hot ****,
the lust i have for you would devour a nation
the longness would subside an ocean
and the desire would intoxicate my whole being

i love you, deep within,
it erupts in my veins and feeds my empty soul with bitter-sweet corruption

a taste, from your holy spirit makes it seem like i can conquer the crimson black night
You see,
your godly figure manages to **** my mere sight, over and over again
to me, no money nor miles would prevent me from having the pleasure of seeing you and gaze into those sinful eyes
Your mere eyes have the utmost power on me,
you see,
You could strip me with a gaze,
make my body tremble with a touch
and enchant me with a sigh
I surrendered myself to your grace,
as you and only you can kiss away my pain with a word,
**** my body with a smirk
tempt me with your presence
and cuddle my insides with your heavenly voice


In loving you, i found a home,
a safe, ****** and a cosy place where i belong
and i choose to stay, for as long as i breathe
Do you even know what would i give to be yours? how far i'd go?.

Today I'm going to stop
This ridiculous destructive thing
I've been doing it to myself
For five. miserable. years.
I talk so much about
How I hate to be controlled
but this is controlling me
I'm wasting my life
and this is my fresh start
I don't want to paint over
the same old canvas
I've already painted black
I've gone down this road before
and I could have been a killer
I don't want to be her anymore
The girl no one could help
and just watched her waste away before them
I'm no longer going to count the numbers
and measure and weigh
and cry and hate
I'M DONE
it can't control me anymore
she told me she was worried about me
now I know it's too far
what do I care anyway about all this?
It won't be very easy
but I'm not going to do this to myself anymore
I'm taking this canvas and BURNING IT
I'm starting fresh
I'm done with this
I'm finished
I need to be strong enough
for her
I won't become a statistic
under the earth in a wooden box
with only a block of cement
to prove I ever existed
because pretty doesn't have a size
and for her
I'm going to stop
Five years
is long enough