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 Oct 2014 serendipity
septemb3r
I used to be scared of what hid under my bedsheets,
hid in the shadows of my closet.
I've come to find that I am what is hiding under the sheets.
(hiding from what?)
I am the shadows in my closet.

Yes, I write about sad because I am sad.
I AM SO ******* SAD.
STOP telling me HOW TO FEEL,
HOW TO ACT,
WHAT TO SAY,
AND HOW TO SEE THE WORLD.
I'm caught behind my silence because I don't know how to tell you
everyone is screaming at me
and they just won't stop
and I can't seem to differentiate between your crying and my own.
All I can see is broken glass.
I hit the wall so many ******* times
holding a bottle,
holding a ****,
holding a heart.
There's shattered glass everywhere.
No wonder my feet are bleeding.

"Your voice is so quiet."
"Speak up, please."
I'm screaming your name and you won't turn the **** around.
Was it something I said?
Or didn't say.

Do we want to hid in closets
or under piles of blankets
because that's the only place I feel warmth anymore.
That's the only place I feel *safe
 Oct 2014 serendipity
Big Virge
So ….
What is … " The Deal " … ?  
with the … " Relationship Game " … ?
  
because ….  
Truth be … REVEALED … !!!
  
I Can't …  
Take … " The Strain " … !!!
  
It's ALWAYS … "Drained" … !!!
and left me … " Pained " … !!!!
  
When …  
" Rejections " … come ...
  
From …  
THAT … someone ...
You … Want to … SEE ...
in … " Your Bedroom " …
"Beneath" … the sheets … !!!
  
What is … " The Thing " … ?
that makes you … Want To ...
  
…….. " Let Them In " ……. ?!?!?
  
" Into " … Your World ...
Let me ask you girls … ???
  
Is it … " The Skin " … ???
that makes you … " Think " ...
Your Game … is … SET ...
For The …. BIG WIN …. !!! ….
  
or is it … CASH ...
That … This Man … HAS … ?!?
That Makes … You Say ...
  
"I'm open today !
for more than just
a passing, Hey !"
  
cos' that ... Fa Sure … !!!
may prove to be … " Flawed " … !!!
when you know … DEEP DOWN … !!!
  
You're just a … ***** … !!!
whose choice was made ...
just to …. GET PAID …. !!!!!!
  
and …. NO …. !!!
NOT IN … that ...  
  
" Simple Way " ...
  
of … Getting Paid ...
for a … Working Day ...
  
Your Type of … wage …
" Resembles " … THOSE ...
who face … TIRADES ...
because they're … **'s … !!!!!
who trade in … LAYS … !!!
  
Now that's … " A Game " ...
that's … " Long Since " ...
" Paved " … a wave of ways ...
for girls … to … PLAY … !!! ...
  
The … " Wife for Hire " ...
whose just a … LIAR … !!!!
  
Relationship … BLISS …
WITHOUT … " A Kiss " … !!!
  
and … Without … " Honey " ...
cos' things get … BITTER …  
Without … THAT MONEY … !!!!!
  
So fellas … !!!!!
What's the deal with … US … ?!?
  
Do we … deal in …  
…… " LOVE " ….  
or just … " Quick Ones " … !!!!!
  
Yup … you now whats … !!!
with …. " ***** ***** " … !!!!!!
whose … " Game is Lame " …
cos' they have … NO SHAME .. !!!!!
  
"I'll do you
if you buy me food
and rough me up
like i'm used to !"
  
What kind of game … ?
" Abides " ... such rules … !?!
When … what we do ...
borders on … ABUSE … !!!!!
  
" Abuse " … of ...  
… Each Other ...
because of what … ?
….. " Colour " ….. ?!?!?
  
or …  
because of … PAIN … !!!!!
from a … " Previous Game " ...
  
Rejection … HURTS ...
Until you … OBSERVE …  
The Pain ... some girls ...
have in … " Their Worlds " ...
  
Like … CHESS … they move …
EXPOSING …. ******* ….
and … Showing … THIGHS … !!!!!
  
So Fellas …. BE WISE …. !!!!!  
  
Don't Push …  
" Your Knight " … !!!!!!
where there's … NO LIGHT … !!!!!!
  
Make SURE … Your Game ...
is …. " Tight and Right " ….
before …. YOU SIGN …..  
  
… " Any " ...  
Dotted Lines … !!!!!
  
INVADE ... The Space ...
but … Don't You Waste ...
  
" Your Tools " … Desire ...
to … **** … then … FIRE … !!!!!
  
The Rules of … " The Game " ...
Seem Strange … TODAY … ???
  
Treat a girl like a …  
…… ***** …...
you get tru' … QUICK …  !!!!!
  
Play the …  
" Nice Guy " ...
  
You … MIGHT ... get a slice ...
but only …... IF ……. ???  
Your Miss … is … NICE  ...
  
By that I mean …
  
She … APPRECIATES … !!!!!
  
A man whose … " Sheen " ...
is … Basically … CLEAN ...
Even when … he dreams ...
  
cos' …  
He Dreams ...  
of…… YOU …...
  
and ….  
Sharing Food …
and …..  
Sharing Love …
  
til' you fill ...
" Your Cups " ...
  
The cups that … RUN ...
When The Game is … WON … !!!
  
because … Your Game ...
ELEVATES … Beyond … !!!!
The … " Petty Stuff " ...
that often … STUNS … !!!!!
  
The … " Cheating and Lying " ...
whilst ALWAYS … "Implying" ….
A LOVE …  that runs ...
  
WHEREVER … They Come … !!!
  
BELIEVE … It's True …  
  
So ….
Don't be fooled …
and know the rules …  
  
Don't fall for … The Game ...
of what people …. SAY …. !!!!!
  
Talk is … CHEAP …
while action speak
of … So Much More ...
when it comes to … SCORES ...
and … " Relationship Awards " …
  
How many have … WON
when their time is … DONE ...
and how many now … " Lose " … ?
when things … " Fall Through " ...
  
Quite  … A FEW …
I'd Suggest … !?! ...
  
But ... TRY YOUR BEST …
to find … " That One " …  
You … TRULY LOVE … !!!!!  
  
As I age in … these days ...
I find myself … RESTRAINED …  
  
When it comes to …  
EVEN … " Playing " …  
  
and runnin' …
  
The … " Old Saying " …
  
"Hey there baby !
You Look Great !
Can I take you ?
On a date ?"
  
cos' I like … My Plate ...
….. "FILLED" ……
WITHOUT … " The Guilt " … !!!!!
  
of claiming …  
What is … FAKE … !!!!!
  
A Partnership …  
That's …. GREAT …. !!!!!
  
"within" … this ….
" Human Maze " …  
that drives many …
….. INSANE ….. !!!!!!!
  
The one we …
" Choose " … to name …
  
as … YES …  
  
" The " ….  
" Relationship Game " … !!!!!
More of these things, we all have, at some point, well I'd hope so !!!
Some, better than others ...
Try your hardest not to love people like me
I promise it will be worth the effort
To avoid a heart that beats as foul as mine does
One that will take you to the ugliest places you’ve ever seen
And have you dance in dirt and swirl in broken glass
But I’ll kiss you in those places
Every one of them- in such beautiful ways
You’ll start to think blood smells like my perfume
And that thorns are more beautiful than flowers
I’ll make you want me
In the way that a tyrant wants a kingdom
In the way that lions want antelopes
It will be maddening, it will make a savage out of you
And by the end of it when I leave
And surely I will
You’ll be a hybrid of a human
That hunts for hysteria and hungers for hostility
You’ll be so soiled by me
You’ll see the world as I do
You’ll understand a little more about things
And how awful everything is
You’ll know why we name hurricanes and not rainbows
And I’ll be one of the hearts worth the effort to not love.


A raindrop

landed upon the petal of the rose ,

lingered there  ~

refined in elegant repose.

The rose laughed

in joy

and fragrant bloom.




Then slowly,

delicately,

the raindrop slid,

until finally

it descended to the soil

in respite.



Absorbed by the earth

to the roots it would flow,

unbeknownst to the rose

still there to help it grow.




The rose

in sorrowful solitude

then looked up to the sky

from whence the raindrop came ~

its leaves held up in gratitude.

And in abundant mercy

the rain softly fell

from above.



This is Love.


“That which God said to the rose
and caused it to laugh in full-blown beauty,
    He said to my heart,
    and made it a hundred times more beautiful."
~ Rumi

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