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Sophie Hulmes Jul 2013
In a tornado of confusion
I was always stuck in Kansas
The tinman had no yellow bricks for me
And the lion, even less

Through emerald tinted spectacles
In a city where we're all the same
The wizard knows us through only applaud
Not through heart or lands we came

I click my heels a hundred times
But home is where the knowing end
The rest become great illusionists
As if the future is their friend

A full circle of whimsical hearts
Being nor a witch, a munchkin or scarecrow
In a labyrinth of smoke and fire
All while my hot air balloon is ready to go
Sophie Hulmes Aug 2013
tonight i desire a kind of life
that parents would name disappointing
i would live through lonely skyscrapers
that were much better known as my haunting

to dress in gowns as black as my future
and sing the blues to desperate smirks
as they grab my thigh in a hollow lust
and to let them would double my whole night's work

straight ***** would become my drink
ordered at bars where they welcome my type
leopard coats swung over a slippery stool
while i'm in the bathroom, with men who knew i might

i'd ride the subway in the early hours
with that almost vulnerable stare i flash
smeared lipstick and a desire of death
hoping this nightly routine would stand as my last
769 · Sep 2016
repeating toxicity
Sophie Hulmes Sep 2016
"you've acquired new scars,
birthed since the last time,
i saw you so bare."

   he buries his arousing discovery
into my patchwork skin
kissing each neat slit like they make him want me more
   like the ground within his bones begin to rattle, losing control
forcing him to rip open the barely healed seams and watch my blood pour
his gaunt eyes seeping with lust

"i love you, my girl,
regardless of the controversy you create."
  
  though we know it isn't regardless of,
it's because of
which is why, in 6 months to this date,
when it's time to want me again
exposing me to the slaughterhouse beauty pageant we become
he will discover further harm,
wounds dedicated to his fleeting lust
736 · Apr 2015
what's your secret
Sophie Hulmes Apr 2015
and if i splutter complete honesty
i never stopped checking up on you
asking friends of friends who might know a guy
just what it is that's dragging you through
733 · Aug 2013
losing
Sophie Hulmes Aug 2013
i am not these words
nor these actions or hearts
leave me be, puppeteer
let me craft my final start

i'm trying, i am
to free of this heaviness
but with every day passing
i become myself a little less

i have feared for too long
a cloud lifting me so high
for a darker storm awaits
vengeful, with a laugh so wry

tonight, i lay drenched
embracing an old, ****** clutch
the anticipation since farewells
for friendships that cruel can't bare to grow rust
722 · Jul 2013
it's been eight months
Sophie Hulmes Jul 2013
i wasn't at least surprised
by your callous gaze on me
another name, another notch
on the bedposts where you can't sleep

i learnt through that december
that a kiss can be empty after all
that a label i so easily dismissed
really does means 'just friends' and nothing more

i know it silently haunts you
losing the first honest thing you'd ever known
but it's hard to sympathise with a boy
that swears love to girls who then walk home alone
562 · Aug 2016
future with anxiety
Sophie Hulmes Aug 2016
it's the ache that blossoms between your rib cage
gnawing through all you thought was stone

it's the electricity that needles through your bones
slicing hope of ever holding a steady hand again

it's the violent **** of such a feathered nerve
shredding all that you wish to be settled
555 · Aug 2014
delegate
Sophie Hulmes Aug 2014
"But I'm sad tonight."
I cry, clinging to the soles of your damp leather shoes
"Drop it all and put me first."
I demand, spitting control like blood that I can't bare to lose
"I'm disappointed again."
I sigh, venting a rhyme though my heart knows it can't move
"Nothing changes with you."
I whisper, the blame game being my subtle grand ruse
#im
549 · Feb 2014
it's 5am and i am nothing
Sophie Hulmes Feb 2014
i'm nothing but a cliche
doubting everything we were
but who can blame me for these questions
when you lay in bed with her

two weeks, that's all it took
for you to fall out of love with me
despite your concern of the end
you're coping fine, even comfortably

i feel my inspiration slipping
i can't think, let alone write
because when i do it leads back to you
and all i do is cry
Sophie Hulmes Aug 2013
careful fingerprints tracing my waist
the cold coffee lingers on your distinctive taste
a smirk through words of a future we plan
shan't question the truth of the worlds most honest man
a lighthouse in what has been a year of thunderstorm
for i could lie here forever, knowing winter, we'll stay warm
433 · Jul 2013
the moment i knew
Sophie Hulmes Jul 2013
for too long i felt
that to explore new skin
would be nothing more
than the biggest betrayal

but in today's early hours
i discovered the beauty
and overwhelming love
for an old friends simple exhale
Sophie Hulmes Feb 2014
my courage has escaped me
deserted me, at best
it knew i was no good for long
and ran just like the rest

i bathe in the loneliness
the one i longed for once
the peace and quiet makes me hollow
and i'll admit, i've regretted it since
every ******* mouth is filled with lies and deceit
and yet i'm the one that ends up alone
352 · Jan 2017
a requested death sentence
Sophie Hulmes Jan 2017
not one body earns a life
by distancing themselves from the world,
from politics

not one body can be saved
not one body can learn, nor teach

when you bury yourself beneath the battlefield,
you are the first trampled upon
344 · Feb 2014
i'm trying, i swear
Sophie Hulmes Feb 2014
i'll stitch you back up
slowly, but diligently
until you can stand well again
and maybe even proudly

i'll race to your door
even to sit in true silence
just so you feel company
in your abode of familiar sadness

i'll sing you 'til you sleep, my dear
to the tunes i know you like
even if only 'til you nightmares pass
and rest their vicious fight

i'll speak words of only honestly
because false hope won't help you now
but i swear that if i could find a cure
then i'd fix you, someway, somehow
311 · Oct 2014
this might be time
Sophie Hulmes Oct 2014
time and time again
we wrung ourselves dry
we'd rather sadly run out of love
than admit we didn't try

— The End —