Karma, Karma
hateful heart in trouble,
***** deeds of action
will now simmer and bubble….

That surge in the stillness of air
vibrates leaves on every tree,
the truth laying below deceptive layers
where you think you’re safe to be.

That tingly feeling on your skin
the spark of fire within your eyes,
a surge of deception fills the air
as light flickers in the sky.

An eye for an eye
paybacks can run deep.
Do you think yours are any different?
Karma really does SEEP!

Be careful where that energy roams
Karma pays back in triple,
for that ***** deed done and lie told
can devastate, destroy and *******.
~

you were an education
that I'm still paying for

1) Why is it that every time i try to leave my body are also the times you emphasize the little things that don't really matter to me?

It'll be days where I'll hear you whisper to me things like:
"No one's gonna call or text you."
"Your wallet is nothing more than a hollow shell of an accessory that makes you feel like an adult."
"Everything you have right now will mean nothing to anyone because the successes you've had were meaningless to begin with."

2) Why are you such a hypocrite?

You've always reminded me that I have friends that look out for me but days later, you take it back and tell me that no one loves me.

You've always reminded me to keep my phone and wallet at the pockets of my pants because it's more worthy than myself yet days later, you tell me these are my most useless possessions

You've always reminded me to study hard and challenge myself everyday yet this whole time you remind me that once I disappear, so will everything I worked for.

3) Do you want me to go or do you want me to stay?

I can sense you're helpless without me. You always want me to help you find your phone or your wallet because no one else will. You want me to help you become literate for the sake of just being literate.

But from all the help that I do, all I get are your sadistic paybacks. You torment me in ways that I feel manipulated, helpless, and weak.

4) You're so powerful yet why do you need me?

You can just pick up that ringing phone with 3 notifications from my friends asking me "What's wrong?".

You can just read that book about theories all by yourself.

You can get the paper on your wallet that has "Do not cut yourself" written in it.

You can do anything without me. yet...

5) Why do you always remind me that things will get better but as I get older, it only gets worse?

There is some relief as you move on and see he moves on too. It let's you breathe though when you look his way it does hurt a little bit....but then you see him fall as hard as you did...that's when the rest of the relief  sits in... cause you know she won't be there to catch him and he'll  land on his face and have to pick up every piece just like you did....there is something so relieving to know it's not only you... and paybacks a ***** ain't it?

In digging a pitch garden made with stitches of ruined charcoal
I sowed into ten bowls made of silver
Ten showmen, made of clay and soul.

I knew enough to know I didn't have a second to have for myself first.

Still, it's worse to know I thirsted for a patchwork portion of stable
little points, painted on a thrift store surface.

I didn't care how clean or worn it was,
because it always does the same thing
and it stings my eyes
and dyes my curtains

It brings my lies
and paybacks certain.

Not knowing is enough.
Showing feels too tough.

I baked my show sinew, and stuck it in a stock ***.

It's a lot.
By god it is.
Caught in needlepoint necks makes my life something I could give.

Whatever is planted
or may be seeded
There is a ceilings in all,
since the alpha has a beta,
and all lives shall
taste the death, I think
there shouldn't be rush,
If you further given us
a modern cutlasses to
attack ourselves and
brethren I have no doubt,
oneday there shall be a great
paybacks on all, no matter
how much nucleared your
projections are,
no matter how much superpowers
you are, I know and I know
you can't beat that monkeys
living in that forest on that
trees