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Jolan Lade Apr 2018
I dont understand
I thought i had a plan, a way
I got born into this wasteland
Shot into this quicksand
I want to name it a no man´s land
But everyone want´s to claim the right
And they fight
I have trouble understanding.
They hand me this brand
Then commanding me to do "an expanding"
In this world where everyone is grandstanding
Im trying to throttle down to make this landing
One thought scares me
That this might be everlasting.
!M just a little one who´s in progress, far from finished...
Jimi Johnson Feb 2020
Ideas went butterflying
Into the sky
Whooping and singing
A complete understandment
Soon to fall to the
Ground
With a dissolving flutter
And slouched away
And swayed into
Endless night
Leaving nothing
But shards of
Emptiness
YV  Jan 2014
Water
YV Jan 2014
I devour every breath you take
I false my veins in understandment of water
The droplets of the liquid that drip from your eye
I pour sunshine into my drink
The one you bought in the corner
I scream for your thrist
You break my back
You don't seem to scare
You seem lost
You inhale a white smoke
Its dangerous
I take in the angst
I struggle not to dust the water sprinkles.
s Willow Jan 2019
Without a sound
the day dies
and I’m left with
a loveless night,
and a saddening morning
The understandment we had
Lost.

Devoured by madness
My heartbeats for
another day to die.

Living causes hate.
Lost souls evaporate
and dissipate.
Samira Jun 2017
I want to fall in love. I want to fall so deeply, so hard in love. I don't want to just love... because I have loved many times before but for once I need someone to open a new door and to adore and love me. I have loved but I have never been in love. I have never had a man love me back... not even my father. I want to fall in love and I want someone to fall in the same hole of love as me and make it our own little hole. Let's fill our hole together and make it whole. Simple. Fall into eachothers holes as if it was our hearts and bury eachother in respect, playfulness, understandment, compassion, trust. I just want to fall in love and yet those like me, remain unloved.
Sydney Rose  Oct 2018
leftovers
Sydney Rose Oct 2018
it has been a while
since you been gone
i can feel you near
as if presence is here

active in my life
casted major role
understandment easy
i never moved on

haunting my dreams
night times are brutal
your shadow is company
imaginative figure among

present in the mirrors
looking deeply within
you are a part of me
every aspect within

you are in my mind
do you hear me speak
distancely miles far away
five missed phone calls

times are changing slowly
you are still presently here
past is the presence still
there's too much of you left behind
Tyler  Jul 2022
KILLER
Tyler Jul 2022
I WILL CONSTANTLY EXECRATE AND FIGHT AGAINST THE SYSTEM THAT ABHORS WITHIN OUR HEARTS.

THE ANGER OF WHAT
WE DO NOT UNDERSTAND ARE
LIKE WALLS TO HIDE
GREATER UNDERSTANDMENT
TO ONE'S SELF-FUFILLING
GOOD PROPHESIES.

TEAR.
THEM.
DOWN.


AND BUILD A MIRROR.

GIVE ME PASSION.
GIVE ME HOLY FIRE.
GIVE ME THESE BLADES
I WILL DULL
TO FUTURE TRIFE, PEACE,
AND LOVE.

UNTIL THEN,
I WILL RAGEFULLY ATTEMPT TO DESTROY
THE DISDAIN AND THE HATE INSIDE YOU
OR I WILL
DIE TRYING.

FOR I WILL LOVE
WHEN I LOOK INTO
YOUR EYES
AGAINST THESE
ODDS INSIDE.
Jesus Padilla Mar 2019
It’s funny how I spent most of my life and education in school thinking I was someone special when in reality I am nothing of that sort. Just people in the education system and adults telling me so in maybe in a sort of confidence? Whether it be for good intentions or just that they didn’t know any better. In a work or classroom environment, it is a linear format. Problem, solution, execute, it was easy to continue and just focus on the goal and that made things easy to do. Just follow and continue to the next problem at hand. It can be seen that I have my **** together, but I just know how to play the game that is expected of us to do. Which is easy to do and saying that makes me sound like a robot or someone who has been brainwash. That can be the case depending on who you talk to. As much I see myself as an individual who sees the world in a certain light and feels as if they have some new and amazing meaning of life… it is all the same… it is just mashed up together in some pile of construct meaning that each person can look into and see what fits for them.

Like religion, philosophy, motivation, all subjective and can be anything. Meaning and happiness is everything and nothing. You can’t find it, its something that is found and even if you have it you might not know it. You continue to fall into the game of life and abide by society’s rules and continue to each path that may shut you down and kick you down. All because our forefathers pass down to us and continue to pass down. Maybe I just don’t know the meaning to life itself or true happiness, just finding temporary happiness that can sustain me in a matter of days or months but soon it will end once I reach to the emptiness of my room and the demons in my head that swirls around in a fucken **** storm, slowly feeling disconnected to reality and transported to a whole new world you didn’t know it exists or if you can escape. From here the whole world is in your head, filled with expectations and all the voices of the people and thoughts of you, for you. Your thoughts are clouded and can’t seem to find your own voice. I do my best to try and speak my true voice and have a creative outlet to do so, but once I were to take the time to let that voice out, I find it locked away and can’t get out, and my mind goes crazy. Locked in this swirl of thoughts and dreams and worlds I created.

I became good at creating worlds to which I escape in my thoughts, where all is possible and I am disconnected but yet there in my own world. The feelings of these worlds almost make me feel like that my made-up world is the true world but soon I get pulled back into a dull world in which I find myself just putting up a mask and doing what I need to do. With this curse it is hard to communicate to others in a way to find some common ground and have a level of understandment but with each generations and society changes it hard to find that common ground as social media paints a perfect world that most will try to get and if no one fits that profile, they move on and don’t engage. They move to find their perfect world. In most cases they face reality and find other options, then there is me who can’t find a place anywhere. Nowhere in my life do I find a good place where I can back up and say this is home, this is where I belong. Family and friends sometimes make me feel like this but in the end, once I am alone with these thoughts… it all changes. I am transported to whole new worlds where in my room I am a teleporter, and can just escape from everything.

I dream of different situations that can happen and feel it can happen. I call to god to guild me and call to hear his voice or anyone to give me something and the more and more I ask and the more I won’t get anything direct, the more I feel alone in the world. I personally don’t believe in religion in the form of traditions. Rather I am more spiritual that there is something out there that can provide something and hold secrets that we cannot know until we die. This can be a god or something of that sort. I enjoy philosophy as it can bring new answers to people’s lives and maybe a moral code to follow. Which can be its own god, but religion here lead by humans, is broken and bound to be broken since the unity of religion is broken down to the individual based on their own core believes and what they feel to be right. Which in the end when judgment comes its based on you and not what traditions you followed. And yet, with this in mind I still seek God and beg him to come to me and hear his voice and just sit down and talk to him.

I am nothing special, I am just a person who is trying to figure out this broken world. Trying to find the little happiness I can find and find someone who can give the same amount of time and energy I give for another person. Just going through and playing the game and do what you need to do. Questioning everything and just trying to escape from this world and go into one of many worlds I created and be free. Instead, the fight continues where I am trying to escape my mind and find one true self in this world and hope to find true happiness and have the life I dream of. But it gets harder and harder as the demons come closer and closer each time I am alone in my thoughts… I just want to be free… I just want to find me… I am just trying to escape my mind…. God please come and help me… I am just trying to find peace… help…
Tyler Jun 4
you've unlocked
an inner sanctum
of childhood within
me
golden days
understandment,
love, and my
most intimate
lore

you are a
brilliant
friend when
you choose
to be,
an excellent
conversationalist
and dancer

you made it
feel like my
mother was
alive and
discussing
every thing
my heart could
contend to
express

meet my children,
I'll hunt you to
discover them.
indefinitely yours,
indefiantly born-
even if you are
lost to this time,
I will find you again

— The End —