thousand eyes
thousand nights
deliver me to the realm
tasting of ambrosia
slick honey thick and full
running down my brown thighs
I'll drown in your disguise
gulping at the very me
legs curling around your skull
hands tugging at your roots
******* you in for more
breathy moans swallowed
large palms gripping at my flesh
neglected you snapping at air
delirium coating your veins
living for my satisfaction
humming at every ****
fingers entered and coiling
thickly coated in my sweetness
pressing for deliverance
desperately coaxing me to the edge
upon my heavenly release
my unraveling unwinds you
with shuddering breathes
and slick glossed lips

brain buzzing- burning
the lines of daylight and nighttime
she comes for me no matter when
this pain that carves my gut

open my mouth- they stare- mouth shuts

it's not a big deal- dont make a fuss

fingernails gripping under my chin- stay hushed

pallid brown skin and hazy coal eyes
carrying on the lie "I'm alright; I'm fine"
sleep, my nemesis-lover, crossing the line
skin sweltering- scalding
at night beneath sheets too cold
whatever this condition has it out for me

open my mouth- they glare- mouth shuts

Do you want to know why I’m like this?
Do you really want to know what’s wrong?
The problem is you.
It’s all of you.
This is what happens
When you abandon your friends
When you ignore the people around you
When you take advantage of your family

People aren’t designed for that
Humans require community
And as I watch you all
Finding ways to love each other
I sit in quiet jealousy
To not make you feel shame

But to tell you the truth
I’m dying
Depression is eating away at my soul
I can’t survive alone
Not much longer
Not like this

"you are not lazy. you are just sad."

I have no interest in being a depressive.
The depressive gene is a recessive gene,
it leads no where.
Relapse got me treading tracks I've already been down.
And they lead no where.
So I say no!
Cause nowhere's not where I wanna go.