girl goes to bed with makeup on, wakes up with sore muscles
girl goes to bed without locking the front door, wakes up in the driveway
girl goes to bed without saying goodnight, wakes up to brother shaking her shoulders
girl goes to bed with the phone off the hook, wakes up with mouthful of *****
girl goes to bed in the bathtub, wakes up with an armful of black thread
girl goes to bed in brother's room, wakes up with the tv still on
girl goes to bed next to boy, wakes up before he does
girl goes to bed without sleeping, wakes up the same time as always
girl goes to bed with a candle burning, wakes up to the sound of herself choking
girl goes to bed early, wakes up to obituary
girl goes to bed with her hand in the cabinet, decides not to wake up this time

I've got scars on my wrist
I've got scars on my wrist from the time I got too drunk
I got too drunk because I wanted to be brave enough
To be brave enough to tell him I loved him
I told him I loved him in the same breath as I told him I was dying
I was dying because my eyes wouldn't stay open
Eyes wouldn't stay open because I kept closing them
Kept closing them because I didn't want to see the blood all over one of the good white towels
All over one of the good white towels because I tried to wash it off in the shower but it kept bleeding
Kept bleeding because I cut deeper than I thought I had
Cut deeper than I thought I had because I couldn't feel it
Couldn't feel it because I was too drunk
I was too drunk because I drank all the beers left in the fridge and the ***** in the freezer
The ***** in the freezer because the beer wasn't strong enough
Wasn't strong enough
Wasn't strong enough

Normal people don't want to hurt themselves.

Your scared
Your confused
You feel all alone
The pain feels as if it goes deep into your soul
You have thoughts
Frightening thoughts
No one understands
You think
No one can possibly understand
Well, my sweet, I do
Let me take your hand
We can walk this path together
There will mountains, valleys, and oceans to cross
But we can endure the roughest weather
You fall, I fall with you
Tough it out?
You'll never have to
Tell me your secrets
Tell me your fears
Tell me everything
I promise, baby
I'll always be here

& in that very moment
You looked deeply into my soul & said
"I will never leave you"

A million moments later those words have faded into whispers
Those exact words echo inside my head every night before I go to sleep
I replay them over & over again as I enter a state of drowsiness
Hoping to once again them clearly , in my dreams

Because a million more moments will soon arrive
& I am certain that those words will no longer be existent
& I will be left with nothing but silence & a broken heart