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Stfuitsjordan Feb 2015
You haunt me,
You haunt me in my dreams,
With nothing beautiful or of what we could be.
You haunt me with the things I was too blind to see.
You haunt me in every way,
You haunt me even though i know there's nothing left to say.
With every day that may pass I tell myself
That nothing ever lasts.
You left a bitter sweet taste in my heart and soul,
I keep telling myself, not to feel guilty,
Not to be cold.
But you haunt me, you haunt me
And I can't gain control.
Loosing my grip
I'm not scared anymore, that we have deminished,
I Just want your haunting days to finish.
Stfuitsjordan Jan 2015
What is it that makes you tick?
You sligh fox, always talking so slick.
What is it that makes you so fine?
I spend all day thinking about how to make you mine.
What is it that draws me to you?
You make me feel so high, I can't function at this altitude.
What is it about you that makes me feel?
My illusion of you makes me think this could be real.
Maybe it's the way you aimlessly walk my way.
Maybe it's for the simple fact that your smile can make my day.
Maybe I'm just crazy to actually think,
that I too, can make your heart sink.
Maybe I'm in to deep,
and now I can't help but over think.
I over think your actions and words.
I just can't help it,
This unknown grey area is definatley getting on my nerves.
Stfuitsjordan Jan 2015
The page has now turned,
The thought of you lingers in my in far from infalible mind,
I'm too scared to move I feel like I'm trapped in this place,
I feel like I'm trapped in this time.
I just want to move on
But I feel like I still have something to fight for.
Even though you're gone, and its because of me
I want to go back right where we used to be.
It's unhealthy I know
for me to just come and then go.
for me to push and then pull
I don't know what I want,
I'm just a loveless fool.
You played me like a violin.
Pulling my stings
making me sing
Sing the most beautiful tune,
when I was happy and I was with you.
Pulling my strings
and making me sing
the saddess songs that sting
even the most heartless of hearts couldn't make me sing
the way you do.
and now that you're gone I'm here wondering who.
who am i?
Am i slick?
am I sligh?
will i sink?
or will i fly?
why does not the world know why
who am I?
who am I?
who am I?
With out you my words surely die,
wilting like a flower thats been in water too long.
wilting because it heard the violin's saddest song.
My socks are turning blue
from all the tears I've cried for you.
I ask myself...
with out you i am who?
Stfuitsjordan Jan 2015
Just kiss me under the light of a thousand stars,
Just make me feel like loosing you would be too hard.
Just tell me you love me and you'll never be too far.
Just say all the things I need to hear.
Can you show me love
even though it's love I fear?
Stfuitsjordan Dec 2014
I guess this is it,
I guess its finally done.
I guess I shouldn't be surprised,
I knew I wasn't the one.

I don't know what I was expecting from you
I know I can't expect it to be me you choose.
All I know is I was certian I was ready to
start pushing you away,
and in this time you've found someone to fill in my absent space.
For the record with that I will never be okay.

It is what it is, and I must let you go,
I never wanted to loose you
I don't know why I hadn't already lost hope.

As time has moved on
from you there is no sound,
just the ticking of me,
I'm now a time bomb.

I'm small & short fused,
feeling like I gave you all my love
& you've taken it just to abuse.

As my fuse grows shorter'
you distance yourself further.
I feel like my feelings are nothing but ******.
I can feel my self exploding
because I've held on for too long..
Suddley silence,
no more ticking, from me
the time bomb.
*boom
Stfuitsjordan Dec 2014
Racing through my mind like lightning through the sky.
Nervous as hell cuz can't manage my emotions when they're this high tide.
Despite, the fact that I'm pretty exposed,
I still can't fathom why it's you I chose.
I feel so stupid,
to fall in this trap again.
I feel so stupid,
because this love is one that  will never begin.
  Nov 2014 Stfuitsjordan
Xyns
I fell in love with you.
But then you took that away.
And gave that "in love" to her.
And left me with blank lines.
And empty dreams.
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