A mother always knows
The right thing to say.
She makes you laugh
When you don't feel like it.
She comforts you when your
Heart has been broken.
She makes your favourite dinner.
She stands by you when no one else Does.
She loves you no matter what you do.
She always there when no one else is.
When she leaves this world you miss
Her even more.

A wave of anger washes over me.
My heart beats so fast I am sure,
It will break my ribs.

My mind moves so fast my lungs,
Can't keep up.

I long to out an angry scream.
I feel it building and building.
Hitting a punching bag until
My knuckles are red and raw.

Anger lives in a moment and dies.

He watches the news for hours.
She watches videos that says this
Virus is not real its a hoax.
They never can explain why the
Death count keeps on rising.
Instead they blame politicians
And Bill Gates.
She believes the vaccine has a
Chip in it while he says  its made
From dead babies.
Angry when say its not real once
More.
My response is.
Tell that to everyone who has lost
Someone that this is not real.
Tell those front line hero's this
Is not real.
Telling them both to share no
More narrow minded views with me
Because this is very real.

I tried.
You gave up.
I staid.
You left.
You texted.
My battery died.
The best thing that ever happen.

Spare me the lecture!!!.
I know that I fall in love alone.
But this isn't a feeling that you
Can turn off.

I wish that i had never laid
My eyes on that man.
Hating myself for being unable
To let him go.

I can't think.
I can't breath.
I can't dream of someone else.
Maybe I deserve the pain.

I shouldn't answer his message.
But this sick love as you call it
Is better thank having nothing.
Call me crazy tell me it's on my head.

Just because I can't be with him.
It does mean that this love just
Dies because it doesn't die.

I am tried of the worrying thoughts.
My mind moves so fast my lungs
Can't keep up.

My mind moves from thought to thought.
Playing the past over and over in my head.

Trying so hard not mess everything up.
Anxiety is like a breath that's stuck in
Your throat taking the life out of you.

A heart for every person I have ever loved.
A tear for every face I will never see again.
Passing thoughts and dreams of escaping.
Just look for a some were to call home.
Searching for that much needed happy ending.
Opening the flood gates with no fear.
Letting these feelings flow deeply and freely.
Filling blank pages and empty lines with heart felt words.
Holding on old memories and happy days.
Remembering long and lazy Sunday days.

Falling leafs and bare tree.
Long nights and tormented dreams.
Frost bitten tears.
The days come and go.
But the pain still hurts.
Death has no sound.
No scent or face.
Saying nothing.
Taking everything.
Death left me Autumn tears

In my dreams.
I'm somewhere that I can't be found,
Laying in the strongest arms where nothing can touch me.
Feeling the softest touch tasting the
Sweetest kisses.
Living in a day that can never die,
Staring into eyes thats as deep as
The ocean.
Lost in a world that is truly my own.

While the world watches insults being exchanged like kids in the playground. Promise made that will never be kept by either side. People moaning about elections being rigged, everyone knows that knows.

Politicians senators and presidents don't really care about the people. They tell lies keeping the truth hidden from everyone. Saying anything just to get every vote  they can no matter what it takes.

You only matter when your vote is needed by people who don't care about you. They care not for us but for the money and power. It doesn't matter who you vote for things will never get better no matter who wins.

Not easy to find forgotten dreams.
Remembering happy days.
Missing the conversations we had.
Wishing time could be turn back.
Feeling more lost and alone.
Worlds apart.
Gazing up at the stars.
Knowing that you are behind them.
Looking down on me from heaven.

I
Am
On a road but
I don't know
Where its going.

I want
to open up to
You but I don't
Trust you.

I long to
****
The demon
In my head.

I need
to stop
Loving you
Because its
Killing me.

All I see
Now is
A black
Heart.

Broken minds and bleeding wounds.
Words that can't change anything.
Saying sorry doesn't make it better.

When the past isn't dead and you
Keep suffering in your head.

Do you know what it is like to feel
Pain that hurts so much you can't breath?, because I feel it everyday.

I want to fly but they won't let me.
Seen but never heard by anyone.
It's either their way or no way.
As each day and night slips by.
I die that little bit more inside.
My deep wounds never heal.
My heart is too broken to fix.

I pray every night hoping
That God hears me.
Hiding feelings in lines of poems.
Laying awake missing old faces.

Asking my self why I am so broken?.
Why am I not healing?.
Why won't they listen to me?.

My mum's pain didn't stop until
The day she died.
My brothers and sister smoke the
Pain away.

Is it okay not to be okay?.
Is it okay not wear a fake smile?.
Is it okay not to always be strong?.

I remember why I could see the
Beauty in everything.
Now I see nothing and feel nothing.