken
it will be fixed
not by you
but with life itself
It will make a way
so that there will never be a hole
to be filled
but whole you
will be in its place.

The truth is
I got tired of pretending
I was happy with you
When the part inside of me
That hated you so
Grew so much
That it couldn’t
Be contained

A wise woman once told me
“Don’t ever go to bed angry”
I knew we were wrong,
went to bed, closed the door
With anger towards you
In my head
Didn’t want you in my bed!

Is love cruel
To you?
Your love was cruel to me

I tried to leave you many times
The loneliness swallowed me whole
Until I felt weak and beaten
You won, you were right
I believed the hateful words
you called me
I lost my self respect
You stripped me bare
Until the day came
When the truth exploded
Like the spirit within
The air
Is light
Without you
I can breathe
for the first time

I am a garden exploding with flowers,
Like a work of art
but your eyes were closed and
You didn’t care to listen to my thoughts,
You cursed me when I begged you to stop...
spelled your curse words...
Your so smart

I TOOK it and HEARD it
And tried to forgive,
Forgive the last time, or time before,
Forgive all the hurt
But I couldn’t take it anymore
Now the only person
I need to forgive is myself
For trusting a monster
Who is in love with himself

If he truly
Loved me
Than he would
Have been
More kind
When my
Dear brother
Died

I began with honesty, trust
An open heart
The door closed little by little
Every time you burst