Don't say it's okay
Don't say it's fine
I drag
the heart
you tore apart
into a straight line

I remember God on the family tree.

I know that you are lonely and I think we need to walk.
I keep wasting words about the weather and other small talk.
You gotta promise to keep pulsing just like the April rain.
Your lips are just flesh but they sure cover all the pain.

I walk beside you because you are my best friend.
We can walk through the park, hand in hand.
I'll keep you safe no matter where, until we reach our end.
I promise to love you past the trees,
but there's one thing I don't understand.

I can't see the harm in loving,
despite all that comes.
There were those that left before me,
but I'm not that one.

Your leaving is death,
but I still keep you alive.  
I wait for you, Kori,
and that's how I survive.

They say you never get over it, you just learn to tolerate.
I let cups of coffee stain my lips to remove your taste.  
I don't wanna think less of you; you can't be someone I hate.
I don't want you to disappear or for my love to go to waste.

I could die from anticipation just to **** the wait.
Until I see you again, my dreams will create
a way to visit you in my own personal paradise.
What it would be to hold you again as you shiver from the ice.

I'm not sure if anyone could love you more than I.
But I welcome them to do, or at least to try.
I want you to be loved. I want you to be happy.
I want you to be loved with or without me.

I want you to be loved.
I want you to be loved.
I want you to be loved
with or without me.

Forever haunted by the words you say.
Forever haunted since you've gone away.

I stare at the crowd
rapid breath intakes
sweaty palms
I can't do this

I look back at her
telling her I can't do it
don't overreact
she says

my heartbeat is deafening
faster
faster
as if it wants to escape

I can do this
I think
but i know I can't

I'll fail
fail
f a i l

I feel nauseous
why am i so stupid
all I have to do is go there
just walk
**** it
why am i afraid?

I can do this,
I convince myself again
but my heart and sweaty palms
told me otherwise  

I look back to her again
with my pleading eyes
on the verge of crying

it's so simple
how can you fail,
everyone else can do it
she says

simple for her,
but I am not her
nor everyone else

why are you forcing me?

i bite my lip,
so hard that it's bleeding

I stammer
but- I - can't-do- it

why can't you understand?

You told me I was a pan of hot water and
sometimes it hurt to touch me
but you never thought to turn the temperature down

you just left me boiling

its april 7th and you are still a joke
but somehow you are the only one laughing anymore

I once told you I saw fire in your eyes
and you said it was just the reflection of the
ever burning in mine

I've only now realized that was nothing but a lie

The devil is not red or pointed with hooves
The devil is of flesh
He arrives as the very thing you want most

His name is Lucifer
And he is tall and handsome

He keeps you blind to the raging hellfire
He does not mention you are floating on the river Styx

When he finally pulls the curtain and
gives you back your corneas and irises
You are like Persephone-

you've already eaten seven pomegranate seeds

Monday, we are lovers
Tuesday, we are complete strangers
Wednesday, you are so nice
Thursday, you are like a devil in disguise
Friday, I want us to be well
Saturday, all you do is yell
Sunday*, we are starting to fall—

I just don't get you at all!

IF I WAS A BUTTERFLY
YOU WOULD BE THE ONE
THAT HOLDS ME BY MY WINGS
AND DROPS ME TO THE GROUND
JUST TO SEE ME SUFFER
AND YOU'D CRACK A SMIRK
BECAUSE YOU HELD POWER
OVER AN INNOCENT
AND QUITE FRANKLY
IN THE HUMAN FORM
THAT'S EXACTLY WHAT YOU DO
YOU PICK ME UP
YOU DROP ME
AND WATCH ME BREAK
AND YOU SMIRK
BECAUSE THAT POWER
TURNS YOU ON
MORE THAN I EVER COULD

i loved him
he loved me
but when there is 700 miles
between two teenage hearts
sometimes love is not
nearly enough.

s.w