I let myself go insane

Caught between two worlds,
You know which the right choice is
But you're held back
Confused, refusing to except the truth.
You choose the right way,
Saying it's just a test drive,
Immediately you feel relieved.
The negativity,
It's all but almost gone
Feelings rush back
Attacking at once,
You cry,
But not out of sadness.
You're overjoyed at this foreign feeling,
Saying its been awhile,
You accept it with open arms
Releasing the what you've held in,
For years.

It's all just
caught up with me
and now I
don't know what to be
watching raindrops on the glass
like the tears I hide
the ones I can't cry
in the name of pride
I forgot how black the night could be
standing under the moon the color of dawn
ghostly glow and just like me
consumed by darkness half is gone
I know the phases change
thing's will be whole again though I
have seen icy winters but
nothing's cold as goodbye
Well I
guess I misread
our story
a fiction in my head
Twilight crept in
like mist on the lake
you always seem to
give less than you take
and I watched the starlight fade
right before my shattered eyes
seems a flame can only burn
so long before the candle dies
and I know
that I'll be okay
but I wish
I could've found a way
to make you stay