When you tell me that I'm beautiful, I feel it, I breathe it, believe it
Got me feeling indestructable, I love it, I scream it
With you, I'm a queen upon my throne
With you, I build a kingdom out of stone
You fill me up, you fill me up

On days like these the sun refused to shine because of people like me. We would rain eternally on the inside trying to wash away the disloyalty and sadness. We walked on shards of glass to prove that we were indestructable, however, we are just as delicate as the very bottle itself.

I swim in bare walls,
Dark tide, images:
glass meets tile, crashes
Ricochets,
Stings; sheets
Tattered.  Life
through a grinder.
Splintered.

Unnatural menagerie,

The tiger crawls,
Surfaces.  Escapes the well.
Breaks cold links:
Steel, Iron,
Indestructable spiderwebs
spun fervently,

Silent explosion.

The tiger flexes, nails
Grip flesh.  I am torn
inside Out.

Vertigo.

The tiger paces,
restless among confines,
spinning eyes.

I will the world
to                Burn.
          Drown.
End.

there are
three states of matter.
three
states
of Becky

solid.
i am sturdy. i am
for the rare times in my life
responsible
respectable
hard
to crack
but if you do
I am like glass
i shatter
it takes a long time
to fix myself
I crumple
I realize
though I thought I was
indestructable
one short fall
on to the
rock
bottom
and I am
everywhere
a mess
a pain
to clean up
I promise
even if you vaccuum
I will still stab you
in the sole
of your soft
foot
when you are least
expecting me

turn the heat up.
I am liquid.
emotions
freely
move about within me
they are
controlling
my decisions
controlling my life.
I am
liquid
most of the time.
you cannot
break me
for I am already broken
into
tiny
molecules
of who I am.
I float
along
in my
state of being
rising
with the temperature.
who I am
makes me angry
it bubbles up
inside of me
popping
splashing
singing
hurting those around me

dont
get close.
dont
show me your skin.
your real self.
I will burn you
when I boil
I will hurt you
stay
away
even though
I ask you
not to leave

my gasseous state
is nothing at all
numbness
i feel
less
than air.
less
than anything
that exists
at all.
I drift
through life
but I have no weight
no passion
nothing
just
a reminder of what I was
who I am
the people I've burned.

the scars i have left
hold more of
who I truly am
than the me that
is myself
in this state.

the smell
is the worst
potent
dank
lingering
long after
I have begun to form the moisture
on your upper lip

you will lick me off
swallow me
please
don't wipe me away
let me
inside of you
I won't hurt
you
anymore
I promise

I fell in love again today,
Or could it be I remembered?

I don't mind where we are,
I don't mind where we are.

Indestructable?
But, no.
I'm broken shards of glass.
Pick me up and put me on a shelf to be admired by your friends.

Soon, I'll walk backwards.
Find my younger self,
Side pony-tail, jet-black nails, too much mascara,
I'll tell her, "Hey girl, he's here to stay."

Just let me find myself first,
Let me find myself.

Mae.B

you helped raise us
no other woman can hold
a higher place in my heart
full of southern pride
you never held your tongue
or seemed to be shy
stating how you felt
it needed to be said
so you pay no mind
grizzly glue
you were our strongest bond
kept us all in line
fed us and held
your children when we cried
its hard to believe
such an unstoppable force
can leave us so fast
with no warning
and it hurts my soul
not having you here
physically to comfort
this wild and crazy family
selfish and greedy
thank GOD for your lesson
of being pleasent to them
no matter how bad the deed
yes ma'am i watched
took notes for my son
and for whomever will listen
2 years you've been gone
every second i spent
hiding the pain of you
not being with me
to hug and kiss
cook food and watch Jeopardy
your corner looks bare
i still feel you there
layin where your lap would be
you rubbing my head
made life worth living
troubles evaporated
my sorrows disintegrated
happiness roamed free while
i was in your castle
Long Live My Queen
now that your gone
your fortress is no more
i dont feel as secure
being bombarded by
boulders of depression
that let in the rain
precipitation in the form of
life's defects you shielded me from
our worst fears
lizards and hate
engulf your once pure living space
the weakest of your children
let your virtues fall
on deaf ears and blind eyes
but not me Madear
ill forever promise to stay
as strong as Hercules
and Samson everyday
just like you were
my grandmother
the indestructable MARTHA MAE

there's this place
on my arm that goes
"swish"
It's the bit without
nerves where
the metal lies.

if I was bionic
and my heart
were made of steel
I'd be indestructable

but
then I
wouldn't be able
to  feel.

I was a fire,
burning,
crackling,
bursting.
Many have tried
to effuse
my vitriolic flames.
But I was too strong,
too powerful
for their deterrents.
I could've take on anything
everything.
I'd burn,
scar people,
just so that they'd remember
who I am.
Strong,
independent,
ultimate,
indestructable.
But then,
in a moment of weakness,
I was extinguished
into nothing
but a pile of ashes.
A stolen soul.
A broken heart.
And all it took
was a missive.

It was then
that I realized,
I'm not the fire.
The true bearer of this flame.
The fire was from
the one person
that I respected
that I trusted
that I loved.
They fueled me.
And they
were the one
that killed me,
that left me dry
with just the words
"Good-bye."

Fourteen billion isn't big anymore.
For some, it's chicken feed.
When big business and governement
Talk finances, it's chump change.
It's smaller now.
Why only fourteen billion years ago
We exploded, were carried by stellar winds,
Along with every atom for every star;
For every one of us together,
Equal and indestructable.
We travelled, unknowingly, at light speed,
With family, friends and strangers,
To unknown destinations,
Through the dark,
Into the light,
Into life.
Fourteen billion years is really nothing.
There are no atoms in boundary lines.
We shouldn't let a few billion years
Come between us.