Red hair so fiery
Pale freckled skin so fresh and fierce
Thoughts so wiry
With honey brown eyes that pierce
My very being
I love what I'm seeing
When I look at her
My words find me again
No longer deterred
But still insane
Fame and fortune
No so important
A melodic tune
Aurally imported
This beauty, you know who you are
A vibrant shining sentiment
Put simply, a new star

Swirling
And twirling
My thoughts do fly
I jump to conclusions
I'm not sure why
I act like a ******
Its how I get by
I don't cheat
And I try
Not to lie
My brain
Restrains
My logical remedy
Lets face it
Not erase it
My mind is my enemy

Ever since the day I met you
I felt that I had always known you
And knew that I would do
Anything to have you
In my life
As time goes by
I realize
My life would be empty without you
You smile
For a while
And my heart leaps from my chest
We're not a love like the rest
All peons and serfs
Without a single shred of worth
Compared to your vibrance
You had me in a trance
I can hardly wait for that dance
that symbolizes
and energizes
A love flowing through my lingual art
On this our wedding day
A day of hearts
I vow to love you
Forever
I vow to hold you
Forever
I vow to hurt you
never
I vow my life to you
Forever
And i hope we will always remember
This heartfelt endeavor
Forever and ever
Until time takes its toll
Where i hope we may take a stroll
In a vast beautiful green park
And remember our wedding day
On a day of hearts

It's where I sit and smoke
No joke
I find my head
So I know I'm not dead
When I think
On the brink
Of the sanity which I dread
I think of my idle Poe
Which helps with all of my poems
Some things I know
Others I don't
I think of everything I wrote
The things about a s*ty year
Where I found the reality of my fears
Am I crazy
I don't know
Is it bad
Ask Edgar Poe
Who wrote words that spoke to my soul
And broke through in clarity
"I became insane with long intervals of horrible sanity"
In this line my true sincerity
I think about this in my serenity
As the white wretch
Upon his pedestal
My bench

Morning breath kisses
Before everything begins
Before you weigh my many misses
Theres a feeling within
A feeling you get when you open your eyes
And see my subtle slumbering silent face
As peaceful as the skies
A once vile smell is gone without a trace
My love
You rise above
Into the light of my embrace
The alarm sounds
You'll soon be late
But you lean over and kiss my warm lips
I haven't brushed or even awoken yet
But that doesn't matter
Our love is all you taste

Hopeless
Fearless
Useless
And restless
My life is drift wood
Floating silently
Down the river of life
My sliver of strife
Seems silver on sight
Many say I am demented
The right ones see
They see the core of me
I remain tormented
And then I disappear
Instantly
Nothing more than a memory

an image

locked away and lost

gone yet vivid

until my block is tossed

all at once it consumes me

so much that i cannot see

anything in future or past

i cannot last

i remember the pain

striking into my back

i remember the rain

falling like tacks

my mind is frazzled and gone

i cannot see to the new dawn

my mind suffers many casualties

do to uncensored and vivid memories

I wake
Then bake
To differentiate
My state
Is ******
Slightly alone
But not quite caring
I'm daring
And debonair
To be millionaire
Without money
Going through life
With a disposition so sunny
It funny
The words I come up with
Inside my brain
When I think about
The girl I love
Mary Jane

Jealousy???
No this isn't jealousy
This is much more dangerous!
Tick tock
Goes the clock
Which measures your safety
Because you've encroached on my territory
Here comes another horror story
I will beat you
And break you
Until your blood flows like a river
So shiver
Your worst nightmare arrives
What will you do
When even your hope dies

Fire lights the sky
Explosions up so high
How I love the fourth of July
But then I think
Why
Why do we celebrate
When our brothers and friends are dying
When innocent youths duck down crying
While on our own streets women are *****
In the loud crack of the fireworks
A man is shot dead
By a silent thief who quietly lurks
In the shadows where a man now lies in a pool of red
Police abuse their powers
While mere children are trapped in bullet showers
As a shopkeeper is killed as he cowers
All i see is impending doom
I do not know to what or to whom
As you sit reading in your room
Do you also think we've built our own tomb
Will we all be without homes
Will our country fall like Rome
Will this become an ancient tome
A mere relic of our great land
With its beautiful beaches covered in sand
Purple mountains standing graceful and grand
And I realize
I should dry my eyes
Because no matter what
Nothing can take what we have built
Never will our flower wilt
An I will say forever, and ever
Remember, remember
Change will come in November
Or maybe not
I know not what lies ahead
And i don't care, I just hope i wont be dead
And then I avert my eyes
Oh how i love the fourth of July
Because then i can think
And watch the beautiful iridescent skies

In the sky
I see red eyes
Staring down upon me
Seeing everything I see
I feel I cannot escape
I fear no one can relate
I know I must not hesitate
If I do I seal my fate
Staring down is the eye
So high up in the sky
I take my last breath
And I stumble upon blissful death

A feeling of loneliness
A showing of heartlessness
Soaring and flying
Living and dying
Inside this force, it grows
A felling we all know
Inside a darkness grows
From my head to my toes
Inside it rises up
And yes it pulls me down
I see an empty cup
Insignificance is my crown
For this I shed one tear
For there is few I fear
You persecute outside your preference
Merely proving your own insignificance

I'm sick
I'm sick of the world
I'm sick of my curls
I'm sick of small toys
I'm sick of a voice
I'm so sick
And I know not what to do
I'm so sick
Of the hell I've been through
But most of all
I'll say it proud and stand tall
Because my words are true
I'm so sick of not being with you
I'm sick of not hearing you talk
I'm sick of not holding you as I walk
I'm sick of not smelling your hair
Because mon etoile
I love you more than air

Anger rises
A soft heart dies
Hardened in crisis
My mind just flies
I can write again
For the first time
In so long
My mind has long since been gone
Can you hear me crying
Can you watch me dying
I feel like flying
Heat rises
In blood so cold
A cut entices
Anger so bold
I can remember
A hot temper
Drowning me
How I wish I could see
I am not bad
Merely just mad
And yes i do remember
My woefully hot temper

Hey buddy!
I noticed you're a little nuts
But
You gotta understand
For you life isn't gonna be so grand
Anymore
Because
Don't you see
You're fooling yourself
Because
She doesn't want you
But she does want me

Is it meaningless
If i hold your hand
Is it meaningless
If i touch your face
Is it meaningless
Or is it grand
Is everything meaningless
In this rat race
Every grain of sand
Every rock 'n' roll band
Every lady and every man
Yet i still stand
I stand and write
I write only what is true
Whats true is not always right
Whats right is not always you
And again I stand
I stand for those with no home
I stand for those who are all alone
I stand for those who need defense
I stand for those trapped behind the fence
Of total control
I know I've lost my hold
And now I've turned cold
I stand for those who are helpless
Even if you think its meaningless

Feel it pumping
Feel it flow
My pulse is jumping
It's time to throw
You ****** me off
For the last ******* time
Blood you shall cough
As your lungs die
Your breath leaves your chest
You ****** with the best
Now die like the rest
My boot crushes your throat
I'll get the last vote
As I leave you to float
In a stagnant mote
Of sewage and ****
And I'll go and get lit
And watch you burn
Because *******
It's my turn

Outside the heat rises
So much it hypnotizes
People into unwanted slumber
They fall over like fresh cut lumber
Their heart rate slows
Their temperature grows
Their minds implode
In this episode
Of unbearable conditions
In this rendition
I try to be brave
I try to save
A humble knave
In this heat wave
I fail as I try
And I too, die

Hello Sebastian
My young guardian
'Tis me the maze
Starting your heart again
The maze be my mind
And you are the conscience
Helping me through the indifference
Hearing the sound of resonance
Echoes upon the wall
Have made you fall
Into a slumber which has crippled me so
Sebastian don't go
Your gone now aren't you
Oh my
And oh dear
I have stumbled upon my worst fear
The maze has no keeper
The firefly has no haze
My hellish rule is over
I have no more days
I will make my sounds of pain so subtle
When the stone of my walls begin to crumble
Into the underworld's clammy grasp
Sebastian sweet boy
Your soul is free at last

In the dark corridor
They cannot hear you scream anymore
Armies have fallen to the maze's mysteries
all who meet him will decease
The man, the bull, with inhuman speed
Will grasp your throat until you bleed
Inside the monster, deep and hidden
He wants to be forgiven
He is trapped inside of this beast
An excruciating disease
if you would please
listen to me
Then you shall see
An empty room
Where he lives out his days
Accompanied by a firefly haze
Do not dwindle or take a breath
For if Sebastian hears us
It will be our death

Sebastian
Sweet Sebastian
Your all alone now
You're wondering how
It could end up like this
As you stumble through mist
Thinking of better nights
Thinking of more than one light
You walk down the halls
Feeling the walls
Nothing can help your plight
You'll lose even if you fight
So walk deeper my boy
Walk deeper sweet boy
Follow the fairy
But always be wary
Of your cold dark void
The one in your heart
Yes that one in your heart
That never will start
Again
My friend
You must live out your days
Exploring my maze
Guided by this firefly haze

I once was a man
Born into profit
I was given everything
But I've lost it
I ran away
I've gone astray
In utter disarray
In total dismay
And there i stood
Trapped in a maze
An unknown neighborhood
But suddenly there was light like day
It was a firefly haze
come to guide my way
And I understood
I am the keeper
My life to walk deeper
I must live out my days
In this never ending maze
guided by this firefly haze

I'm caught in a daze
Stuck in a maze
Of my own confusion
Of a desperate delusion
Its all an illusion
Of better days and better nights
I keep on finding myself in fights
About nothing
About no one
Still there's something
Still there's someone
That holds still my beating heart
Keeps me from falling apart
It's a firefly haze
That lights my way
Until i find you
And i shine through
What has held me back
Given me a heart attack
As i ascend to glory
I'll tell you a story
Of a never ending maze
Where i live out my days
Guided by a firefly haze

They can be blue
Or they can be green
They can be nice
Or they can be mean
They can see you
Or they can see me
They can fly high
Or swim below the sea
The bluish and greenish haze
Whirls me around setting on this daze
That makes days
Go by in a wave
In the constant motion
In deep blue ocean
I see them inside
and I wonder why
I cannot hide
I think I'm losing my mind
I'm in a bind
Is I look behind
I must be blind
If I cant find
Something to make me feel
A little better
A little happier
A little smarter
Its just a precursor
Of the world around
A sound
A resonance
A being
Of arrogance
Humbled
I wish I could feel the same
The way I felt when I was insane
The voices are gone
So no in mind therapy
When I think that I'm done
I'm immersed in entropy
My world has been rearranged
By bluish green eyes that change

In a world overturned
the empty tide returns
this tide binds me to my mission
this tide inside my vision
shadows shroud my soul
emptiness once again takes hold
as my soul dies, my body lives
as my body dies, my power gives
and i still manifest this tide
but you, you are still empty inside

In areas of unknown desire
In my heart there is a fire
Tremendous is the power of the tide
I feel so empty inside
Death will come to those who wait
My heart is so filled with hate
Hate for all who offend
Hate for those who do not defend
The ones who need defense
Will fall thus hence
We are overcome by the tide
We feel so empty inside
Mark this day
So you will remember all that I say
I have no quarrel with those who save
Those who are to afraid to be brave
Then you shall have no quarrel with me then
Although people call me heathen
As we give our lives to the tide
You are the one who's empty inside

Ignition
Flames do fly
My vision
Does try
To see why
Every time
I die inside
Pushed passed the pyre
I travel down the wire
With speed so dire
Feel my desire
Climb higher
And higher
And I admire
The funeral pyre
The sound of the crier
Burning the liars
I never tire
Scorching the world
I am FIRE

I hear it

Beneath the surface

Fighting for freedom

From its subconscious post

Inside its kingdom

Inside it's host

I knows its there

And i fear it

It knows i'm here

And i hear it

Her thoughts speak clearly

Of trechory

Of indignanty

Of infidelity

Of pain

And of suffering

Should I let go

Or should I ignore the echo

Can a dream come alive
Jump straight out of your mind
Be real, in present time
A thin veil separates my dream
From reality
But I can see
Her hand upon the veil
Listen to another tale
Look again and there she is
Standing there in front of me
Waiting
Hoping
I reach for her
Pull her close
Move in to kiss her
And she's gone
Dreams are fleeting
And teasing
But she is real
And soon will not disappear

I feel that metal flowing
Now don't let it stop
The volume keeps on growing
To bring you all sweet, sweet rock!
The masses join the crowd
Now it's getting loud
As if lost in a heavy dream
I want to hear you scream
The music starts thumping
As my veins start pumping
Heated blood
Look what it does
I mosh and I thrash
I throw out the emo trash
Because I wont settle
For less than metal
That beat shows no signs of slowing
As we all begin to rock
Come on, feel that music flowing
And don't let it stop

Mistrust
Misleading you
To meander through hate
Our fate
Is sealed
As glass slams against my flesh
I stand strong against the threat
Insanity grips her soul
Sarah, I do not love you anymore
You've lost your beauty
Lost your purity
Lost your touch
Your not worth as much
I've left you
Because you left me
Beaten and battered
How do you feel now
That our love is shattered

Inside a feeling of darkness diminishes

Before my goal finishes

I think i'm losing control

I think i'm losing my hold

Enter a muse to my rescue

As my darkness goes askew

A head which color's changes

As i stare in blank faces

Is this love in my heart

Which strikes me like a dart

Or as an arrow from cupids bow

My darkness is at an all time low

Happiness rises inside

During a long time to bide

If u fall in love follow this fact

If u fall, the darkness takes a disappearing act

I am lossed

Tossed

Locked

And stuck

Im in a fog

A mist

A haze of bad luck

Im confused

And used

And unsure of my mind

Im stupid

Intelligent

Dumb

And smart

But mostly blind

These answers i cannot find

Caught in hypothetical execution

Im trapped in my own confusion

I am so cold
I'm so cold I'm as cold as ice
I am so cold
I'm so cold not even magma will suffice
To melt my anger away
To melt the pain from my veins
With a heart suspended in liquid nitrogen
My fury explodes like hydrogen
I am so cold
I'm so cold everything i touch freezes
I am so cold
I'm so cold I'm colder than the coldest breezes
Blowing through the channels of time
Blowing, writhing, sending chills up your spine
As you live your life away
Upon your death day
When you are warm and so very old
Maybe you'll remember me
The man who was so cold

Music
Makes my mind clear
Music
Is all i want to hear
It takes away my pain
Makes grey skies as clear as day
but you know what they say
good things can never last
its not as fun as it was in the past
they're moving on as i get passed
by the world
leaving me no plan to unfurl
this is something i alone cannot fix
lets face it once again I'm caught in the mix

Merrily
And warily
The girl does spin around
Jubilantly
Exuberantly
The girl does hum a sound
A face
Of grace
And slightly comical
Her hair be blonde
Her eyes be blue
With a tiny pointed nose
Freckles dance upon her face
Like music from another place
Where she's from no one knows
From a world
Of little black lines
The girl does find
Another life

My heart is a mirror
Shattered like glass
I look into my past
and feel the pain
of my life and times
Lost all in one day
Those voices are stirring
My veins are all burning
My muse is gone
My fuse lit
I sing this song
And here i sit
Wondering what if i could change my actions
To cure this fatal attraction
To freeze the motion of this reaction
Decisions
Death
Illusions
No breath
Confusion
Ahead
My vision
Of my corpse lifeless and dead
My heart is a mirror
In which i see my true self
A loneley pathetic man
Who stands alone and grand
Where ocean meets sand
I stare into the glass
Trying to forget my past
Yet i find myself back where i started
Inside this shattered mirror
Of the broken hearted

Boredom comes
And boredom goes
Boredom shrinks
And boredom grows
None of you can see
What boredom knows
Can you make it through
What boredom sows

She chewed me up
And spit me out
She ****** me in
Now I want to shout
As my fury rises
The pain hypnotizes
Totally mesmerizes
And now I cry
For love once gained
But is now lost
I feel that I've been tossed
Aside
I cant hide
From this tangle of lies
She claims to love another
Yet she meets me under covers
And now she left me in the dirt
Lonely and hurt
And now I'm sure
In every bone
And every joint
I'm all alone
Soaring past my boiling point

A sharp pain

In vain

Stuck in my life

Inside my back is this knife

Brought by my friends

Who fell from loyalty

To win their own royalty

Jealousy

Hypocrisy

Denial

And betrayal

Or is it...

You're leaving
On a trip of majesty and wonder
Your reading
A poem by your lover
Parts of it make you cry
Others scare you to death
There are parts where you ask Why?
There are parts where you hold your breath
Through all of this it makes you smile
The fact that you'll see me in a while
Like you've never left at all
You know I'll always know where you are
In short au revoir, mon etoile
Goodbye my star

Inside the pain erupts

A pain so bad it cuts

Into my skin

Down within

My soul

Turns cold

With every breath

Of air tainted with death

Heart break comes at a bad time

As insanity knocks at the doors of my mind

Religion
Is an ascension
to a higher being
seeing
the things
which bring forth an obsession
for information
lustful ways
give way
to what they say
will ruin the day
and then there's one thing
that rings
a truth
ricocheting from wall to wall
killing all
we fall to our knees and beg
but our prayers they fall upon deaf ears
no matter the years thrown into it
nothing to ease the tension
until we reach our ascension